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palemoonlight - Melancolia
Current Series Running
Twilight New Age
Ongoing / PaleMoonlight Rewritten
Paul Lahote x Reader
Romance | Fantasy | Drama | Angst
After inheriting her grandparents house in the Quileute reservation, La Push, Y/N moves to her home rez. Hoping to start a new life she is soon involved with what she thought were just old legends.
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Pale MoonLight
*Currently being rewritten is still available to read*
IndigenousFemale! Reader x Paul Lahote story
Angst | Drama | Romance
After your grandfather Ateara passes you decide to move in with your grandmother. Since this is your gap year after graduating, you get to decide what you want next, assuming this is a great opportunity. Moving to one of your home reserves you're ready to start your new life. When you finally come back after being distanced for so long secrets and mysteries of the reserve start to unravel.
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Imagines
Twilight Imprint Headcanons “what would it be like to be —‘s imprint?”
Twilight Wolf Pack Headcanons
Mood Boards
Twilight Wolfpack | Wolf form | Aesthetic
Twilight Paul Lahote Aesthetic
Twilight Leah Clearwater aesthetic
Twilight Sam Uley Aesthetic
Twilight Jacob Black Aesthetic
Twilight Embry Call Aesthetic
Twilight Seth Clearwater Aesthetic
In pale moonlight, The wisteria scent, Comes from far away. #wisteria #moonlightmagic #palemoonlight #farawaypoetry #scentedflowers (at Catalina Foothills, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cps4FB3S4TMwHgBNAiuqFYAJl8PciOELJOk-XU0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
"The moon knows "
"The moon knows we are in love"
Pink Moon
Pale Moonlight
After your grandfather Atera passes you decide to move in with your grandmother. Since this is your gap year after graduating, you get to decide what you want next, assuming this is a great opportunity. Moving to one of your home reserves you're ready to start your new life. When you finally come back after being distanced for so long secrets and mysteries of the reserve start to unravel.
Paul Lahote x Reader
Chapter 5: Awakening
Chapters
1. Homecoming
2. Emissary’s
3. Connection
4. Prey
5. Awakening
6. Discovery
Laying on the soft grass of the forest floor I can smell bergamot. Sweet scents of the flower and grass surrounding me. It’s like my eyes are closed under the brightness of the sun. I can’t see anything but warm golden light. Feeling the wind pool over me.
Suddenly it’s pitch black and I can hear the sounds of waves crashing on the beach. The birds singing by the water as the tide comes in. Feeling calm and relaxed while I laid on my back. I could feel myself fading in and out of reality.
Hearing an animal snarling near by I finally open my eyes. My surroundings blurred by my sight. Blobs of brown and green was all I could make out. Something large and grey was pacing back and forth in front of me.
I sit up to have my vision focus in which I recognize the surrounding pine tree’s. In front of me stood a large grey wolf crouched forward panting. I recognized it immediately as it stood still. The very same one that lurks around my house.
It’s dark eyes were intensely focused on me. Behind him I noticed more eye glares coming from the bushes. Reflecting green and blue hues in the darkness. All eyes were on me and my next possible move.
“…is..sh….okay?”
“…ou…should….ave…told her…. ooner”
“Shut…p…dip…shit”
“ook… I… th..ink she’s….wak..ing”
Hearing muffled voices around me I struggled to wake up. My body felt heavy and stiff I could hardly move. With how hard it was to open my eyes I wondered if I was still dreaming. My eyes fluttered open with my vision blurry.
I could see at least 5 people surrounding my bed. Their blurred figures standing over me in worry. I couldn’t recognize this room or where I was. I felt scared and terrified, rubbing my eyes, hoping to regain vision. I sat up and immediately felt dizzy and unstable.
“Y\N?… ou…kay?”
I looked to see someone leaning in forward to me. It’s Emily and I begin to feel calmer even though concern is on her face. I glance around the room and notice everyone is here. Paul, Kim, Sam, Leah, Quill, Jared, Embry, even Jacob was here gathered around me.
“Where…am I?”
“You’re at my house in one of the bedrooms” Emily replied as I struggled to adjust myself sore. Paul jumped up and tried to help me move my legs which surprised me. Seeing his face I realized what happened before I was… attacked.
It all came rushing back to me like a flood of memories. The cold pale woman who choked me out and threw me on the ground. The whole thing freaking me out once I regained my memory.
“Y/N?” Emily asked as I touched my neck realizing it was tender. It felt so hard to breathe. Was there bruises on my neck? I began to cold sweat as I sat here overwhelmed.
“What.. happened? I—I was” I struggled to ask as everyone stared at me concerned. Paul was intensely focused on me as my breathing fastened in panic.
"How...long h-have I been out?"
"Only a few hours" Paul answered as I whipped my head to the window. The sun was already setting behind the trees. Leaving the forest dark already. When I was last awake it was still high noon.
Flashes of the attack came back to me vividly. Remembering the woman who caused this. Gut wrenching as I remembered how unreal she and the situation felt.
“That wasn't a… that wasn't a woman now was it? She was… she…”
“No Y/N it wasn't a woman at all…” I struggled to say the words before Quill answered me standing by the door frame. He stared back at me with low eyes of guilt.
“She was cold, and faster than normal, wasn't she?” Quill questioned me as I stared at him in disbelief. Figuring no one would believe me about the attack. But he seemed way too familiar with it all.
“Yeah… her skin was like porcelain… and her hair was so red” I shivered remembering the details of the woman. The way her hair flowed with her speed. Her pitch black eyes staring back at me.
“What else do you remember?” Sam stood beside Emily as he questioned me. I sighed and closed my eyes while all attention was on me for an answer.
“Her eyes were so dark and black. She grabbed my… my throat and lifted me like I was nothing… my shirt” I paused and looked down at my clothes. I wasn't wearing the same shirt. The one I was wearing was ripped at the collar. Someone changed me while I was out.
“Wait who changed m—”
“Black eyes? Then that means she’s hungry” Jacob said suddenly as he perked up from his slouched stance. Looking at Jared, Embry, and Quill as they both stood ready.
“Wai—who’s she?”
“It won’t be long before she attacks someone else. She’s desperate and hungry so she’ll be weaker to fight”
“Us four will continue to patrol the area”
"To fight?—"
“She shouldn’t be too far from here if she’s desperate enough to hunt locals” I tried to ask before everyone got into a heavy discussion. My voice drowning in theirs as they talked amongst themselves. I felt so overwhelmed and confused I felt my head starting to pound.
“You four need to leave the room and patrol. We need to explain everything to Y\N” Paul suddenly demanded as he sat slouched forward beside me. Glaring at the three standing at the door.
“Paul’s right, continue searching, we’ll join once we’re done here” Sam said and nodded for them to exit. Taking their leave me and Quill gave each other one last look. I felt myself desperate for comfort as Quill solemnly left the room.
“What happened to me? Who changed my clothes? And who was that woman? Can someone please explain to me what she really is? What are you talking about fighting?” I exclaimed frustrated as everyone suddenly paid attention to me. A silence washed over as I waited for an answer from any one of them.
“I changed your clothes it was just your shirt it was… it was somewhat bloody and torn” Emily explained to me in the midst of me confused. I waited for her to speak and explain more but they all looked away from me. Either looking at the foot of my bed or straight up away from me.
“...Why won’t anyone answer me?” I pleaded feeling desperate for an answer. Any answer to what might’ve just happened before me.
“This isn’t exactly easy to explain Y\N” Was all Paul said to me. Making me feel frustrated even more. It was as if everyone didn’t want to talk or speak suddenly. Avoiding the huge elephant in the room.
“What is everyone so afraid of? I was the one attacked and all of you seemingly know who did it. I have the right and deserve to know. So just spit it out” I cried out to them.
