binged the comic twice now cos im a freak. reaction to the... uh. middle part? the whole thing. spoilers for that.
holy fuck, just. just the whole administrator/zepheniah loredrop. jesus christ. whatever the hell they had goes well beyond rivalry or antagonists or adversaries or whatever. there's literally no word for it. "i expect unflinching, round-the-clock brutality" YEAH NO SHIT
i'm so glad we'll never know what she told him; whatever the imagination can concoct will always be more hellish than anything put to canonized words. but the portrayal of her short-lived vindication, the loss of what made her want to carry on living, the drastic and successful resolution, then the timely (and literal) revival offered by grey… he really was nothing in the grand scheme of things. just a tool.
and at the very end, not remembering WHY she's done all of this-- why she decided to torture zepheniah specifically with this for as long as she has-- just continuing to HATE FOR THE SAKE OF HATE because it makes you FEEL something. FOREVER. "JUST YOU AND ME." "ALL THAT WASTED TIME. IT WAS WORTH IT."
i think zepheniah was just a vessel for her. something to put her hate in. another means to an end. whether it has anything to do with the intro art is up in the air-- its inconsistent consistency can attest to that. honestly, what exactly happened or who that little girl truly is or who she's crying over doesn't really matter.
because it all crumbles to fucking dust. everything pauling unknowingly swore her whole life/worth as a person to. sick.