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[sylphoffeels]

;;A break;;

It has all been leading to this, I guess. And it's about time I address it properly and get it over with.

What I'm going to do... I suppose you could call it a break.

I'm positive it will stay that way for a while.

And after the first day of living there it has come to my attention that there isn't really anything on my mind at the moment. I wasn't bored, no, that's not the thing. I felt calm.

I felt the oh so sweet calmness and this is what I needed.

And I want to cherish it while it lasts, so I'm giving my relations with people a break.

Most of the people I know are either gone or stopped talking to me anyway. But I keep worrying, overthinking everything either way.

It's sickening, it makes me want to bash my head against a wall and scream at the top of my lungs and I really don't need that.

As selfish as this sounds I don't want to do this anymore, or at least I want to take a break from it.

Take a break from having bonds and the feeling of responsibility that comes with it.

So I'll shut my laptop down, hide it deep in my closet and disappear from others' lives for a while, if not for good.

Who knows.

Who knows if anyone will still be there when I come back.

I don't.

No one does.

I'll just trust my luck on this one.

And at the same time wish others good fortune

Bid farewell

And poof.

I'll be gone.

See you later, if at all.

Ah, and as well, thank you.

Maybe I'll be back.