Paul looked over to Leah and Kim for a short moment. Who without any word or complaint stood up heading to the door. The pit in my stomach sinking deeper and deeper with each step they took.
“Y\N we’re going to wait for you down stairs while they explain everything. I—“
“I’m sorry Y\N we can’t be more of help right now. Once you understand everything we’ll be ready to explain our side as well” Leah said before Kim interrupted her. I only sat in silence, feeling abandoned by them, as they waited for a reply from me. Noting the silence between us the two left the room.
I sighed and sunk back onto the bed frame defeated. A lump sat in my already sore throat. I choked back the swelling tears in my eyes. Sitting in the bed confused and upset.
Paul, Emily, and Sam sat beside the bed. Solemn looks in their face especially Paul’s. Once we were finally alone Sam suddenly spoke.
“Are you ready for us to explain everything?”
I sat on the bed trying to ground myself. From how the three were looking it seemed this was serious. It already was but it seemed to be an even more grave situation than I thought.
“You said it yourself, your grandfather taught you a lot of stories, especially about the cold ones… right?” Sam asked me as I struggled to focus. I shifted myself to sit up straight. Trying to remember the legends he told me as a kid.
“Yes but what does that have to do with any of this?”
“Everything” Was all that Sam replied in a serious tone. I struggled to process what he meant. My stomach churning with the realization of everything.
“That woman who attacked you? She is a cold one like the legends describe. A vampire named Victoria”
“A vampire?”
“Yes, a cold blooded vampire, you noticed how different she was. Rest assured we’ve been hunting her for quite some time—“
“We’ve been hunting her? Wait what does that mean?” In this short pause my mind raced with thoughts. If Sam isn’t truly lying about anything. Then this means all the legends are true and still affect us today? If so then that means the wolves…
“We are what you would call shifters” Paul answered me this time instead of Sam. My gut sank into my stomach after hearing his voice. I sat in silence as Paul stared back at me. He almost looked as if he was guilty.
I awaited for Paul to continue but he stopped short. Before looking away from me in silence. What was so hard for him to tell me?
“Just like Paul said we few are able to shift into our spiritual forms… into the shape of the wolf. Just like in the legends your grandfather told you”
“Please don’t tell me you’re all werewolves” Somehow Paul and Sam chuckled, breaking the serious tension, I struggled to comprehend everything. Were they really laughing during this time?
I sat in silence upset which I believe Paul took note of. He sighed and straightened his posture. I hung my head low as I struggled to focus with my head still dizzy.
“I’m sorry but no we aren’t werewolves. We call ourselves shifters because when we change it’s fully into what our spirit looks like. For us it’s the shape of the wolf…Since long ago we few have been protecting the tribe from threats. Victoria is a good example. Our powers are activated once a vampire comes around” As Sam explained I sat in silence. Listening throughly as I tried to connect the dots from my grandfathers legends. Everyone was silent as they studied my reaction to everything.
“Ok so shape shifters?… You’re all huge wolves…who else is a shifter?” I asked making Paul and Sam look at each other. Surprised by my sudden acceptance of everything. Reality was I was spiralling, not because it didn’t make sense, but because everything connected too well.
“Uh—well there’s me, Sam, Quill, Embry, Jared, Seth and even Leah. There are others from the Rez who you haven't met yet… since there’s only so few of us we're in what you call a pack…" Paul explained before stopping short. Almost as if was taking time to think about how to explain properly.
"Our minds and bodies connect as one almost. After we commit ourselves to the pack of course. We become so close we can understand each others thoughts and mood. We use this to hunt prey, our only real prey, vampires” Paul replied and I felt I had so much to say but nothing came out of my mouth. As crazy it all was it was slowly coming together in my head. I struggled to pick what questions to ask.
“A-and you all know about these vampires? Like this uh… Victoria?”
“Yeah… Where do I even start?… Well there's another human girl Jacob is involved with. Bella, and she's in love with a vampire, named Edward. They both killed Victoria's lover James since he wanted to eat Bella. Now Victoria's hell bent on revenge trying to kill Bella”
“Revenge?”
“Yes. Now we're stuck cleaning up their mess and hunting down Victoria. She's saving herself for her true target Bella. We noticed once she's starving Victoria begins attacking locals around here. Such as you being one of them ” Paul explained to me in detail. As they did I felt dots click into my head.
Everything strange that happened to me made sense, from Quill and Embry's behavior, to the wolf outside my house. Besides who these vampires are which I’m still trying to even accept are real. Vampires wasn’t something I was digesting properly in my head.
I wondered why I seen such huge wolves, even I know real wolves aren’t that huge, these wolves were bigger than any horse. They felt and looked even bigger than a grizzly bear. Now that I understand it’s literally Paul, Sam, Quill, even Embry… It felt unreal.
“So when I seen Quill and Embry shirtless in the woods… alone away from any beaches… they were changed back from a wolf?”
“Yeah…”
“Those wolves outside my house… was that you guys? Cause I never seen wolves that size before. Especially in my area all of a sudden”
“Yeah one of us anyway”
Sam replied glancing over to Paul. He was stiff and silently sullen. In the silence I glanced up at Emily. Noticing she was also quite this whole time. She had a sorrowful but optimistic look to her face.
“There's something else you guys aren't telling me. I can feel it, you’re building up to something, this isn't all of it” I said which I could tell shifted the room. The two men looking over to Emily. She nodded with a calm composure and looked at me.
“…These shifters are the first ones to transform in about 2-3 generations. So there isn't much info on how to live this type of life" As she talked I couldn't help but sigh. Feeling a bit defeated.
"We've all been learning the more as time passes… but there are a few sacred teachings that have been passed down to us” Emily paused explaining and looked over to Paul next. I stared at him as he shifted uncomfortable in his seat. Avoiding eye contact with not only me but the other two as well.
“I was one of the first shifters out of our generation. I didn't know how to control myself or live this way. And I didn't realize what would come from living like this… when I met Emily for the first time after I shifted I realized just how much I changed…” This time Sam took over explaining. Pausing slightly to look over at Paul. Who was still avoiding eye contact from everyone in the room.
“A lot of things about us change. Our bodies, our minds, even our temperament. It causes us to be more unstable than the average person. Although controllable it's more a struggle for us shifters to have full control of ourselves after the change… we become more similar to the wolf than humans really… one thing we discovered is that we can imprint”
“Imprint?” Was all I asked Sam before he stopped. Emily and Sam looked at each other. I could feel my curiosity rising up inside me.
“We don't understand much about it… what we do know is to respect and honor it. Me and Sam are imprints believe it or not. We were young and it was fast but we learned more as time went on together”
“Wait I don’t understand. What are you trying to get at? What even is imprinting?” I somehow felt panicked to ask as Emily and Sam had panic in their eyes as well.
I could tell this was all something they dreaded to explain to me. It almost gives the same feeling of when you learn sex-ed for the first time. And your teachers are somehow awkward about it as well.
Usually I wouldn't ask so much especially since I can tell it makes them awkward. But I needed to know what they fully meant.
“To imprint on uh… on someone is to make a spiritual bond that can never be broken even if wanted. Once imprinted you are together for life. Bound to each other's emotions and will. A sacred but mysterious connection since we don't fully know about it—”
“Do you remember that day at the beach Y/N?” Paul cut off Sam in the middle of his explanation. His expression serious as he finally faced forward to me. I nodded my head as he furrowed his eyebrows in thought. I could see the surprise on Sam and Emily’s faces.
“On that day… when we first laid eyes on each other… I imprinted on you”
I felt shocked to my core as he finally confessed his truth. Frozen as he stared at me for a reaction. My heart racing at the thought of me and Paul sharing such a sacred bond between us. The hairs on my neck stood straight up. Just as I did at the beach.
