#pendingrambles

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Okay. Im gonna do it. I’m gonna apply to those things I’ve been putting off. Writing this so I actually do it. Today. We’ll see. And I need to do the early taxes thing or imma be screwed by the end of this year. So today. I’m gonna do it.

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Okay okay I just watch Color Rush 2 and (spoilers included) hear me out.

Poly. That’s all I really want to say. What if, all three of them just start going out. I think it’d be fun. But also, I just, I don’t think the way they see colors would be like that. I don’t think seeing colors would automatically be euphoria or anything, like yes I enjoy colors but hearing about colors would probably make them sound fantasy like with how others would stress over how much better it is but it’s not like seeing in grayscale is bad. Like okay I’m sorry but I think it’d be way more overwhelming and headache inducing to suddenly see more colors. It’d be interesting but something someone has to get used to, and there’d be a disconnect for a while. Anyway, sorry I have a lot of thoughts about how the shock of being bombarded with differing visuals would take a toll (listen I know he faints the first few times but also like I don’t think seeing colors would automatically be magical. I think it’d be more nauseating for a while there.) ahem, okay yeah still love it I just, lots of what-ifs, you know (and it’s super interesting to me, these aspects)? Anyway yeah poly, I think it’d be cute. Do I think they’d all get along? No. I think they’d need to get used to it first but I would love to see how they would interact with each other. Yo I’m just imagining so many different scenarios. Clearly the first things that happens when (I don’t remember any of their names) the guy (the probe? one) shows back up without a mask and both the others faint. I just, man I think it’d fun. Okay I’m done rambling for now. I’ve got sooo much shit to do but this makes me feel happy so yeah. Have a good day/night!

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Ah I think I’m gonna rewatch Tomb of the Sea. I’m remembering some of the scenes and damn do I miss their goofiness.

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You know whenever someone faints in a movie and wake up they automatically try to get up? And the other characters try to stop them. I always found that odd like “why would they get up, they’re injured”. Now I understand, it can be very confusing. Especially when you wake up with a bunch of people staring at you and for some reason you’re on the ground. That’s to say I get it now. (I get adverse reactions to shots, started happening a few years ago. Started fainting. And let’s just say it gets very confusing when you were just standing up and then wake up on the ground. I mean I don’t really feel injured when it happens. So it’s like of course imma get up I’m on the ground. Anyway apparently it’s what happens when your flight or fight response kicks in and the adrenaline has nowhere to go plus lack of blood flow. Speaking of which if you wiggle your feet (at the ankles, like up and down) it can help with blood flow and I have remained conscious since. Sometimes I can tell when I’m about to faint and can warn people. Like the edges of my vision will start filling with like black static and then start going towards the center. Once it completely takes over my vision I am out, but if I notice it happening I’ve been able to reach out and grab my friends arm before passing out so I’ve been caught more than once. But sometimes I forget I have this reaction, though now most people who work where I’ve gotten a shot are aware of this since I, well, forgot or you know, found out while there. )

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I started reading Priest and I have to say, I did not realize how terrifying Shen Wei is when I watched Guardian. His professor persona blinded me. Anyway, Gou Cheng, I’ll be hiding with you.

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Anyone else know what it’s like to order a sandwich without the bread because their allergic to the sesame seeds? I didn’t realize I was for a long time and now it’s just like, well shit, a lot of things have sesame seeds in them.

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Sooooo, apparently the dump doesn’t actually sort anything? Where I live at least. Recycling here is a lie, they just dump everything together and haven’t been sorting it this whole time. Wow. I’m unable to parse my feelings cause what do you mean this whole time for years they’ve been doing this? Huh? I was in a class years back where we would go around and sort the recycling for each classroom, the compost bin was always cool to see if smelly (not where I currently live). But I legit thought the recycling was being recycled here. Well damn. Guess the recycling bin is just for show now? I’m just lost.

