#outoffsteak

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// Hey everyone, I’m back! I know it’s been a long time, but I had to take this break to get away from a few things that were making me sad and feel discourage. I learn a lot from this little break and I’m ready to try again here. I have a feeling that if I moving on from things that happen outside of here and the past, then everything will be okay in the end. That might sound confusing to some of you, but I had a lot of up and downs during the last few months. 

In all of October and November, My cat who I had since 2004 passed away due to old age and my father had to be in the hospital for surgery that could have killed him(but he was able to get through it with no problems). I was stuck in this never ending of bad news loop and I had no way out of it. I was wonder did I piss a person from a past life off to have stuff like that happen to me? Maybe my kindness hurt someone enough to curse me? But I wasn’t alone in all of that. My friends who I was so happy to have part of my life, stuck by me during all of this. They supported me when I had no one to turn to and to this very day they still stand by me when I said I was going back to the Persona rp fandom. There is still this feeling of wondering if I’m still good enough here or not to be here. But I know I have friends who are willing to help me when I have fallen down and can’t get up on my own. 

Now I can finally say I will move on from past things that I know that will never come back to me. Time to turn that page and start a new chapter. I can’t wait to start rping again as this poet steak skewer loving goddess again! Marie was my first muse and I won’t leave her behind. So if anyone wants a starter(will be one liners, might still be a little rusty), please send me an ask or message me. I’m also still writing poems if anyone wants a poem request too. 

Let’s get to RPing, shall we?

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AMBER IS BACK!!!!

// And she is full of even more penguins and gum drops! Let’s go paint the town Inaba red like the old days!

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// Like this post for a short starter! All starters will be one paragraph short! If you want something more then one paragraph, please let me know.

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// Hey guys, long time no see. I just came by this blog to let you guys know, that I will be returning to this blog soon. As I talk before from my last post, I lost the spark in me when it came to rping as Marie, Rudekami, Blondachi and many others(and being lonely on here isn’t fun). But my spark and passion is slowly coming back to me as Marie(as for the others, that’s still on stand by). So I’ll be coming back on here a few days after New Years day. But anyway, I hope you muns out there enjoy your holidays and I hope you get everything you wish for. Merry Christmas from your penguin poet!

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// “Hey Amber, when are you coming back to RP as Marie/Blondachi/ Magical!Miku/ect.?”

// Um yes about that. You might want to sit down for a bit and let the small chubby penguin tell you a story about how a poet loving penguin lost her motivation. 

//No, I’m not quitting this blog or the others. And no this isn’t a goodbye message either. I wouldn’t run away on you guys like that. Lately and this has been bothering me for the last month or so. I can’t get myself to write anything with this muse or the other blogs. I used to have this spark that pushes me to write things about my muses or even write poems. I tried to get this feeling back with hoping the dash can help me, but that has failed me since not a lot is going on anymore. And I mean things like story arcs, dash funny moments(like shadow sunday or Inaba being set on fire for 200th time or even people questioning P4′s game logic kind of stuff) and just moments where all dash is active by one person doing something cool/funny/feels worthy. And for a month now, I feel like my dash has been dead. I don’t know if it’s to do with Persona 5 being out in Japan and people have been staying away from the spoilers, People are more busy with group verses and don’t have time for normal RP stuff anymore(and no I don’t blame them for that, everyone can go have fun how they want to have fun), school is starting back for everyone/busy with work more then ever, or (and I hate saying this) the P4 rp fandom might be slowly dying for whatever reason. Keep in mind this how I’m feeling or how I’m seeing things lately. So with a lot of regret, I may have to put this blog and many others on hiatus for awhile. Might be another month or two or even longer till I feel this spark coming back. So for now you message me now if you want to drop any to all replies I owe you. I will save them to my drafts if you still want to RP with me. But it might be awhile before I can give my mood back. However, I will be still RPing as my rudekami since that muse is in a group(and tbh that’s the only reason why I’m still RPing as that muse). And if you have my skype, I don’t mind RPing as this muse or others on there. And sorry I don’t want to give out my skype if we don’t know each other outside of tumblr or RP. But just know that I will be back and hopefully better then ever. 

// Please don’t forget about me and the memories I gave to each and everyone of my RP partners.

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Amber is cool

// you’re the one who is cool as cool sauce, cool-anon!

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@tong-tong-fevah & @defendersoflight:

// thank you both for the get well wishes. Thought it would be better I post this here at once [big hugs to both of you]