A rush of emotions flooded through me. I wondered this whole time why I felt so strongly for Paul. A desire I never knew I could have. Was it all owed to this imprint connection?
“I… I didn't expect to imprint on you at all. But this is something we can't control. This is something you can’t anticipate even if you try”
“Wait…so this happened at the beach?” I asked for clarification in which this time Paul nodded his head. Finally connecting the dots to everything. As I thought about it the more I felt upset.
“So this whole time you guy's knew? About this imprint connection?… When was I going to be told about this? Was I ever going to be told about this? Isn’t this something… important?” I asked curious. Although I knew I was a stranger surely there could’ve been a way to tell me… right?
“Of course you were Y/N we just had to make sure of a few things before so” Paul said trying to explain his self. I wasn’t sure how I felt knowing everyone knew about this before me.
“A few things? Like what? If I’m the right fit or something?”
In this short moment I felt so… left out. Everyone knew about everything but I was kept in the dark. Especially about something so intense and supposedly sacred that involved me somehow.
I wasn’t holding it against him or anyone since we had just started to be friends. Me being more of a stranger than a friend. I had meant what I said last as sarcasm, but from the silence coming from the three, I knew to them it was serious.
“Actually yes. We needed to make sure you were… trustful, private, y’know? Would you even contain the secret since you're not from around here—” I scoffed and folded my arms before interrupting Sam. Not expecting them to agree with me. Instantly silencing Sam as he noticed I took offence.
“What do you mean not from around here? Just because I moved back to the rez? It isn’t my first time coming or even living on this reserve. Also It's not like I would snitch on this… wolf pack or whatever you guys call it… you guys make it seem like you spied on me to see if I was a snitch” Silence fell over the room in which my stomach churned with the harsh reality. I shook my head in disappointment. Not wanting to face the reality before me.
“Oh my god you guys did”
“For the safety and well being of this pack and tribe yes. I admit we sent some of the group to check on you. Leah, Jared, and the others but they just wanted to meet you—” it all made me feel worse. I could feel my stomach turning in knots. My nerves felt shot after absorbing everything, now hearing this, It felt like a dry pill to swallow.
“Spied on me? Trustworthiness?… Is this why you guys were so welcoming? Not to befriend me but to spy on me?… Got it” I choked back the lump in my throat as my eyes started to well up. The life I was just starting to live to be all a lie. A false reality I somehow found comfort in.
“Y/N you know it isn't like that—”
“No actually I don’t know. I don’t know much about any of this. What I do understand is that my friends and life I lived with you guys fake? False? I don’t even know… And for what? So you guys could spy on me? Make opinions on me? Make sure I'll be able to fit in your little pack?"
I stopped and I could feel the guilt rolling off of them all. I felt so confused and hurt. But no one dared to speak up.
"… I’ll be the honest one here… Let's face it you guys only came with the truth about everything because that vampire almost turned me into one”
I felt so upset and overwhelmed with everything I heard. I could handle Paul hesitating to tell me. But the fact everyone was only interested in spying on me than befriending me hurt a lot.
“Look, there things I need you to understand, about me imprinting on you. I know this is a lot for you especially since we’ve barely gotten to know each other so far… but we have to get along for the bond. I know it's… well it's a lot… most importantly out of all this you get to decide what we are to each other—”
As Paul explained all I could feel was disheartened. Although I appreciate his kindness and warmth to me so far I couldn't help but question. Was all this owed to this… imprint bond?
His treatment to me all owed to something he has no control over? Just another thing he's forced to live with? My heart sunk deep into my chest. I didn’t want to further complicate his life or mine. After all he said he didn’t expect me.
“Look I just… I need time to adjust to this. To understand this, I respect all you guys truly, and I appreciate you all helping me with this attack… But I need to go home” Was all I could say as I shuffled to get out of the bed. I struggled to stand as I felt dizzy. As I stood up I staggered off balance. Emily caught me and held me up in place.
“We already called your grandmother who should be here soon. Just wait until she's here” Emily guided me back to the bed. I couldn't stand to face her as I kept to myself. Sitting on the bed holding myself.
“…Does she know? About any of this?”
“All of Chief and Council know about the pack… and I called to explain to your grandmother what happened today” And there was the final nail in the coffin. Everyone around me knew of the pack. And of the imprint bond that me and Paul supposedly shared. I was the only one oblivious to everything and everyone.
“Me and Quill have already sworn to guard your house for the time being. We can’t risk it with Victoria lurking around. I promise you will never have to worry about your safety from here on out” Paul inched closer to me as he devoted his loyalty to me.
I couldn't help but feel tears well up in my eyes. I nodded my head staying silent. But I knew in my heart his actions were only caused from our imprint bond. It made me feel bittersweet about everything between us so far.
No one tried to explain further. Taking a hint at how overwhelmed I was feeling. I sat on the bed frustrated and defeated.
My head pounded from the pain and from the thoughts rushing in my head. All I craved was to curl up in my bed to hide. Emily sat beside me silently holding my hands and comforting me as we waited.
It wasn't long before my grandmother arrived. As I left the room I could hear Paul follow right behind me. Entering the living room everyone sitting on the couches rose up to stand. Emily beside me as we headed down stairs.
Kim, Leah and Quill were down stairs waiting. I didn't want to look at them either. I felt embarrassed and humiliated. I tried to make a beeline to the door but Kim and Leah stepped forward.
“Look Y/N I know it's a lot to take in at once but I promise to explain everything. Rest up and I’m sorry for how everything turned out ”
“We'll check in on you tomorrow don't worry about anything. I love you and I’ll tell you the truth when you’re ready”
Leah and Kim exclaimed to me as I made my way down the stairs. My grandmother entered and rushed to greet me at the bottom of the steps. Once I reached her we embraced tightly. I sank into her hug as she squeezed me tight.
“Are you alright?” She said examining my neck and head. Opening my shirt collar to scan it for any marks quickly before I could even make a fuss. Paul interrupted me before I could even speak.
“Sue came and did a full check on her, no bites, just a few bruises and scrapes luckily. The lack of oxygen is why she’s a bit weaker. She’ll have a sore head from being tossed so here are some meds. Sue will be by again tomorrow to check on her condition”
Paul explained to my grandmother in which everyone was slightly shocked. My grandmother on the other hand sighed relieved. Receiving the bag from him as she thanked everyone for taking care of me.
“I appreciate everything you’ve done for my family. And for protecting my grand daughter. I'm sorry I wasn't here sooner the council was quite worried. It’s been a tiring ordeal but thank you everyone for taking care of her in my stead. But I must take her home to rest now”
Bidding our goodbyes to everyone as we left out the door. Before stepping out the door I could see Leah and Kim’s desperate expressions in their face. I gave a weak smile to them. The look in Kim’s eyes was all I could see before the door slammed shut behind me.
My grandmother squeezed my hands as we headed to the car to leave. I felt the weight practically lift of my shoulders once I was reminded of her comfort. I closed my eyes and sunk into it walking to the car.
“I imagine you’re upset and confused about all this. Am I wrong?” My grandmother spoke once we were finally in her car. Exiting Emily’s and heading to our home. I sighed and nodded my head before leaning into my seat tired.
“I’m sorry we couldn’t say anything to you this whole time”
“All of this because I’ve lived away for so long?…” She chuckled lightly as she kept her eyes on the road grabbing my hand for support. Her comforting grip on my hand soothed me.
“No my girl it’s more than that. This was before we knew you and Paul were imprints” I looked at her as she glanced over to me. The look in her eyes told that she was being honest with me. I sat in silence focusing on her words.
“After we knew of the imprint bond Paul decided it'd be best if he explained everything to you. So we all agreed and left everything to him. It was a different plan before him though… ”
I sat in my seat taking in what she was explaining serious. Maybe because it's her I don't find it such a struggle to understand. I felt the need to question her while I could but I was too tired to ask. She sighed and smiled softly at me.