Anyway apart from that and I have an assignment due in a few hours that I haven’t done any reading for, but that’s beside the point. Okay things I am into recently… hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I bought a questionable mini vacuum for my keyboard! To get up all the dog hair when I’m housesitting. Now it could certainly work better but it does work a bit. Not as much as I want it to. Otherwise it is fairly simple to clean and charge so no the biggest deal, plus it’s super freakin cute. Even if it does its job poorly I still have plenty of times to test it out to see if it works better. Now okay try good things ummm. Aha! I okay well now I’m overthinking everything so let’s go with something simple. What do I enjoy???? I watched the Kikaider Reboot and liked it. I loved markipliers iron lung movie, I was shocked at how much it drew me in. And I’m enjoying super aentai dekaranger as well as zenkaiger. Okay that’s all for now cause I really do need to do my work. Pending out.

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I want to buy a sticker printer. The question is which one? And which stores nearby have the fabric I need to make the toy designs I drew up? Hmmm… its gotta be a store I’m willing to drive to, but I hate driving so this limits my options cause I have no idea what stores are nearby. So the only answer is to look it up. Later. But once I’ve got it down and figure out how to use the sewing machine I was gifted I’ll be set. Might try to get a booth somewhere to sell stuff, probably I’ll partner with a friend so we share booth costs. So many things I wish to do and yet never the energy to do them.

Ok, now rambles. Been procrastinating a hell of a ton on my work, I dont know why watercolor is just so forbidding to me. I always start working at the last fucking second. So, I need to be willing to mess up. And start wayyyy earlier so I can actually finish on time without an all nighter.

Anyway yup rambles. Okay so sjgbfkfnl I’m loving Matori and Kyoken, do I understand everything? No, but I got ideas and scenarios I want to shove these characters in. I might just write some fics of them for fun because idk I highly doubt they’re gonna be like what I’m thinking but the fun is there for me sooooo I might make it anyway. Just, really want the two to have to sava main guy at some point. And work together to do it. Highly doubtful that would ever actually work out but a story I might make.

Yo cat for cash, I’m just analyzing this guys allergies. I’m like ok is he as bad as my roomates allergies (horrible all the time) or mine (relatively small in comparison to roommate). And it seems closer to mine. Like I get a rash from touching animals sometimes but I can typically avoid that if I keep my skin covered, mainly arms cause my hands typically won’t get a rash from petting. Everything else tho can if touched. And that seems to be similar to tigers allergies. But not quite. His appears to turn into a full body rash from touching cats. I don’t have enough data yet to determine allergy severity. But currently on scale of pendings pet allergy to roomates pet allergy, seems to be closer to pending. I would have easily been petting all the cats there in spite of my allergies, tho I probably wouldn’t be able to stay in the store too long if the cats shed a lot.

Hip hop and street dance is sooooo fun, and also soooo hard. It’s one thing to do the move but it’s another to bring your own flare to the piece. It’s not about copying the move exactly but getting the steps down and then making it your own. I feel like I’m doing the movements so stiffly, I need to figure out a way to comfortably go at them and bring a bit of myself to the movement. As well as practice cause I keep getting my feet confused. Either way, really fun.

Also currently watching zenkaiger and loving it!! Trying to find sticker packs of the shows I like is so difficult tho. Kamen rider kiva, one day I’ll make my own. Anyway, I love the friendships so far and was not expecting the fucking space pirate. I know of the other space pirates (should really finish that show one day), but was not expecting random space pirates to appear and start singing and dancing. Honestly, what a beautiful entrance. I’d love it if there were more similar shows where the main characters do that too (if there is a kamen rider, super sentai, or other show that could be considered similar plssss let me know!!).

Okay, back to work for me! Also I’m finally replacing the stickers on my waterbottle. It’s time, have the images are gone and the rest are peeling badly but they’ve been this way for years now. It’s time to give my waterbottle a full clean and add new stickers on.

Ok, Pendinghope signing off!