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[ohfxckitsashleigh]

lean on me // Ashleigh and Rocket

Ashleigh looked down at her phone at the text she had received from Rocket. She chewed on her lower lower lip as she crept across the hall to his room. She stood outside and tapped on the door. “Rocket.. it's me..” She said softly.

[rkhyuk-blog]

lean on me | hyosung

months had gone by since the last time he had seen her. he remembered that conversation well and everything in it. they were in the cafe, it was on one of her breaks, and she had confessed that she liked him. it had been in his head for a while, all of the what if's, if things had been different, if yoona hadn't accepted his apologies for using her, all of these things, what would have been different in his life. would he have gotten together with hera instead? he didn't know, and he wasn't going to think about it anymore. today, he was going to catch up with her, see what progress she had made in the past 2 to 3 months and find out why she had been off to sweden. he couldn't imagine a trainee in the middle of her training leaving for that long if she hadn't had a very good reason, and that worried her. was she okay?

the park that they had selected to meet up in was a smaller one than the one he usually frequented, but he didn't mind that. smaller meant less people because they weren't drawn to such close spaces. they liked the wider, larger fields. more room for children to play and for couples to walk in sickening circles, holding hands and complimenting each other. he turned his nose up at them because at the moment, he was no longer in their couple club. he sat down in the middle of the tiny lawn and then fell onto his back, staring up at the sky. oh how life loved to get messy. he was starting to get tired of cleaning it up.

[thescissoringqueen]

Lean On Me || Rade

With a quick goodbye to his dad, Robbie left the apartment. He caught a cab and gave the driver Jade’s address, obsessively checking his phone every few minutes to see if she’d texted him back. He had wanted to find the strength to make up with Jade before now but… he shook his head. What happened, happened, and he’d be damned if he lost Jade’s friendship again. Even if that meant wearing down the battery on his phone by checking his texts every other minute. The cab finally pulled up to Jade’s apartment and Robbie tossed a couple bills at the man, then went inside, finding the familiar apartment easily. He knocked a few times, but realizing Jade might still be in bed, he decided to see if the door was open. “Hello?” he called, poking his head in.

"In here," Jade called back. She was sitting on the bed, curled into a ball with her arms clamped around Sophocles’ neck. Her pill bottles were resting on the nightstand beside a single razor blade she’d been staring at longingly for almost two hours now. She couldn’t really describe how she was feeling or what she was struggling with, but she knew that being alone right now wasn’t the best idea.

Robbie followed Jade’s voice back to the room. He knocked once before going in, frowning slightly. “Hey,” he said, coming into the room. He sat on the bed by her feet and did a quick sweep of the room. Spotting the pills and the blade, he looked back at her. “I’m not gonna bother asking if you’re okay, because I kinda feel like that’s obvious. So I’m going to ask what you need.”

"I don’t know,” Jade replied. “I can’t think of anything that would help right now. Look at me. I’ve got nothing. Quinn’s gone. Tori left.” She held out her hand to show him the engagement ring the girl had left behind. “I just can’t help but wonder if maybe it would’ve been better if Beck hadn’t found me and I’d just… you know.” She shrugged. “It couldn’t possibly be any worse than this.”

Robbie frowned. “She left?” he asked. “She just…” He sighed and shook his head. When Jade continued though, he snapped his head up. “Don’t you dare,” he said. “You can be sad and you can be upset and you can be angry, but don’t you dare start on that whole ‘it would have been better if I died’ bullshit.” He reached forward, taking her hand in his. “Listen to me, Jade. You and I both know what it’s like to want to be dead, and we also both know what it’s like to want to fight, and to survive, and how much there is to live for.” He bit his lip and squeezed her hand softly. “You have to fight, and you have to keep going, because as much as it sounds like the biggest crock of shit on the planet right now, it will get better. You told me that, remember? Life fucking sucks right now, and it’s gonna fucking suck for a long time, but when have you ever given up a fight just like that?”

"Yeah, she did. We got in a fight and she just threw her ring at me and bailed, but that’s not the point!" Jade cried, her eyes welling up with tears. "The point is that I did this. All of it. I cheated, I hurt my best friends and my girlfriend, I got myself knocked up, and then on top of all of that I fucking killed my baby, too.” She bit her lip, refusing to look Robbie in the eye. “Quinn was supposed to be my silver lining to all this; the one good thing that came out of all my bullshit. They were gonna be my chance to finally do something right. I thought for sure I could at least manage that. I mean, people have babies all the time. It’s not like it’s hard. But I managed to find a way to screw that up, too. I did everything I could to protect them and keep them safe and it didn’t fucking matter!” She broke off, trying to force herself to stop and breathe for a second. She knew she was going off on a tangent and probably wasn’t making much sense, but she couldn’t stop herself. It felt good to finally let everything out, even if Robbie didn’t understand. “You have no idea how this feels. How it is to know you’re responsible for someone else’s life and have it all be fine one day only to have it ripped away from you the next. It doesn’t matter if Beck doesn’t blame me, because I blame myself enough for the both of us.I feel so unbelievably guilty, I can’t even stand it. Maybe it’s karma or something, but either way, it sucks. I might be resilient or whatever it is you called me, but right now I just don’t see the point of ‘surviving’. I’m tired of everything I touch turning to shit. My friendships, my relationship, my kid— my entire life. I can handle a lot of things, Shapiro, but I don’t think I can do this.” She paused, casting her eyes down as her voice started to tremble. “I just don’t wanna fight anymore.”

