My Journey of Mental Understanding (With a little bit of a help guide in there)
What can we say about 2020? Honestly, not much that people have not typed out before. It really is a tough year. Mental health is at an all time low. This is a good time to reach out, help ourselves, help eachother. We just have to remember that we’re not alone in our struggles.
It has been a few years since I came here to create a space to empty my head of thoughts. It was definitely something I needed to do, something that was long overdue. Things became a little more clear when laid out in front of me to really go over properly. You can go back to my post ‘Laying it all Out’ to read through that very long and possibly needlessly overcomplicated events that made me really look at my mental health and start changing the way I thought to help all around.
A lot of time has passed, so where am I at now? Definitely in a place where I’m thinking in a different way, where I am taking more time to consider my thoughts, thanks to having the right avenues to talk when things crashed down with my mental health. It put things into perspective. Even so, there are a lot of mental scars left behind, stuff that still causes moments of depression, where I lose ‘me’. Thoughts and behaviours that are deeply engrained are hard to undo, as I’m sure many can understand. Given time and effort, you change the way you think. While not perfect, I have been through quite a journey to combat my OCD and severe anxiety, approaching my negative thoughts in different ways that makes me take time to consider everything slowly. It is easy to allow yourself to be pushed by your thoughts into repetative, unhelpful behaviours. Challenging yourself is not a bad thing to see whether what you’re thinking is helpful or unhelpful. I work every day to be an improved version of myself, whether the negativity in my head wants me to or not.
I wanted to share some guidance from my experience in how to deal with becoming overwhelmed by your mental health which could possibly cause problematic behaviours. I hope somebody may find this helpful.
* Negativity can sometimes drive us into difficult situations and conflict because of the way our mental health works. It can be hard to relate that to other people when we are struggling, something that may cause us to be unable to react normally. If you think you can speak up to let people know what’s happened to cause any problems, it would help for other people to understand your situation. If you need time to do so, give yourself that time so you can get yout thoughts in order. You don’t have to tell people things you don’t want to. Some things are your business alone, somethings others should respect. Try to be straightforward when you explain things. Don’t let your fear make you say anything that doesn’t reflect essentially what is going on.
* Self-loathing is an easy trap to fall into. Try not to let negative situations destroy your sense of self worth. Even if you do things wrong, this isn’t the end. Nobody gets to dictate who you are going forward, only you. If you aim to improve yourself and be a good person, then focus on that. You deserve to have a positive sense of self. You WILL have a positive impact on other people. Positives and negatives come and go. Relationships and interactions are just generally complicated.
* Conflicts are not always black and white. One person or more may be perceived negatively. Apologising is a good start if that can help diffuse a situation. Talking is also good where possible. Don’t let yourself be silenced, by yourself or other people, into speaking up in a conflict. You have the right to tell your side of the story. Even if you’re in the wrong, things may not always be clear cut. There is a room to disagree as long as you do so respectfully. But above all, try to accept where you are wrong and show you are sorry.
* Some behaviours are not an easy to resolve, so try not to be too ashamed. It may take you a long time to finally recognise the pattern that leads to mistakes. Don’t be so hard on yourself for falling into repetative behaviours. Learned behaviours need time to address appropriately.
* Aim to make people understand rather than make excuses when it comes to mental health, especially if you’re a part of a bad situation. Understanding offers a persepective, while taking responsibility for your part in a situation.
* Not everything has a resolution. Some situations are outside of your control, just like mental health can be at times. Fear can drive you to make things worse, so don’t let yourself get into such a desperate state. Try to find a way to address these thoughts that takes you away from negativity. Talk about it, post about it. Don’t just let the thoughts sit in your head to be overthought.
I may add more to this in the future! Hopefully what I’ve put will be of some use to someone else out there! I wish you all well as we continue to journey through 2020. Please take care!