TW: Cannibalism mentions, cannibalistic urges
/ / / / / I don't see anyone else talking about this in the vampyre community, and I wonder whether anyone else experiences this too. Some of our earliest memories of vampyric cravings were for flesh, not blood. I remember being 12-13 years old and being so overwhelmed with these urges that it'd keep me awake at night. I remember for years, thinking I'm destined to do something terrible. Don't get me wrong, I was not and still aren't a violent person. I wouldn't even consider these urges violent, I never fantasized about the murder that would have to ensue to get to the cannibalism. The urges were never accompanied by anger, only hunger. It isn't as frequent anymore, but when I'm particularly starved, those urges come back. The label "vampyre" is cathartic for me because of these urges. Finding this community meant I wasn't destined to be a serial killer. And it meant that I can sate that hunger without seriously harming anyone or myself. I'm sure most people in the community can relate, even if its not exactly the same.
I guess all this to say, if you're a vampyre or sanguinarian and your urges are for more than just blood, welcome to the club. And if you don't know what the vampyre community is but are relating to this post, you may want to check it out. I honestly think I would've had my awakening much earlier if stuff like this was discussed more. For a long time I didn't care for blood at all.
