and this is a piece of performance art called “i take everything personally” #personalexpression #peformanceart #personalstylist #personalbest #artoftheday #selfportrait #highlysensitive #personalbest (at Catalina Foothills, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWlqs6bvuF10klr4hc0ySoN2nbM5KJ85r4JIbw0/?utm_medium=tumblr
KAYLEIGH’S QUESTION TO ME:
WHERE DOES YOUR BODY BELONG?
I decided to explore this question in the format of a one-to-one performance. In a previous discussion with Kayleigh, we decided that our final piece needed to be presented as either a one-to-one or intimate (i.e. one-to-few / two-to-two) performance, in order for every audience member to benefit from the work. We felt that a performance which consisted of a large audience would result in a representation of a collated or generalised human body. With our initial, broad intention for this project being to create an opportunity for our audience to explore the outer and inner layers of their individual bodies, we very much want to avoid the outcome of representing a generalised human body. Every body and identity is intricately and personally unique – we want to ensure that this recognition is placed at the forefront of our work through the format of one-to-one or intimate performance.
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In Kristevan theory, the corpse is the most abject expulsion because “It is no longer I who expel, ‘I’ is expelled. The border has become an object. How can I be without border?” (Kristeva, 1982: 2). However, in Dr Bessel van der Kolk’s book, ‘The Body Keeps the Score’, he explains how trauma can cause sensory instability: “patients had learned to shut down the brain areas that transmit the visceral feelings and emotions that accompany and define terror”. (Kolk, 2015: 92). In this case, rather than being “the most abject expulsion”, expelling the self from the body becomes an anaesthesia to abject sensations. As mentioned in a previous post, for the next stage of this project, Kayleigh and I are to perform self ‘dissections’. I therefore created a paper representation of Kayleigh’s body, in order for Kayleigh to expel herself from her body and effectively be anesthetised during this ‘dissection’…
After witnessing each other’s responses to our initial ‘extensions’, we ‘unravelled’ these responses through a workshop activity. I was interested in reconfiguring our words into sentences which reflected raw, subconscious thought, as opposed to constructed, filtered sentences.
In psychiatrist, Carl Jung’s book, ‘The Relations Between the Ego and the Unconscious’, he states that “the unconscious is not just a mirror reflection, but an independent, productive activity” (Jung, 1993: 196) and is not “merely reactive to the conscious mind” (Jung, 1993: 196).
In psychologist, Robert Waggoner’s book, ‘Lucid Dreaming: A Gateway to the Inner Self’, he states that “because we assume we create the dream, we never bother to ask the dream itself. To get beyond ourselves, we have to stop focusing on our doings and manipulations and allow the unconscious an opportunity to respond” (Waggoner, 2008: 54).
Therefore, rather than writing initially straight from the conscious mind, Kayleigh and I wrote what we interpreted when watching ourselves playing with objects. We assigned the objects with different names/labels, such as calling a bottle of body spray “exhaustion” and an ornament “the night”. Because of this, when writing down what we saw the objects doing during our play, our writing became more allegorical than literal. Instead of seeing myself spraying body spray on an ornament, I saw “exhaustion” spraying “the night”.
Furthermore, the initial thought process whilst engaged in the play was focused on practicality and immediate thoughts about purpose. So, in the moment, we were less aware of emotions subconsciously affecting the play. Later, we allowed our conscious minds to interpret our subconscious thought whilst watching the recordings of ourselves playing from an objective viewpoint.
Just as Waggoner “asks his dreams” rather than “assuming he creates his dreams” – we asked our pre-existing thoughts rather than allowing ourselves to create new thoughts, i.e. what are we thinking rather than what do we think we are thinking.
When reading Kayleigh’s description of our playing, it was interesting to see her interpretation of a hair bobble (which she re-named “inside”) being placed around a bottle of body spray (which she re-named “hidden”). The sentence she had conjured was as follows: “The inside engulfs me, I am hidden. Hidden inside”. This sentence very much reflects our intentions for this project – to find what is hidden on the inside of our shells. Therefore, to see Kayleigh’s subconscious description of herself (“I”) being “engulf[ed]” was very exciting and instigates some ‘self-dissecting’ as the next stage of this project.
Here is the recording of mine and Kayleigh’s play, with the sentences of subconscious thought we both generated…
I’m performing SUNDAY 8pm In #Brooklyn with @8ballcommunity everyone mark your calendars!🐵🤠😍 I have a lot of new music so doing that plus some classics and antics 😈 HAHA PAPER YEAH!! Oh! Swipe for some random stuff! 😇😇😇🤯🤯🤯🤪🐊🐊🐢🐢🐢🦖🦖🦖❤️❤️❤️#hahapaper #peformanceart #MemeTrap #humanityfirst #ItsOurtime #bushwick (at Rubulad) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzIh5pklqkO/?igshid=17tipch3wg40s
SOLD and on their way to a new home in Texas 💥💥💥 'WHITE HERON' & 'BLACK STORK PROFILE' (Made using homemade pyrotechnics, smoke grenades and the homemade missile launcher). It's this feeling right now which is why I do what I do, when people are willing to part with their hard earned money to own and admire something that I've created, that's special. That's Art 🎨 . .My solo exhibition opens @ Studioname.co on 10th August / 7pm ... 💫 . #art #artwork #texas #marcusdove #modernart #contemporaryart #artsales #artsale #artist #abstractart #heron #stork #birds #emergingartist #artdealer #artcurator #artgallery #guerilla #instaart #newart #artnews #wallart #picasso #creationviadestruction #artworld #artexhibition #artshow #curator #peformanceart
''Of Happiness' a powerful performance last evening by my son Phoenix, depicting a constant struggle with depression. Amazing performances by all who shared their vulnerabilities, their personal struggles and hurt, through art. Thank you dear Jaxon West for your dedication to this project and opening your awesome #girlcave to the actors, thank you to my 'adopted son' Elliott Waples Hanger for directing it as well as performing. #peformanceart #everyonehurts #happiness #artheals (at Indianapolis, Indiana)