#parasiticvent

[parasiticwormsoup]

youre the only one who makes my day feel worth it. you're the reason I'm still alive. how do you not feel happy my life is in your hands. I'm the only one who have. I will support you from thick and thin. how the fuck do I still come off looking whiny and clingy in our relationship if I don't even show this side of myself to you. I'm constantly masking. I'm showing I'm okay. I let you know I'm suicidal and yet you ignore me. I know you have a life but I'm so lonely. I'm so lonely. and I'm so broken.

[parasiticwormsoup]

if I slit my wrists more and showed you them would you be by my side more. would you regret all the times you ignored me. I would do it. it would show me you cared

[parasiticwormsoup]

thisi snt even your fault either. I'm just so sick. I'm so sick. I need attention all the time otherwise I cry. please I don't want to cry. don't let me die. I know you're sick too. you only talk to me then. I miss you

[parasiticwormsoup]

would all your burdens disappear if I died. would the clingy little piece of shit leave you alone if I died. please just tell me the truth and i would do it. tell me I'm the clingy little piece of shit in your life. please I'm hanging on by a thread. why tell me you love me if you're going to ignore me. why do you hate me

[parasiticwormsoup]

please stop ignoring me

[parasiticwormsoup]

why do you care about all your other friends except for me

[parasiticwormsoup]

why the fuck am I so lonely

[parasiticwormsoup]

im sorry for being bad.im sorry for getting mad at you. its just youre the only one whose loved me without hurting me. im sorry for making excuses, but nobody else has ever cared before. i love you. dont leave me like everyone else did. i am not a lost cause. i love you please dont leave me