#partofthepast

[nthd-jen]

I know

It's you... Every 3 years eh? That cycle is over. I ended it 3 years ago. And it needs to stay gone. You need to stay gone :/ This is what you wanted isn't it?

[roobuds]

Beautiful words by a beautiful man

"Do you still drink tea, even though you used to hate it. Do you still buy Cherry Menthol airwaves because you love the way they smell. Every time you see her face, do you hope she is happy. You realize that you would give anything to go back an change how things turned out, but at the end of it all you realize, she is happy without you." anonymous ex-lover 

[mixedsignalsandabrokenheart]

no feelings left (?)

after more than a week of rendering overtime and overnight work at the office. this was the first time in 5 years that i didnt wait for his birthday to come and think over and over again if i should greet him. this year. his day just came by. i didnt notice it. and maybe i can now say that i dont have feelings left anymore. yes, he's someone important but i know that there will never be something more than that. it's all over.

now. i am focusing on my career. not looking for any relationship. at times im losing hope that he's even coming. i dont even know. will i still have a chance at that something? yesterday while watching bride for rent, yes it was a romcom movie. it touched my heart but at the same time i was saddened that i dont have that kind of someone. that i dont get to feel that feelings.. but im still feeling positive abt it but there are times that im believing less and less each day.. i feel like no one's noticing. just another brick on the wall. and that one day (hoping it will be this year) that he will notice..i will be truly happy to have found him. the one who will truly accept me for me..