I'm awake at 3am bc I'm trying to, like, come to terms w the fact that my top surgeon did keyhole instead of a normal peri like I'd thought he was gonna do and like, lowkey-getting-higher concerned abt being left w extra skin when the swelling goes down.
like, you put "periareolar" on the intake form, you ask him during your phone consult whether some of the tattoo over your heart (ish) would get cut off cuz "I know you take out skin from around the areola" (paraphrasing) (he just said it wouldn't be affected), you even start explaining the procedure you came in to get when he talks to you before surgery cuz he asked you why you're here and you misunderstood the question (he just wanted verbal confirmation that I knew I was getting top surgery. the irony of this interaction is not lost on me.) - how could this go unclarified?!
I mean I wanted my areolas trimmed down a bit which obviously didn't happen but the more I sit w this the more I feel like that's rly not the biggest thing I have to worry about, is it? I never wanted keyhole bc on top of not being able to resize those suckers, it's so hard to sculpt everything well w such restricted access and you aren't taking away any of the skin that previously comfortably housed, y'know, an entire boob and I never thought my skin elasticity there was that great and the scarring only going partway around the areola seems to kinda make it/the nip to look a bit folded over a lot of the times and- this is gonna eat me up inside, isn't it? bc I won't rly know where things stand for another few months.
what the hell am I supposed to do? what lengths would he be willing to go to that could possibly rectify this? the only way I can think to remedy extra skin is to trim that shit off, which would basically require another whole-ass surgery bc there's no existing point to work from. there's no seam to take in. it's not like he's gonna be willing to do that for free. not to mention it's a 12hr drive to his practice.
its one thing for a surgery to not turn out the way you'd hoped but for it to have been a different surgical procedure altogether??
it took my aunt fucking dying and my mom divvying up her life insurance payout be able to afford surgery. I have no more dead aunts to pull from.
I'd at the very least like to know why he opted to do keyhole instead of a normal peri.















