" I got a little carried away. Didn't you? "
FROM THE DESK OF THE NIGHT WARDEN: SAINT MAUD. no longer accepting.
there is blood in the air. metallic, thick - a scent that the night warden knows intimately; one that astarion knows, too. there is blood on her hands ( and were she one for poetry, minthara might have remarked that her hands were always bloodied. ) all signs of a battle well fought and well won - as if they would ever lose with her blade fighting with them. her movements are fluid, graceful when she wipes her dagger against the leather of her trousers; the blade gleaming cruelly in the silvery light of the stars - slick with blood - and though the night air is cold; the night warden burns hotter than flame - cheeks flushed, her breathing slow. even.
" perhaps i did. " it's not an admission, not a denial either; and a soft chuckle reverberates low in her throat; deep and throaty when she straightens. her smile is all teeth - gleaming cruelly in the pale light of the moon. it's more of a gash, more of a wound than an expression - those red eyes alight with some strange glow. " it is easy to enjoy seeing the life leave the eyes of one's enemy. it is easier yet to enjoy their fear; and perhaps sweeter to do so. "
briefly, her gaze drops to the still warm body at her feet. a now former flaming fist; a thrall bound in service to the absolute. a necessary death - the others, too; the night warden knows there is nothing she would not do in their pursuit of the absolute. nothing she would not do to seize it. minthara baenre is no stranger to violence; she had, after all, been raised to be a soldier from the moment she first drew breath. she knew weaponry as well as she knew the limits of her own body - though the night warden no longer knows who she is, she knows how to kill. something she suspects @palecharm knows, too.
and the night warden remembers. remembers every blade pressed to another's throat; be it in the name of lolth or the absolute - lolth, at least, she believes had been necessary. games for a god to play, but necessary for her own survival. but the absolute had been senseless - a waste of life and resources. perhaps it all had been a waste - perhaps, this, too was one. and where minthara had once taken such joy in battle, she finds her mood soured - her blood cooling as she straightens, swallowing.
the doubt gnaws at her. she, at least, can pretend - her bravado is not so obvious, in her eyes, as his - and she can see it on him all the same. it is not lost on her, then, that had fate been different - she would have been in the same position as the soldier at her feet. a necessary death; not even a footnote in the history books.
" you have excellent instincts in battle, astarion. " a compliment from the night warden is a hard won thing, but she means it - and never gives them unless they are due. her expression shifts, then; a smirk on her lips, a hand raising, fingers splayed near her face; eager to leave her thoughts behind. " with enough practice, we might finally make you consistently useful on the battlefield. "