“You know your grandfather was my imprint” Sitting up shocked she kept her soft smile. Amused by my reaction as she turned to focus on driving.
“We were young and it was fast. He didn't know what to do or to expect either. I’ll tell that story another day but you seen how it ended for us. This is new and scary for both of you guys. If I know anything I know Paul's upset that he wasn't able to tell you the way he wanted. Although this attack on you rushed everything we’re all just grateful for the fact you’re alive”
I sat in silence as the rain started to hit the car. Flashes of the vampire, Victoria, splashed across my mind painfully. Remembering her cold grip on my throat and red hair flowing.
On this ride back home I knew then my life was forever changed. I was suddenly apart of something so much more powerful and greater than me. Ancient legends suddenly coming to life, my life, I wasn’t sure how to move forward anymore.
“Me too… As much as I'm trying to understand everything all I can focus on is resting. Being safe at home. This is all so crazy I need some time to process my new life. It doesn’t help my head is throbbing either”
My grandmother agreed as she comforted me. The closer we got to our home the more I felt relieved. My grandmother moved on from the topic and turned on the radio to fill the silence between us.
Recalling details of my grandfathers words about the legends. Mysterious and powerful gifts among our people were once common. I know as time goes on I will learn to understand everything I don't know yet.
Finally after reaching home I took the meds Sue and Paul gave me. My grandmother fussed over me until we went to bed. Tending to my supposed wounds, which were just bruises and scrapes, as much as I appreciated it all. I knew it was all so her heart can be put at ease after worrying over me all day.
Once she was finished we were sent to bed. Finally in my bed I tried to relax in peace. The safety of my solitude. But fear lingered heavily in my heart still. Unanswered questions that still needed answering plagued me as well.
I lay on my back staring at the ceiling. Trying hard to not remember the stinging pain on my sore throat. The frozen burning touch of her claw on my body. I couldn't help but shake remembering her cold black eyes staring down into me. Pure hunger as she bared her teeth at me like a rabid animal.
Suddenly I could hear howling outside. Powerful as it echoed in the valley enough for it to penetrate my room. My heart slowed down instead of rapidly beating. Breathing slowly I felt peace wash over me almost instantly from hearing the howl.
Somehow I understood it was Paul. Remembering him and Quill were guarding the house. I sighed in relief as I curled into my bed. It was a similar moment as when the wolves first lurked around. Only this time it gave me serenity to know they were near.
All day I’ve been dizzy and light headed. A dull headache that finally went away as the meds kicked in. Feeling the heaviness in my eyes I can't help but be lulled to sleep. Basking in the security of the wolves and Paul himself as they guarded your home.
Finally we're able to understand everything and learn of the imprint bond! Next chapter will probably take me some time. But do look forward to what happens next! In the meantime enjoy this chapter for now. Next updates we'll be exploring all the secrets that have been hidden so far. And the connection with Paul 👀 don’t be afraid to comment feed back!
Pale MoonLight
After your grandfather Atera passes you decide to move in with your grandmother. Since this is your gap year after graduating, you get to decide what you want next, assuming this is a great opportunity. Moving to one of your home reserves you're ready to start your new life. When you finally come back after being distanced for so long secrets and mysteries of the reserve start to unravel.
Paul Lahote x Reader
Chapter 1: HomeComing
Finally new Paul lahote content! Yes this is a Paul Lahote x Reader fanfic. I’ve had this idea for a while and also there are other chapters I have planned out for this. The main character/you is indigenous and this story is more focused on the pack + reservation life. Enjoy ♡
Chapters
1. Homecoming
2. Emissary's
3. Connection
4. Prey
5. Awakening
6. Discovery
The smell of cedar and rain fills the air surrounding not only around but inside the car. The radio softly humming in the background. As rain pours down spilling over the car windows I'm washed over with emotions. Nostalgia and the warm feeling of being back at home.
It's been almost 3 years since I came here to visit my family in the La Push reserve. These past couple of years they've traveled to us, back at my old home, where my parents still are. When I was younger I stayed almost every summer and some extra weeks in the year. But as I grew older so did the distance I put between me and this place.
It's not that I have any grudges or bad feelings with anyone here or the place. If anything I truly missed this place but I got caught up in my life. Suddenly a summer visit was half a summer. Then only holiday appearances and a few check in updates. Suddenly it's been a few years since I visited at all.
I sighed as I sunk into the passenger seat. Sitting here I couldn’t help but have feelings of doubt. As a way of trying to ignore it I try to soak up the feeling of comfort as I enter back into the Forks area. My grandmother, who was driving, noticed then glanced over to me.
“So does it feel good to be back once again?” She asked me as I smiled and nodded my head in reply. The warmth of her sincerity and kindness made my feelings of unease go away slightly. The tension in my shoulders relaxed a bit.
“Of course. It's a good feeling to be back in the homelands with you”
She gave a cheeky smile to me before turning back towards the wheel. Letting the feeling of comfort rushing over me I turned towards the window to continue watching the treeline and forestry pass by. The rain producing a slight fog on the forest floor.
Turning onto the rez I'm usually welcomed with a sense of relief and excitement. Recognizing the gravel streets and homes along the way. But there's an anxious feeling that comes over me.
I keep my eyes peeled to the trees and shrub. As familiar and comforting as it was to gaze at my environment my stomach began to flutter. The hairs on the back of my neck stood attention.
I shudder and try to shake off this feeling in me. It almost feels as if we're being watched. I know it's impossible since we're in a moving car but nonetheless. I can't shake off the feeling, that our movements are being watched, or more specifically mine.
“We're finally home”
My grandma says cutting off my train of thinking. I whip my head to the front to see us pulling up to my grandmother's house. I start to feel safe once again. One last look at the tree line to search for an answer before I unbuckle my seat belt to exit the car.
I shake it off as moving and new place jitters. I grabbed my bags before heading inside with my grandma by my side. She wrapped her arm around my waist before pulling me for a close side hug. Quickly as she hugged me she grabbed my hand and gently pulled me inside the house.
My grandma squeezed my hand gently before giving another cheeky smile towards me. I smiled back and looked around the house. Unlocking the door with her keys she opened the door for us to enter inside. Nothing changed and it set my mind at ease. Same pictures on the wall, same smell of food, and some sort of smudge I’m assuming is cedar. It all gave me a sense of familiar comforts from the past.
“Oh Y\N I'm so glad you're back here at home with me. There's so much to update you on with the family and so much to do together"
I set what bags I carried with me from the car onto the floor. My grandmother quickly took off her coat before asking for mine to hang up. Still smiling she faced me once she was done with the jackets
“For now make yourself at home. Before your grandfather passed we renovated the top floor. Since he got his pension early we spent most of it on the renovations. You can take it as your personal floor. I can't do stairs as much so my bedroom is on the first level here anyway”
“Oh grandma you didn't have to do all that just for me. I expected to just have one room to myself not the whole floor”
“No way you're a grown woman you need your own space. It was just gonna turn into either storage space or extra guest bedrooms. You can decorate and do as you please with the second floor. Make some use out of it, anyway all your stuff has been sent, so you can start unpacking whenever you please”
“Awe thank you grandma” I express my gratitude and quickly hug her again. Before my grandma heads into her room to get her self comfortable after a long trip home. As she does I head my way up the stairs. Picking up my bags to carry up the staircase.
Sure enough once I head up the stairs I can tell the top level has been redone. New trim and paint jobs along the walls. The floors are changed and new light fixtures hung replaced. It was fresh and brand new.
I open the door to my chosen bed room. It's a salmon pink colored room mostly empty besides a bed in the middle of the room. Before it was empty it was my grandfather and grandmother's old room. It has a sit in windowsill even. A big reason I'm excited to claim it as mine.
