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and every day i thank god for my fellow grad school penitents on this godforsaken website and even app

#and those not in grad school but simply engaged in being a little obsessed with analysing phenomena in the world.......#honestly being back on here more has been such a huge beautiful chance to bounce ideas around with smart interesting funny people #it's gotten me really excited for reading and research and writing in a way that i had been missing for a long time #personal nonsense

I wish I knew any kind of love from like, when I was a baby.

I’m sitting in bed with a husband who loves me and a little fat baby a week away from being a year old and he’s snoring and holding the strap on my shirt and I am happy and sad because I genuinely don’t have any memory of being held between two people who love me like this. I remember snuggling my mom(angel, love her) and sometimes dad(complicated, weird) and NEVER both of them and honestly the dad parts are so mixed with his other awful treatment of me it kind of ruins it.

I guess I’m just hoping I broke a cycle. My parents each had shitty parents, in their own horrible ways. My mom did her best to be better. My dad thinks he did but really just sank to the level he knew and called it ignorance of youth. I started young too and I’ve never put my hands on my kids, or called them names.

I tucked my toddler into her bed with her goodnight movie and her little fan, I made sure my middle girl was covered in her favorite blanket with the dog on the couch, I gave the big kids chips and water and made sure they knew how to change the channel over to movies when they’re done playing games bc it’s summer and they’re big and awake and happy. I put the baby to bed. I know that no person or parent is perfect but I hope that whatever their future therapy is for, it’s minor, and workable, and I can apologize and do better and it won’t take unpacking a huge wound to seal it up and scar over.

#I don’t have anyone to talk to about this anymore so I’m dumping my purse out for you all #personal nonsense #I love being a mom and I hope they love me being their mom

are you wearing the—?

the nirvanna the band the show the movie hat on a hat? yeah i am