Daily Devotion - 11/14/24
In what ways is disappointment still keeping you stuck? What do you need to relinquish to God? Pray for a willingness to rise up and have true transformation.
Pattern. I guess this is the major reason why I am always disappointed with people and I am stuck on it. It's like, people never learn. Or if they do learn, it's almost at the brink of losing everything or it's too late. And the hardest part of it all is, it is always at my expense. It is always I that has to adjust or worst, take the fall. Why do I always have to take the blow? Can't I just take a break from everything just once?!
I read the verse Psalm 55:22 again, "Cast your burden on the Lord and he will sustain you, he will never permit the righteous to be moved." I googled what it meant to "cast your burden", the top search is "to fully entrust it to God, rather than carrying it to yourself"
I guess just have to really admit, as an eldest child, I am not really good at relying on someone else. I always have to make sure a problem is fixed. They do the relying to me. I couldn't depend on someone when I feel tired or weak or hurt. And I guess, I just have to really admit that at this point, I have to surrender the things I cannot handle to God.
I am at this point wherein I am trying to figure out what are things I cannot handle. So I'll stop here. and get back to this post once I was able to think of the clear answer. All I know is that right now, I have to truly meditate and list it down here, and from there I'll pray and lay it out all to God so I can move forward and rise from the disappointment.
P.S. Do not go to the next day without finishing this, Divine. You really have to figure it out and ask God how to start this healing journey.