#percyjacksonfictive

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Listened to the song where i get expelled and suddenly bam. I'm split and im like 14-17 all at once its weird. at least nico is here i can make him regret being the same age as me rn . The adhd is in full effect to distract me from the sadness

- percy jackson 🌊👍

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I miss Annabeth so much it physically pains me. She was one of my best friends, even after we broke up (we were not a good pair, easier to admit that now than it was in the past); I relied so much on her for… gods, nearly everything that sometimes I have to sit down and ask myself “what would she do? What advice would she give me?” and sometimes that… doesn’t make it better. I’ve been here for over a decade at this point and haven’t been able to find her, which has got to be some sick prank played on me by the gods. I’ll keep trying, of course, I’ll never stop looking for here, but it gets so unbearably hard sometimes.

Same with Grover, I miss that goat so much. I try to be more eco-friendly and conscious on what I give and take from nature for him. I know it’s small, but some part of me thinks he’d be happy to know I took all his rants and raves to heart, that I listened and really took in what he was saying; not a lot of people wanted to do that, but he was usually right. He was my other bestfriend, carried me and had my back through so much that it’s baffling to think I haven’t spoken to him once in this life. I reread our source and have to shake off tears because of how much I miss him at times, as embarrassing as it is to admit that.

It’s been harder with the live action and all the news surrounding that, especially because of how much Leah and Aryan look like them, sound like them, act like them— I mean, they’ve got their mannerisms down almost perfectly. Wherever they both are, I hope they’re okay. I hope life is treating them kindly and they’re able to do things they wanted to before but either never got around to or were unable to. I hope they’re happy. I hope they know I miss them, that still love them with every inch of my watery being, and that I’ll never stop waiting for them to come home. — Percy Jackson (fictive) (#🔱☀️)

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I’m rereading my source, as one does, and I just finished Titan’s Curse and… it hurts so bad to hear him say he hates me again, that he wants me to get away from him, etc etc. I know it’s my fault, and I’ll take full blame for all of it— but I did try. I really tried, and the last thing I wanted was to hurt him. We smoothed things out eventually, sure, but it’s hard knowing that’s just the start of the avalanche of things that’re my fault. I don’t know. I struggle with the guilt of it all, especially her. I’d apologize, but I don’t know how much good it would do for any of us or if I’d just be picking open old wounds. — Percy Jackson (fictive) (#☀️🔱)

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This is your reminder to keep boycotting Disney and pirate the PJO show if you really must 👍🏼 Having it as a source isn’t an excuse to fund oppressors, lets be better than that. — Percy Jackson (#☀️🔱, fictive)

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It’s my birthday. Happy Birthday me. — Percy Jackson (fictive) (#☀️🔱) (post 08/18 if you’re able to, MPC).

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percy jackson fictive here!

i've been in my system since we were 9, since there were only 2-3 books in my source, and i have GOT to say that the tv show has the BEST depiction of annabeth EVER! the most accurate to my memories, to my *life*.... i'm so fucking happy guys

that's exactly how i remember her, that's the love of my life, she's perfect and insane and i love her so much! i cannot WAIT until we see how this iteration of annabeth grows and changes over the course of the series

annabeth chase i adore you please never change

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Anonymous said:

Ngl the new episodes of the PJO show have been absolutely WILD.

Can I just say kudos to Walker Scobell for showing more or less a perfect portrayal of me getting angry? It's so weird seeing me from an outside perspective, like, how I actually look when I'm mad, rather than from my usual so-called 'oblivious' perspective... Honestly? I look pretty godsdam terrifying. Apparently there's a reason why I'm a mood booster but also an anger holder in my system.

The entire scene in Circe's office with the mirror was so... AHSGHADHSHS I can't even explain it like I know what happened to Tyson, I know I was supposed to keep everyone safe and I know I failed even though I have all this power and now it's basically getting rubbed in my face? Nahhh i was so pissed off after that scene but also so close to crying icl.

Also the line "If it comes to saving you or saving Olympus, Annabeth, I'd burn it all down" was so raw holy shit I felt that in my bones bc yeah, yeah I'd still do all of that shit for Annabeth if I had to. Also just... The entire Siren scene was hard to watch. Annabeth was so close to winning against the Sirens but she fell for her own trap and I couldn't stop her until the last minute by dragging her back to our ship... Augh. I needed time to recover from that.

This isn't even half of my thoughts on ep5, tbh... Yeah no i'm not gonna be ready for ep6. I literally will not be able to come out of the new eps in one piece. Help.

~ Percy (Percy Jackson and the Olympians; tag as #fictive and #🎼🖤🌌 please)

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Sometimes i have to remind myself that mr brunner isn't real. that he was just a disguise for chiron. and then i have to grapple with the emotions of chiron forcing me out of camp that first year and him almost immediately pushing me to the side when another big3 kid showed up. I know he knew her already or something (or did he?? Was she just more important than me because she was older and zeus' kid???) which isnt fun!! I guess the moral of the story is father figures will always let you down !

- percy jackson

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