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[poemsbyv]

I don’t care

I write as I drown

You are worth these salty waves

Every drop, every molecule

I tell myself you are,

Yet you aren’t.

“I don’t love you”,

I tell myself.

But I do

My heart hurts.

Sometimes,

I wish I could reach in,

Into my chest cavity,

to rip it out.

Only to finally see

not red, full of life,

but a somber heart decaying from grief.

I don’t want to keep it in, but i have to.

Because it is mine

and

not yours.

c.2019