Robbie frowned as Jade spoke. When she finally finished, he didn’t say anything. Instead he got up, kicked off his shoes, and scooted into bed next to her, wrapping his arm around her shoulder and pulling her close. “Listen to me very carefully,” he said softly, tilting her head up. “Jade. Listen to me.” He sighed and nodded. “I don’t know what it’s like, you’re right. I don’t know exactly what you’re going through, but I do know what it feels like to want to give up. I know what it’s like to not see the point in fighting any more and I know what it’s like to finally see a glimmer of hope again. You just need to keep holding on.” He rubbed her shoulder softly, looking down at her. “It’s normal to feel how you do after what you went through, but you need to know that it’s not your fault. You couldn’t have known this was going to happen. You didn’t kill your baby, Jade, they died. And it’s awful and it’s unfair and it shouldn’t have happened, but this is not your fault.”

Jade was slightly taken aback when Robbie joined her on the bed, drawing her against his side. They’d been friends for awhile, but it was no secret that she wasn’t the most touchy-feely person in the world, and she honestly couldn’t recall if she’d ever even so much as given Robbie a hug. Still, there was something oddly comforting in it. For the past few days she’d sworn she wanted nothing more than to be left alone, to wallow in her misery and try to paste her broken pieces back together as best she could, but it hadn’t helped like she’d thought it would. It was odd that Robbie, the person who she’d probably hurt more anyone, was the one who was trying to help. She’d take it, she decided. She wasn’t in any position to turn down a friend.

Jade tossed Sophocles off the side the of the bed, scooting closer to Robbie and wrapping her arms around his bony ribcage. Her head turned to rest against his chest. She could hear his heartbeat thumping in her ear, dull and steady. It reminded her of the day she’d gone to the hospital, sick and dehydrated, and had been allowed to hear Quinn’s heartbeat for the first time. She remembered sitting there in awe at the tiny bomp bomp bomp coming out of the Doppler machine.

Now, sitting here with Robbie, she was starting to realize she’d never get to hear that again.

A fresh wave of sadness washed over her, and with a small sob, she started to cry. It was the first time she’d shed a single tear since everything had happened, and she knew it was going to be awhile before she’d be able to stop. Jade hid her face in Robbie’s collar so he wouldn’t see. “Promise me it’s not my fault,” she whimpered. “I need to hear it. Please.”

Robbie held Jade closer when she wrapped her arms around him. When she started crying, he paused but started rubbing her back again. “Shh,” he cooed. “I got you. I’m here. It’s okay.” When he heard her words, he looked down at her. “I swear, Jade,” he said. “There’s no way this is your fault. I promise.” He kissed her head and held her tight. “You’re okay, I got you…”

"I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. For everything.”

Robbie shook his head, still rubbing slow circles into her back. “Don’t,” he said. “Don’t be.” He looked down at her and sighed. “You already apologized and I should have just forgiven you a long time ago.” Patting her back, he rested his head on hers. “You’re gonna get through this, Jade. I know it seems impossible, but you will.”

"I hope you’re right." She sighed. "Would you… would you mind staying with me for a little while? Tori’s not coming back tonight, and I don’t wanna be alone just yet."

”Of course I don’t mind,” he said. “I told Beck I’d go see him in the morning, but if you need me here tomorrow, too, I’ll stay. I’ll even make breakfast if you want. Lactose-free chocolate chip pancakes are my specialty.” He offered a small smile and looked down at her again. “I mean it, Jade, you’ll always be my best friend.”

Jade managed a watery smile back at Robbie. “And you’ll always be mine.”

[thejulianmorris]

Lean On Me || Harris

Julian hadn't seen Ian in a while, and the least thing he was expecting to do was hanging out with him in Urgent Care. However, the male didn't hesitate in heading over to the hospital after hearing Harry telling him he should be taking care of Ian, and later Ian himself, saying he was having a shitty Thanksgiving. No one deserved that, and least his best friend. Arriving to the hospital, Julian asked for the Uregen Care room at the reception, and hurried through the halls until he found the sign indicating the area, and saw his friend sitting on a chair int he waiting room. "Ian!" He called the other male as he walked towards him. "How are you doing, buddy?"

[allentothekeegs]

Lean On Me | K & E.

As he left set, Keegan pulled on his shades and pulled out his phone. Him and Ezra had exchanged numbers the other night after their unexpected heart-to-heart and while Keegan knew the guy was still a little wary of him, he wanted to prove that he could be a good friend to him. He had the distinct feeling that Ezra didn't let many people in and he had been incredibly flattered to be trusted with that kind of secret. It worried him and made him sad, obviously, to hear that Ezra was doing that to himself but he knew what he needed right now was just someone to be there for him and listen to him and distract him from whatever issues he was struggling with.

Sending a text to Troian that he'd be out for a while, he pulled up Ezra's number and sent him a text too. Want to grab lunch? I'll buy. xx Keegan He sat in his car, nodding his head along to the radio when his phone vibrated, signaling Ezra had texted him back and he smiled as he saw he had agreed. Awesome. Meet you at Cafe Gratitude. It was a little restaurant, cozy and homey, one of Keegan's favorites because the food was excellent, all organic and all of the dishes had inspiring quotes on them. Just a nice atmosphere to relax in.

He pulled up, parked, nodded hello to the waiters who knew him from his frequent visits and grabbed his usual table. Sliding his hand through his tousled dirty blonde hair, Keegan looked through the menu even though he knew it all by heart and looked up when he heard footsteps approach his table. Smiling as he saw Ezra, he stood up and reached forward to give him a hug. "Hey man, glad you could make it. Sit down and help me decide what to eat."

As they sat down, Keegan held the menu towards Ezra. "I can't decide between a veggie burger or a Mediterrean wrap."