I never thought I’d be raising my daughter without you by my side. After all of the dark places I pulled you from, lies I uncovered, worlds I helped you forget, and dreams I helped you achieve...I thought you’d be there through the hardest times of mine, without pushing me further into the darkest part of my dark side. You’re not all to blame, of course--we’re human, and I made big, big mistakes. But it’s Christmas, and for one Christmas...I’d like to feel as if I am loved again.
My heart...can’t physically do this anymore. Everyone blames me for everything....everyone wants me to just read their minds and fix the problems I cause unknowingly. It’s not like I don’t apologize.
I need my friends now, more than I ever did...but I have none. You were my only one.