#p.~

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For the past few years I’ve been hovering around the idea that I’m on the spectrum or have adhd because I’m struggling in ways that mental health resources aren’t 100% beneficial

I feel like there’s something going on with me that’s separate from strictly mental health

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It really doesn’t have to be this way but it does. It’s really unfortunate.

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The biggest issue is that many black gay women are turned off by me having a masculine side. I refuse to play total fem for the likings of someone else. & the similar often goes for cishet men because they’re too intimidated to have a partner that has masc. qualities and identifies as a woman. I just hope I can vibe with someone, anyone who willing to accept me as just me.

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✨Personal Rant✨

I think it was a huge mistake this person came across my IG and we agreed to follow each other.

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You know. It’s just better for me to just stay friends with people. I always get burned when I search for something more.

I have to start letting people come to me if they interested in something more.

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Maybe this is the wake up call I needed.

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It makes me so angry that people never do their part in making things easier. & people wonder why I always seem annoyed or inward. If you’re not projecting positivity in my life, why are you here?