One of the main reasons my grandmother moved downstairs was because it was their room. She didn't want to be reminded of the past or the fact she has to move forward without him. I sighed and sat down on the bed.
I sat still for a moment to take in this next step in my life. Suddenly I'm moved onto a new reserve and my grandfather is gone. A whole lot of change. I couldn't help but feel nostalgic over the past.
Before I could wallow in these feelings I hear the door slam and voices erupted from the living room. Cutting off my train of thoughts. Curious on who it was I started to head down stairs.
“Y/N! You really did move home!”
My cousin Quil stood in front of me with my aunty Layla. Quil quickly pulled me into a hug shortly after my aunty did. I blushed as they ambushed me with affection.
“Yep and here to stay”
I replied into my aunt’s neck as she squeezed me tightly around herself. My aunty took a deep sigh before placing her hands on my shoulders to look at me. She smiled so kindly before letting me fully go. Staring at me with admiration filling her eyes.
Quickly we all sat down and visited for a few moments. Updating the two on life back home where my mom still is with some of my family. How things have changed and why I'm here. As we chatted the conversation slowly drifted between the four of us slowly to just my grandmother and aunty speaking together.
Noticing this distance me and Quil gave each other the look. I nodded my head towards the back door before we both headed outside to the patio. More privacy for us to talk without judgement. We sat ourselves on the patio chairs once outside. Drifting into cheerful conversation.
“So cous? How does it feel to be back?”
Quil exclaimed at me as he gave me a cheeky smile. I smiled in return and took a deep breath. The air was so crisp with scents of rain and pine. Ushering a feeling of comfort and familiarity. Both of us relaxing in our chairs leaned back.
“Man I can’t even explain how good it feels to be back here. Especially now that I can officially call it home. This all just feels right, I always felt a strong pull to stay here, it’s just..weird…without grandpa”
“Yeah…I can agree on that. It’s been hard but I’m honestly glad you’re here. I’ve always worried about you away and grandma being alone. I know you guys can handle yourselves, you guys being independent women and all that, or whatever but still. You guys can lookout for one another now that you're back"
I lightly giggled at his comment. Quil joining in and laughing even harder. A light moment before we came back around to our original conversation.
“Ah well I worry about grandma too that's a big reason why I moved down…. I didn’t know how she would be after grandpa was gone. I know she and I took it hard. I knew it would be hard for her to suddenly be alone…I use that as an excuse when really… I would've found any excuse to move down here”
“Why do you feel you need an excuse? Not many would question if you wanted to move here on your own. You belong here just as I and the rest of us do”
I shrugged and lowered my head. Struggling to find the words to describe how I felt. A brief moment of silence passed between us as I pondered the question.
“I'm not too sure if I'm gonna be honest. Maybe because I built majority of my life away from here until this point? Or that I feel I didn't spend enough time here? Plus I know how small town people can think especially since I come from one. I don't know but either way I feel strongly I need to be here. That’s the only way I can describe it”
I try to explain my self but as I talked Quil nodded his head in reassurance. I felt understood by him enough where I didn't need to explain myself too hard. After a short pause Quil took a sharp inhale before supportively placing his hand on my shoulder.
“Well now that you're here I'm excited to show you what's new around, not much to be honest, but it's awesome to have you back”
“Awe thank you Quil I'm glad we can visit more often. I missed this”
“Well, since you miss me so bad, would you be down to come to the beach sometime? It's been awhile since you went down right? Me and and few of my bro's usually hang there, have a bonfire, play some games but only if you're interested” I hadn’t been down to the beach in a few years. Just passing by it but never making it to the shore in recent times.
“Yeah I’m down that sounds like fun. Uh who are some of your bro's?” I asked him curiously. Unfamiliar with some of the faces here outside of family and distant relatives.
“Well I'm sure you remember Jacob right? Jacob black? Him and a few other guys. One of the cousins is dating one of my friends” Jacob was a relative of both me and Quil. But I hardly knew him as much as Quil did. They were always close growing up. Me and Jacob were always friendly just not close.
“Which cousin?”
“Kim” Quil said which made me think. Off the top of my head I knew of 3 Kim’s that lived here. I couldn’t figure out which he meant by.
“Kim? Conweller? Our Kim?” Kim was me and Quills close cousin. We had all grew up together and were close growing up. Since we were the same age we all clicked, although I was living at a distance majority of the year, we kept our connection through the years.
“Yeah! Yeah that’s her , she’s dating Jared, one of my brothers” Already I didn’t recognize this Jared. I felt curious in who he could be. I knew Kim was dating but I never got to meet him yet.
“Wow okay I knew she was dating someone from what she told and showed me. Never met him yet so this is my chance”
“Yeah so it'd be her, Jared, Jacob, Leah, Seth, Emily and Sam most times, also there's Paul”
“I don’t recognize some of those names” which was true, just Jacob, and now Jared. Everyone else I had yet to meet. If Quil was calling those men brothers surely they’ll be worthy of befriending.
“They've been around but you probably wouldn't know them. I know most of them from when we were in school or through relatives”
“Oh okay I see you'll have to introduce me then”
“Of course I already told them about you. Mostly because I told Kim you were coming and she attacked me with questions. Got everyone else nosy” I shook my head at this. Earning me a no good smirk from Quil. Making me squint my eyes at him trying to examine his intentions.
“You better not have been spreading any rumors about me” I playfully teased him which made Quil smile. Giving me a look of mischief. He began to laugh as I lightly shoved his shoulders away from me.
“Don’t worry I said nothing too drastic” I quickly whipped my head to face him fully. Sending a death glare straight to him. He laughed nervously before raising his arms up in defence.
“Ok I swear I didn’t say nothing wrong! I didn’t want to answer too many questions because I’d knew you’d be like this!”
“Better not have"
I gave him one last glare to set him straight. He froze and stiffened up, I laughed at his reaction, finally releasing him from the tension I created. He loosens up and joins in before we start to head inside as it starts to rain.
I sat in my room among my boxes of items and bags of clothes sitting unpacked. My bed was made and I was able to decorate a small amount in my room before bed. A few of my posters and art prints hung on the wall. String lights and Lamps giving the room an ambient glow.
I sighed and laid my back on the bed. Thinking about my future here in La Push. Surely not much has changed here. I’m ready to make an impact and leave my mark. My mind rushed about the endless opportunities I could make here.
After my conversation with Quill it made me question myself. Why did I feel I need an excuse to be here? In my heart I know I belong here just as I do with my old home back with my parents. But in my mind I couldn't shut out the doubts I have. I shake off the feeling by thinking about how Quill reassured me of my place here. I know I have a place, a role to play, I just need to find it.
My mind and heart trying to calm down. I felt at peace as I sat in this room as empty as it was. Letting the feeling wash over me I took a deep breathe in and out. Serene silence filled the room as I could hear the rain pattering on my windows.
Breaking my silence was my phone ringing. It was across the room on my dresser. I got up abruptly and walked towards it glancing at the contact number. It was my cousin Kim we were talking about earlier. Her ears must’ve been ringing all day because of me and Quill. I quickly answered the phone.
“Hello? Kim?”
“Oh my God! Y/N? I heard you were finally here in La Push? Is that true?” I could hear her loud pitched voice question me. Ever since we were kids Kim has always been so lively and bubbly. I was half expecting to hear her squealing instead of speaking. Her liveliness was always something I loved and missed about her.
“Yeah you're right I just arrived today. I was planning on hitting you up tomorrow. But I'm guessing Quil told you?”
“Him and my mom of course! She heard it through my grandma when your grandma told her earlier. We need to hang out soon as possible!” And I was right on the money ball. When it comes to small towns especially here on the reserve word gets around quick. Anything new and its out there for everyone to know and have an opinion about.
