#over compensating

[whatareyoureallyafraidof]

Over compensating.

[men-in-a-plastic-bag]

tv remotes have so many buttons and yet i have never used more than 5 of them

[hermionerose28]

If I guy really likes you, what are your thoughts when he , "tries too hard" ?

I don't like that. It may be with good intentions but all it will do is push us away. Over-compensating and acting like someone you're not is daft and setting yourself up for failure as you won't be able to carry it on forever.

[humanismtoday]

Secretary of the Navy resigning helps show that Donald is cool with War Crimes committed by US Military, even if their fellow members of the military reported their criminal acts.

Donald over-compensating for being a Coward in his youth?

https://www.patheos.com/blogs/dispatches/2019/11/26/navy-secretary-resigns-slams-trump-for-undermining-the-rule-of-law/

[skunkeyemcghee]

They all went paintballing with her cousins this morning. A “friend” gave me weed and cash after I dumped pheelz about not being able to treat for the activity and how shitty that felt. This was a $200 day. Food, supplies, gas, admit fees, beverages and snacks. Well, $235. STBX paid for 15’s range fees and she threw in $10 for ice cream. Kevin said that he hasn’t been able to properly take me out for the dinners or nights dancing we’ve promised each other, so he might as well. I’ll pay him back after I pay STBX what I’m behind on. I didn’t believe him when he said it would be just enough. I was just dumping and he felt like he could, so he did. I remember being compelled to help like that. Boy, STBX got so mad.

I know it’s a luxury expense. My girls have been through so much. I do what I can for them within reason. 15 never asks for stuff. It’s the LEAST I could do to try and honor her meager requests.

I’m their mom. I’m supposed to come through and make shit happen.

[undefinedbymost]

When someone else is living your fantasy

When someone else is living your fantasy. My heart is racing. I keep seeing flashes of the snap in my mind. I always remember, afterwards, how right I was to stop indulging in the social media accounts of loss loves. It simply doesn't register to me that even in all of my hopes and fantasies this person never wanted me. No matter how much he tells me directly he was using me, no matter how much he doesn't contact me, doesn't even entertain me contacting him, I just have this large sensitive hope. I look at his face and feel all the hope he gave me. I also replay the memories of how empty and embarrassed I felt after actually pursuing him. Then I'm back to this angst beating up of myself for not being ready to love him how he needed to be loved. Constantly immersing myself and my fears into people. I've had my eyes and body open and pulled in so many directions. I'm literally filled with knots in my stomach aching from the sight of him. I hold so many emotions for people in the pit of my existence, my sacral. Searching searching searching. Over compensating for some misappropriated absence. I can't stop searching for love. I'm something like addicted to the idea of being loved. I have a void and desire to be loved. I have no concept of how to balance out the two. I shift between desperately wanting to be loved or strongly fighting against any attachments. Being extreme. I want to keep blaming my parents for abandoning me and skewing my perception of love and breaking my foundation but I'm grown right? How much therapy does a "grown" person need to grow up? Here is a free one to The APA; sensible/sensibility behavioral therapy for adults. I need more hugs from my elders, more reprimands for doing blatant wrong, and wise words for insight. I desperately want to fill full. Full off of love. Never in question or counting range of those that love me.

[marshhall]

You gotta have a pretty small dick to drive through a residential neighbourhood at 8 in the morning blasting your shitty fucking music I hate this neighbourhood

[fi-dnb]