#ouch!!!

[ticklefighthockey]

the way virginity/vulnerability/trust are erotically entangled for Ilya is crystallized for me in the moment he tries to laugh off the Emotionally Significant Penetration with his little “worth the wait” quip only to be hit with the world’s tenderest forehead kiss and realizes he could be in Big Trouble… it would be so easy for him to get addicted to Shane’s vulnerability. but if Shane lets his guard down around him than he must trust Ilya, and Shane would only trust someone he thinks is a good person, and Ilya cannot accept that categorization of himself and so must force a distance between them

yum!!! I read this similarly but maybe with a slight twist? I like to headcanon that both post-forehead kiss and in vegas, ilya has this uneasy moment of realizing that like… shane doesn’t know how to do this. shane has no idea how to have casual sex with a near-stranger that doesn’t mean anything and isn’t going anywhere. shane trusts too easily… and, as you said, has put his trust in a guy who fundamentally feels like he’s a piece of shit nobody should be trusting deeply. I think that for ilya, those little realization moments (ESPECIALLY in vegas) trigger this feeling of like… ok so I have to be the one to model for him how this is supposed to go. I have to teach him how to keep it all on the surface. I have to shut things down and shut him out when he tries for deeper closeness or intimacy or wants to trust me with something he shouldn’t. that attitude is what, for me, drives all the angst of episode 2 and the ep 4 sex montage. and what is MOST PAINFUL about that attitude is that I think it’s a deliciously warped extension of ilya’s desire to care for shane!!! in the first time scene ilya’s like I know you haven’t done this before so I’m going to take such good care of you and show you how it’s supposed to feel. and then in vegas/ep 4 sex montage it’s like… I know you don’t know how to take care of yourself in this kind of casual closeted sex arrangement, I know you’re going to get yourself hurt by loving with your heart wide open, so I’m going to take care of you. I’m going to show you how it’s supposed to feel. and that’s how I will protect you.

[weirdboyfriends]

really crying over the first time ilya and shane hook up ilya tells shane “im not going to tell anyone”. and then he doesn’t. for twelve years.

[blankspace17]

Unwell thinking about how cardigan ends with trying to change the ending, Peter losing Wendy, but then James DOES show up on Betty’s porch to apologize and reunite after realizing he made a mistake to ever leave….but now in Peter she turned off the light

[agardenandlibrary]

me in bed last night, thinking about long live evil:

[sakura-rose12]

Angst idea! Corazon falls per usual, but he ends up with amnesia and has no idea who anyone is and doesnt trust anyone. Law isn't sure how this happened and doesn't know if he'll regain his memories. (Spoiler: he does eventually lol Probably by falling again)

Okay, but can you imagine how much pain Law would be in. He plays it cold and serious while in front of everyone, but when he's back in his quarters, now Cora-less, and breaks down. Cora, who thinks he's still a marine or something stuck on a strange pirate ship, is looking at Law with such hatred. 🥲

[vinelark]

"Promises" by The Boxer Rebellion

wow this song would be a category five event for tim in the “kon is dead” era

[thequeensthroat]

rolled my ankle so bad playing frisbee catch in the park this is divine punishment for trying to stay playful and fun and romping like a little puppy

[swainconnors]

Rewatching the scenes of Carla in the hospital after losing her baby truly destroyed me. Like.

Her just laying there, surrounded by the cries of other babies, knowing she’ll never get to hear her daughter make that sound. It’s just so fucking heartbreaking