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Worst fears~ it's cool I don't need friends!

I’m kinda getting to the point where I feel the friends I used to have I don’t have anymore.. Like the saying goes.. “Out of sight, out of mind.” But tbh I’m in the same town as one of my closest best friends since school.. Sure I get it you’re in you’re own life bubble with your own troubles but a “hey” from those who you thought you were close to would go a lot further in me believing we were still friends then liking my shit on FB or on here! I have one friend who I speak to everyday & she says hi first alot of times.. Why must I put the effect in souly just to keep a sinking friendship alive.. Like I’m here for every one of my friends but I’m getting seriously fucked off & hurt!

#Personal Crap~!#personal baggage #I can't anymore #whatever I don't need friends!#I've always been here for every single one of my friends but I fear it doesn't go both ways #mothers group clique #verses #single af

Based on idols I reblog.. You guys think I have a type?

#Personal Crap~!#kpop #ideal types #biases #cha hakyeon #hoseok #changmin #seungyoun #JR #Onew #lee taeil #feeldog #Byunghee #eddy oh #can I say all of VIXX?

You're making me write shit cha hakyeon...

I don't think I like this~

#it's not fanfic it's poetry...#I can't...#cha hakyeon #Personal Crap~!#VIXX

I've lost 7/8 followers since coming back into tumblr!!

What did I do???

#wtf followers... what did I do #Personal Crap~!

PERSONAL DUMP~

O… M… G! I’m not fretting like a rescue animal I’m not.. No.. *sarcasm*

I’ve been with new new job for alil over 3 months now & with this new job I’ve gone back to my home town.. Meaning I’ve had no real place to call my own.. ( I’ve been staying with my dad.. Step mother & 2 younger bros..) it’s been nice.. But as of about 3 or so weeks ago work has decided they’d give me a house in my home town rent free, utilities free etc.. Only problem is it doesn't come with furniture.. I didn't like the first place they showed me, I did however liked the 2nd n was ready to move in when they looked at it & said no.. So they've given me this other house.. I can tell I already don't like the neighbours n I'm having trouble with leaks..

That’s not why I’m alil nervous.. Slashed excited slashed fretting.. No.. It’s the packing & moving that’s got me all over the shop.. Don’t get me wrong I’m super excited to have my own house & own rules & own furniture.. It’s just I get alil melancholy when it comes to packing.. I’ve spent most of my life packing & moving.. So old memories jolt back into my life.. And I kinda internally panic.. I wallow alil when I pack.. That and my hometown is 2 hours from where my mother lives & where I’ve been living so I’ve gotten alil anguished about the drive…

Lord help me.. Chasus give me strength tomorrow!!

also gotta leave my fur baby behind.. Tigga.. Mummy loves you but it’s best you stay here.. UUUGH!! *cries*

#holy crap I'm not ready for all this #I've spent soo much over the last 2 days on this damn house #I hate this driving back n forth #I'm not wanting to load all this shit up n be on the move #personal crap~!#lord help me get there safe tomorrow!#sorry for such a long personal cry for help post..#I'm gonna be wifi'less #*cries forever*

You may never read this.. but until the end.. i breathe for you..

Feel free to say those words you think I need to hear you say.. Like a whisper carried by the wind and getting lost in the trees.. Reckless emotions and prying eyes lead us to this spot in time.. Damaging all that we had and all that could have been.. Couldn't handle the fact you cared so little.. This must be a dream.. Pushing at myself to wake from this.. Please how could this be.. Locked into a blackening nightmare.. Forced, surrounded by unforgiving nothingness.. Couldn't voice a breathe.. Couldn't take in a moment.. You had me lost in an endless time.. A repeating system in a cloudy daze.. Couldn't scream for the life left in me.. You had me and forgot me.. Picturing us is like knives on new born skin.. Unhealing displeasure in knowing what you did to me.. A night, A victory.. You had me.. Eyes covered by your sweet little lies.. All I have is faded memories.. Twisted like your smile.. I'm trying can't you see.. Trying to understand why.. I'm falling in front of you.. You think I'm begging.. Ha! I'm better then that.. In a different space in time.. It could have been you before me.. Holding onto tiny shards that used to be your heart.. Twisted smiles and loathing eyes bearing down on you.. I can wish can't I.. Couldn't voice a breathe.. Couldn't take in a moment.. You had me lost in an endless time.. A repeating system in a cloudy daze.. Couldn't scream for the life left in me.. You had me and forgot me.. Searching for the missing parts of my heart.. Now too tiny to put back together again.. Wishing I wasn't so blinded by you.. You truly think your top shit.. Like a king who sends his men to war.. You cower inwards.. Fighting the brave kid locked inside.. Screaming death and sin.. What happened to us.. To bring us to this point.. Can't seem to know.. Who would have seen the fault in you.. Who could have seen the fault in me.. endless longing to understand why.. To never find the answer.. Let the questions pile up so we can climb out of this mess.. Because you cheated.. Began this lie.. You thought it would be easy.. Step back we'll never be again..