“Yeah that'd be great! I've missed you a lot. There's a lot that we need to talk about in person”
“Of course that's why I called as soon as I heard you were here! How does tomorrow sound? I can come and pick you up with my boyfriend. You can meet him finally!”
“Okay that sounds fine just let me know what time tomorrow”
“Maybe like around 3? And just a heads up I don't plan on keeping Jared, my boyfriend, around us when we visit. His only job tomorrow is driving us” I sort of laughed at her comment. Expecting her to drag her man along as a third wheel. Instead he was going to be working for us tomorrow.
“Uh that's fine kim I don't mind either way”
“I know but I just don't want to be distracted when we talk. I want to enjoy our time together” Hearing her sweet sincere voice I couldn’t help but smile. Over the years I kept in contact with her. It had been a few months since I’d seen her in person outside of video chatting and calling.
“Of course I understand I appreciate it truly”
“OK sounds good Y/N I'll text you before we come. I'll talk to you tomorrow ok? I gotta go but I just wanted to make sure we can meet as soon as we could"
“Forsure I'm glad you called. Anyways goodnight Kim I'll talk to you tomorrow"
“Goodnight!” Quickly we hung up the phone on each other after our goodnight. I smiled as I held the phone to my chest. I couldn't help but feel elated and excited after our conversation.
Everything was slowly falling into place and all I could do was sit back and express gratitude for everything so far. A new Era of my life was ushering in. And I couldn't be more happier than to welcome change in. This moment definitely felt like the start of a new beginning for me.
After the phone call I slowly made my way into bed. Shutting of my lights and curling into my sheets. Heaviness in my eyelids wanting to close them to rest. A long day of travelling burdening my body. I let the sleep wash over me as I await impatiently to start a brand new day.
End of chapter 1! Hope you all enjoyed and stay tuned for chapter 2. Depending on how well this is received I can release chapter 2 as soon as it's wanted. If not then I'll release it within a weeks time. In the meantime don't be afraid to leave feedback ♡
Pale MoonLight
After your grandfather Atera passes you decide to move in with your grandmother. Since this is your gap year after graduating, you get to decide what you want next, assuming this is a great opportunity. Moving to one of your home reserves you're ready to start your new life. When you finally come back after being distanced for so long secrets and mysteries of the reserve start to unravel.
Paul Lahote x Reader
Chapter 4: Prey
Chapters
1. Homecoming
2. Emissary's
3. Connection
4. Prey
5. Awakening
6. Discovery
I stood paused in my tracks, inhaling fresh air into my lungs, staring up at the sky. I was on my way to Emily's house hiking through trails behind my house. I stood to take a break and take in the view around me.
It wasn't too far a distance from Emily's maybe 20-30 mins on foot. I didn't mind the exercise it takes to hike through this type of area.
In these fields is where I spent most of the time as a kid. Or climbing in the trees wanting to explore as much as I could. Me and Quill with the rest of the kids would play different games together here.
One of the reasons I'm hiking to Emily's, despite enjoying the exercise, is that no one was available to drive me today.
I knew Leah was going to be busy so I didn't bother. I messaged Quill but he wasn't answering. My grandmother had another meeting to attend early this morning so I didn't even get the chance to ask her.
I know Paul offered a ride, we even exchanged phone number's, but I felt hesitant to reach out. As much as I liked him and appreciated his kindness overall he's a stranger. I don't want to impose my self on him too quick.
I felt a bit weary on hiking since the wolf sighting. Last I heard there was a search party for them. Trusting that I'll be safe enough I got myself ready.
I continued on my path already over half way through the trail. I messaged Emily and Kim since they said to meet them there. They know I'm already on my way to them.
Suddenly I could hear branches moving. Not snapping but cracking and crushing sounds yet there was hardly any wind. I tensed up before picking up my pace.
The noise came from above in the trees as it echoed down to me. I didn't want to know or acknowledge anything. So I moved faster and with my eyes forward.
I was trying not to be panicked. Keeping a steady pace as I passed through. I knew where I was and where to go. Reaching a good distance away from the area reassuring my safety.
Suddenly there were voices afar from me loud but muffled. Stopping in my tracks to listen closely. I moved slowly closer but then stopping once I could hear the voices move closer near me.
“See I told you he isn't going to say it anytime soon. He's too stubborn you know how he can get”
“That asshole better say something soon before I or someone else does. She doesn't get to be involved at all which is shitty. We're all in agony for what? It doesn't make any sense—”
I gasped standing frozen as suddenly two figures came forward. It was Quill and Embry standing before me with very little clothing. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.
“Oh! Hey! Y/N… Long time no see”
“I… uh… Why are you guys out here half naked?”
Embry said to me which made me ask the question. They stood before me with no shirt and barely had shorts on. They shuffled around nervously once I asked.
“We were uh… tryna dive… off the cliff but got chicken!”
“But isn't the edge of the water like… a hike away from here?”
Quill answered nervously making me question them even more. The water is like 15 mins away from Emily's, but that area of water is dangerous to swim in, due to rocks under the water. I squinted at them to examine them further.
As I quickly glanced at their bodies I noticed scars on their chest and arms. Slight scars that looked healed, very faint, but there were many. On Quill alone I could count at least five just by seeing his stomach area. Why would he have scars such as those?
“I was tryna prank Quill by dropping some of his clothes over the edge but I dropped both of ours”
Embry answered as he sounded unsure of himself. I noticed the faint scars on his forearm, and a tattoo, which Quill also shares on the same arm.
They stood there trying to be confident in their state. I decided not to push further since it was so strange. But definitely keeping in mind of what I’ve seen, in my own head I questioned, what are they hiding?
“Okay… To be honest I don't really want to know the real reason…”
I say as I turned to walk past them. Focusing on heading to my destination. I could hear them shuffle behind me as they followed me.
“Where are you headed?”
Quill asked me as the two joined my side. I alone felt cold from the air outside as I shivered slightly. But from what I could see from these two they were perfectly fine. I couldn’t even see any goosebumps or raised hair's on their body.
“Emily's why where are you going”
I said quickly snapping my head away from looking at them. Keeping my head forward as I answered him.
“Us too we'll walk you back”
Quill offered in which I agreed. We continued on our way together, I felt a bit relieved, at least I had them to guide the way. As we talked they avoided bringing up their appearance.
“Why didn't you message me for a ride earlier?”
“Because you didn't even answer me. I called you once and messaged you”
I answered Quill as he glanced over to Embry. By the looks they gave I could tell they understood something I didn't.
“It must've died once I met up with Embry that's my bad”
He explained to me as I nodded my head understanding. I could tell he was lying but I didn’t care too hard. I know he can’t always drive me everywhere when he has his own life.
“Besides it's okay I wanted to come through here. But I was really surprised to come across you guys”
“We uh…usually walk around back here. I live not to far from here as well. Emily's basically the meet up base for all of us”
Embry answered me as we kept walking, I noticed we headed in a different direction than what I was following, I paused confused.
“Don't worry we're almost there”
Quill reassured me as we continued walking. I followed behind them as they took the lead. The path we were taking had a more clean path.
“We’re showing you the short cut for next time”
Embry said as he winked to me with a grin on his face. Smiling quickly at me before I turned my head away surprised. Together we continued to Emily’s keeping with up with small talk. Laughing and telling stories to pass the time.
We arrived at Emily's walking through her driveway to enter the slide screen doors. Noticing there were a few cars in the driveway. I was unsure of who was all here at the moment.
I stepped onto the porch hearing raised voices. A passionate discussion we could over hear making me hesitant to head inside. Before I could even reach the top of the porch everyone inside hushed.
Stepping outside to meet me was Emily, Sam, Paul, and Kim. Greeting me as Emily stepped forward to hug me.
