#otherhearted questioning

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As a kid this is part of what I always wanted to be. Does this say something about me? I dont knoww

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Got petplayed so hard I started to think I had a beak.

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I feel like kink can make this sort of stuff very confusing. The question is "with" or "as" (as I understand it) but when you desire to act like a bird for the sake of nonsexual petplay- desire to take on that persona for a given time- how can I be for sure that it was merely roleplay or some connection to the deeper self? I am identifying "as" something for the scene given- but what if its just a "with" outside of the scene- what if the identification either way doesnt truly exist outside the scene? What does that say then?

[uncertain-identity]

Theres this really fun game you get to play with yourself. I like to call it, "wait a second- I thought I killed that part of myself a long ass time ago- what are you doing in my house?"

And then you get the chance to do one of two things- push it down as long as possible or make out with it. Both result in another identity crisis.

Greetings! Call me C. I thought I resolved this whole mess with non-humanity a long time ago. And I believed everything was resolved!

If that was true I would not be sitting here wondering if my draw towards being a hawk/falcon is of deeper meaning or not. And further, what that means for my past experiences.

I accept any sort of advice & do actively wish for any help or dialogue but I will say that this confusion makes me really dizzy & conflicted. There is quite a bit of past.

Kink will be discussed here! As it is important to the conversation- particularly petplay & bird play. Thus, this is an 18+ space.