Hi, I have a rent/question. I am schizautistic and I struggle mostly with delusions of persecution from other people. And in order to live my life in the best way possible for everyone, I have now spent years refusing to act on my feelings of being attacked by the people I I interact with. As a catholic person I believe that everybody deserves to be treated the best way I can, and I'm stubborn enough to live by that rule. Except it leaves me vulnerable for people who would actually hurt me as I can't tell the difference between true toxic people and the bullshit my brain is feeding me. Also, my low empathy makes that I couldn't care less if I hurt people's feelings.
So globally, life is so fucking exhausting because I have to make monumental efforts to be a decent (I won't say good) person. Any thoughts on how I could handle that differently ?
I think you're doing the right thing already, and what's worth noting is that even if some people have bad intentions, this should not change your dedication to not harming people. If people treat you badly, the most constructive response is boundaries and distance - not revenge.