“I’m so glad you could make it. I see you found Quill and Embry on the way”
She said as she looked over my shoulder. Remembering their attire, or should I say lack of, I didn't want to turn around to see it again. Having enough of the uncomfortableness from the long hike.
“Yeah… Guess you could say that”
I answered as we let go of each other. She guided me inside towards the dining area before joining Sam’s side. Walking together as a group to the house.
“Hey, you're pretty brave to just walk in the bush”
Kim greeted me as she came up to me. Joining my side to the door. I smiled sheepishly at her comment.
“Why are you scared of the bush? You were always the one to make us play back there”
“I dunno I guess because I haven't crawled around back there since. Just you and the boys are brave enough now”
I noticed Paul join beside me as he walked with me. This whole time I’ve been trying to ignore his intense stare. I felt my breath hitch slightly as he inched closer to me.
“How come you were walking over here I thought I told you I could pick you up?”
He asked me which made my chest flutter remembering his offer. My cheeks flushed warm as I struggled to answer him without sounding rude. I didn't want to tell him I felt shy about it.
“It's alright I uh… wanted to walk believe it or not”
“Is that right?”
I looked up at him to find him already glancing back down at me. He has such dark intense eyes with thick lashes. A slight smirk on his face that barely lifted the corners of his mouth. I nodded before whipping my head to turn away face flushed.
“Do you usually walk everywhere?”
“Just around where I live in the hills. Quill isn't far from where I live so I usually stick around that area”
I answered him as we reached the dining table. This time he nodded his head in acknowledgement. Before I could reach the chair Paul suddenly pulled it out welcoming me to sit in it. I hesitated but Paul motioned for me to sit again.
“Thanks…”
I replied as I went to sit down not refusing his offer this time. Kim and Emily joined me at the table to sit. Sam and Paul continued to stand near the door.
“Are you girls going to stay here and visit?”
Sam asked the three of us. We all nodded our heads in agreement.
“Enjoy yourselves excuse me and Paul we have to go take care of a few things. We'll join once we're done”
Sam smiled as he put a hand on Emily's shoulder. Giving her a look as they both nodded at each other. Sam stepped out onto the porch to leave. Paul turned away slightly before hesitating.
“Hey are you walking back?”
He asked me suddenly as I looked up at him. I was surprised at his sudden interest. I could see worry on his face while I answered.
“Yeah most likely”
“I can walk you back later. It's gonna get dark by the time you guy's are done and you won't be able to walk through safe”
I could tell by the shift in the room, not only was I surprised at his offer, but so was everyone else. The three of us looked at each other trying to hide the surprised looks on our faces. Again I didn’t want this offer to slip me by.
“OK that sounds good. I'll leave with you once you're ready so let me know”
I told him as he nodded his head in agreement. Satisfied he took off down the steps to join Sam. Kim and Emily looked at me surprised as I smiled bashfully at their reaction. Already busy trying to ignore the warm bubbly feeling in my body.
“What was that?”
Kim asked me as she giggled loudly teasing me. Emily joined in and gushed at me with Kim. I felt a bit embarrassed as they continued to teased me.
“My my Paul has a soft spot”
Emily said to me as she got up to head into the kitchen. I couldn’t help but cover my flushed face from them. Trying to ignore their comments as they feed my delusions of Paul.
“Don’t make it seem that way he’s just being nice”
“Oh please Paul isn’t nice to just anyone”
I tried to explain but Kim interrupted me. I paused to think of what she said, I mean I did hear Paul was mean, well I’m not sure about mean but I remember Quill and Leah warning me of his nature. Supposedly he has a bad temper and can be aggressive.
“She’s right Y\N”
I looked up at Emily as she passed me a drink then one to Kim. I wasn’t sure what to say or how to react. Even I couldn’t figure out why Paul was eager to help me. In my mind I just excuse it as Paul wanting to treat me as Quill’s cousin right.
“Well either way he’s nice to me and I don’t want to think too hard about it. I appreciate it and I’m sure he’s just being nice since I’m Quill’s younger cousin”
“Well shit I’m also Quill's younger cousin and he isn’t always nice to me”
Kim added as she looked at me with a smirk. I sighed defeated after failing to think of the right excuse. They must’ve noticed since they moved on from the subject quickly.
I myself can’t tell what Paul’s true intentions for me were, after all we were still sort of strangers, but I couldn’t help but hope he liked me in some way.
Finally me, Emily, and Kim get to connect better once we were finally alone. Moving on from Paul I got to tell Emily my plans I have now that I’m back home. She was interested in my art and what I plan to do here in La Push. Relaxing together as we waited for Sam and Paul to join us again.
The day turned into evening as the sun shone brightly through the trees. The sun still high in the sky despite it being late. We were still sitting at Emily’s together visiting and enjoying each other.
Suddenly we could hear raised voices once again. From the sound of it was Sam and Paul talking loudly before arguing. Too muffled to figure out what they were saying.
Hearing loud stomps on the porch before Paul opened the screen door. I gasped slightly surprised to see him, he stood before me a bit dishevelled, with his eyebrows furrowed as he panted tiredly.
“Hey just checking in, I’m almost ready to leave, are you ready?”
He asked me in a soft tone, I could tell he was a bit shaken up, but trying to keep his composure. I could only nod my head in agreement as I grabbed my things. Making sure I don’t stall or hold him back.
I looked at Emily and Kim expecting them to look shocked or scared. But they were smiling at me, Kim winked at me, taking me aback.
Paul stood at the door waiting for me. I got up and joined him as I said my goodbyes to the girls. So did Paul before we headed outside.
“Anyways I'll see you girls later”
“Come back tomorrow! You can get Paul to bring you this time”
Emily said suddenly offering Paul's hand. I wasn’t too sure if I was imposing on him. I looked up at him and he smiled with a nod.
“Yeah I can bring you tomorrow if you just message me this time”
He stared down at me waiting for my reaction. I smiled nervously before turning back towards Emily. His eyes were always so intense it was hard for me to handle him some moments.
“Okay well I'll be back tomorrow. Message me if anything changes”
“Night girls”
Me and Paul bid our good byes as we left her house. Walking onto the gravel into the parking lot. I sort of hung behind him instead of at his side.
He suddenly stopped and waited to walk by my side. Motioning for me to lead the way. I followed the clean path Quill and Embry showed me earlier when we came.
As we continued along together I wondered what Sam and Paul were arguing about. They didn't even join us to visit like Sam said they would. They were gone the whole time doing something.
Paul must be upset over something since he wanted to leave right away. I wondered if he was angry or upset right now. He didn't seem to be too upset when he asked me if I was ready…
“So Y/N… how are you liking La Push?”
Paul asked me as he kept his eyes on the ground. I glanced at him caught off guard. Pulling me out of my thoughts and putting my attention back to reality.
“It's… been good to me so far. I'm grateful you guys have been kind to me. Definitely helping me settle in”
“Well Quill said you used to stay here a lot so it isn't a big change is it?”
I shrugged my arms as I figured out what to say. A short pause between us as I struggled. Trying to describe how it feels for me.
“I used to visit all the time more often than I was home. But it changed as time passed. I'm just…glad this place didn't change too much”
“Yeah you're right about that. Not much changes around here”
He laughed slightly still keeping his eyes on the ground. I glanced at him and his features. Paul has such warm toned skin and his jawline prominent. I couldn't help but admire him. This setting felt pretty intimate considering we hardly know each other.
“So when are you going to show me some of your art?”
This time I was surprised he mentioned my art once again. When I looked at him taken a back I didn't realize he would find it amusing. Grinning wide before he focused on the ground again.
“I mean that depends… do you want to see some of my real pieces or just the pictures on my phone?”
I asked him as I grabbed my phone ready to dig up my art photos. He was quiet for a minute before answering.
“One day you'll have to show me in real life. But I think I'll settle for the pictures on your phone for now”
“OK… My art is based upon my identity and experience. Just saying so you understand where I'm coming from”
I explained to him as I searched on my phone. I had a few pictures of canvas paintings I did recently. Passing over my phone to him he glanced at them.
I waited patiently for his reaction. His eyes widened as he stared at the screen. Paul's eyes stayed until he almost tripped on a branch.
“Woah ok I'm gonna have to hold on till we get to your place to look at anymore. But from what I just seen you're really talented”
“Thank you I work hard for my craft”
Paul complimented me as we followed the trail together. I smiled as I put my phone away pleased with his response. Suddenly he pulled out his phone and scrolled.
“I’m not sure if you’re interested but I’m into welding. I make sculptures sometimes if you consider that art”
Turning his phone for me I held it in my hand staring at the picture. It was a welded sculpture made of iron and copper that was abstract but beautiful. Noticing the details I wondered how he even made it.
“This is really good you know? I would totally consider this art. I can’t believe you can weld something like this”
He smiled as I passed the phone back sheepishly. I was amazed that he was creative and artistic. I wasn’t sure what he did for a living but it’s cool to know he can weld. Wondering what else he is capable of.
“It’s not much but it’s something I enjoy”
“One of these days you’ll have to show me your art”
I said as he looked at me, I smiled at him, he did in return. That same warm feeling washed over me when I first met him. The comforting feeling of being basked in golden sunlight.
“After you show me yours”
He said with the same smile decorated on his face. It soon began to get dark outside and in the trees here it gets dark fast. We still had sunlight but it was getting dimmer by the minute. I would’ve felt scared if I came back alone.
The rest of the way we continued on with brief small talk. At this point Paul was leading the way. Again I didn’t mind I was just glad he was with me at the moment. Similar when I was with Quill and Embry Paul was leading me to an unfamiliar path.
Paul walked ahead of me confidently guiding the way. I slowed my stops as I took in my surroundings. Wondering how he knew this path but I somehow didn’t.
"Hey"
I called out to Paul as I stopped in my tracks, cutting off the conversation, he turned to look at me. Giving confused looks to each other.
“Where are we even headed?”
“Your place aren’t we?”
Paul said as he sort of laughed at me. I knew we were close but we were on a different trail. Which made me weary of where we were heading.
“Don’t worry Y\N this is still leading to your place. A short cut”
“How do you already know where I live?…”
“Huh?”
We both looked each other puzzled by one another. I stared at him for an answer but he stood waiting for me to clarify. Again I hesitated to ask him.
“It’s just… I never said where I lived or who I lived with. But you knew to come here before I said anything? Did Emily tell you where to go?”
Paul furrowed his eyebrows in thought standing in front of me. I felt confused as I stood waiting for an answer.
“Look, everyone here knows you and your family, especially your grandmother. I’m close with Quill too remember?…Everyone here knows where everyone lives…And yes Emily told me where to go so I wasn’t too lost”
After his explanation I felt relieved again. Understanding where he's coming from. After all since my grandmother is on council we do garner a lot of attention.
“Besides this way leads to Embry's… Did I freak you out?”
He asked me with concern in his face as we stood in the yard of my place. Shaking my head in disagreement his expression relaxed.
“No it’s not that it’s just I thought I would’ve had to give directions. My house in literally just in a field so…”
“All of our houses are in fields around here”
He said laughing, I joined in, although nervous as I took note of our closeness. We reached my house finally and I felt relieved. Paul continued with me walking me up to the door.
Standing in front of me he was tall and broad. The slight rain made his hair damp and his shirt cling to his skin. My heart beat rising as I couldn’t help but notice how close and personal we were.
“Tomorrow message me, we’ll go over to Emily’s together, okay?”
He said with his eyes gazing down on me through his thick lashes. His warm toned skin looked nice under the moonlight. I looked up at him to meet with his intense stare.
“Okay…”
I replied as I smiled up at him holding eye contact. As I went to open the door Paul backed up to the steps. Watching me enter inside safely.
“Let me know if you want to walk or to pick you up in my car. I’ll meet you here if you want to walk”
“Sounds good… Goodnight Paul thanks for walking me home”
“Anytime Y\N. Goodnight”
With that Paul stepped onto the gravel back into the treeline. As he headed home I couldn’t help but feel elated. Giddy and excited by Paul’s kindness and service towards me.
I couldn't help but think of when Emily and Kim said I might be his soft spot. Hoping they were right about it.
I spent the rest of the night with my mind filled with Paul. Reminiscing over our interactions together so far. From his kindness to the sincerity in his actions.
I laid in bed anxious and excited, wanting tomorrow to come faster, hoping to dream of him so I wouldn’t have to wait too long.
Getting ready in the morning for the afternoon I was excited. I made sure of what I was going to wear for clothes and on my face. Taking time and effort to perfect my look.
I didn’t want to be too perfect since I planned on walking over to Emily’s again. With the rain and wind it might mess with my look.
Nonetheless I wanted to look and feel good today. Especially if my day was going to be spent with Paul together.
Once I was ready I messaged Paul to let him know I’ll be walking over. He replied saying he was going to head over to my place to meet me.
I felt impatient today so I decided it would be best to meet half way. I told him where I wanted to meet, at the half way point between Emily's, where the open clearing is.
He understood and said he would meet me there. It was a short enough distance for me to go alone. I continued on my path elated to know Paul would be with me soon.
After yesterday and our walk together I felt more comfortable around him. I really enjoyed our time together and I wondered if he did as well.
The sun shone through the trees but at the floor there was enough shade. It was truly a nice day to walk. The air was cool as it breezed through. Filled with joy as I continued on my route.
Suddenly I could hear the trees shifting. Again they weren't breaking but I could hear them creak as they bent. It sounded so high in the trees. Surely it was just the wind, right?
Keeping my pace I noticed the creaking stopped. As it did an eerie silence fell over the forest.
The bird's melodic singing stopped. There was no bugs either yet they pestered me the whole way here. It was so silent and still I couldn’t help but tense up. I waited in utter silence trying to observe my surroundings.
“Well don't you smell nice?”
A woman said softly behind me scaring me to my core. I turned around, as fast as I did, she suddenly grabbed my neck holding me in the air.
“Even though you're one of those mutts you'll have to do for now…”
Choking for air I clasped at her cold hands. They were so icy cold it almost felt like it was burning me. When I hit her arms it sounded like delicate porcelain. All I could see was her red curly hair with how fast she moved.
In this very brief moment of panic I realized this wasn't a human attacking me. She was something more dark and fierce than I could ever imagine. Something unnatural as she tightened the grip on my throat.
Feeling the life slip out of me my eyesight darkened. Everything blurred around me as I felt myself throwing weaker and weaker punches. I kept staring into her eyes and they were so black no light could give them shine.
Quick as she grabbed me she twisted me closer. Craning my neck open I could feel her claw my shirt collar. Everything was moving so fast I knew even I was powerless against her.
I could hear the woman shriek loudly. The woman tossed me down to the floor where I stayed. I wanted to run and get up but my body was limp.
Looking up to see why she threw me I could see a huge gray wolf biting her shoulder. They were in a frenzy fighting and throwing each other. The woman was jumping unbelievable heights while smiling.
Was I about to die here? It certainly felt like it, I didn't feel no fear, I couldn't feel much actually as I felt my vision blacken.
Closing my eyes fully all I could think and feel was that warm golden sunlight. Shining down to warm me up from the cold floor. Serenity fills me as my consciousness slipped away.
I apologize for the delay on this chapter. I've been busy travelling so I uploaded this late. This is an extra long chapter until I can upload the next one. I hope everyone enjoyed this chapter! This is truly just the beginning of our story! So stay tuned for more content.