#personal waffle

[loveofakind]

Someone tell me why I have been staring at an ever-growing pile of dishes for the last week unable to do anything with them until midnight when in a sudden rush I was able to breeze through them all

Like I just want to be able to do stuff when it's necessary not at these seemingly random, inconvenient times

[polyamorouspixie]

I do my best to use my experience and knowledge to help other poly people. I feel I owe it to a community that helped me when I was finding my feet to be there for those who need the same.

But, some days... I really struggle to understand why people find being poly hard. Monogamy is confusing, complicated, full of secret rules you're supposed to understand, restricted... Polyamory just flows. You can talk about the things you want, you don't have to hide how you feel or hold yourself back. It just feels right. Polyamory is my happy place, when I'm struggling to understand the world I surround myself with poly people and poly stories to help myself feel right again.

I know many people don't feel the same way I do, but some days... I just can't get my head around why.

[joooniverse]

lol all ive done this summer is be sad, sometimes get close to relapsing then binge watch something til i feel better!!

i need routine back in my life im actually excited to go back to school on monday

[namiashiraidou]

Work sent me a data entry thing to do that would have taken a few hours, and then half an hour later told me not to do it, they'd found someone else to get the work done. I've worked 2.25 hours so far this MONTH. I worked 13 last month. I'm just... I'm in desperate need of money. I can't pay all the things I have to, and I won't buy food when there are more important costs I have to try and cover (new car windscreen, new tyres, upcoming MOT, storage unit rent, Christmas stuff I have to send, petrol, I don't even have a gift for my partner). Already I'm at something like... idk I had a pizza a few days ago, and two veggie burgers yesterday, but before that I think my last meal was last Saturday. Right now I'm too exhausted to care. I need income that will actually support me and not force me to choose between trying to cover important costs (and falling - the windscreen should have been done last month) and eating. Although you can bet your ass I'm saving £5 for a Christmas cake that goes on the shelf on the 23rd, I've been hungering all year for it, I'm fucking having that cake if it's the last thing I do. It's the only thing I'm fucking looking forward to.

[ijustcantwaittobeme]

Reality vs ZR

So I get really immersed while on a Zombies, Run! mission and after it is all said and done, my anxiety reflects on how weird I must ave look to anyone going about their workout or day. 

(Then by some mercy - the anxiety dies down for awhile and I can resume life like normal for a bit.) 

Recently I just went through a set of three (very harrowing & gut wrenching) missions at the gym and was internally freaking out. 

Freaking out because - thanks to the wonderful work from the sound editors, I was either jumping like crazy or turning my head to whereever the audio was coming from. 

Then as if that wasn’t enough - as Runner Five, there were a lot happening in the way of emotions and plot to the point that I was on the verge of ugly crying. 

Again, immersion is a thing and I do forgot more often than not how people might actually notice some weirdo running (this case running on a treadmill) and acting odd. 

Until I’m back home at least but then that day happened and the gym manager came up to me to ask if I was actually okay. 

Moral of the short waffle here: To any Runner Fives out there who get self-conscious, hopefully sharing this will help you feel better about how you respond/look while using Zombies, Run! 

[polyamorouspixie]

The (much nicer) poly version of the village bike is the town linchpin, I suppose

I was hanging out with some of the local poly meet up and every time they mentioned anyone they knew I'd be like "oh they're my ex" "they were my housemate!" etc etc and I got described as like, the local poly linchpin because I linked up all the different poly people all over the city.

The first time I got described as this was about seven or eight years ago, and somehow it's even more true now, even though I've only dated between seven and ten people (depending on how you count it), and I don't see myself as a particularly social person.

But it's exactly the person I WANT to be, so I'm really pleased people are getting that impression.

[joooniverse]

the only bts songs ive been listening to are in tear and answer since tear came out and i feel like listening to others.....so im gonna listen to ALLLL their albums bc why not (go big or go home right!)

[eastorhild]

I've been kinda lazy about my skincare, I thought - I'm going to get old anyway, why even invest in serums and oils and creams and god knows what. Let me shrivel up in peace.

But then I got samples packs of two kinds of face serums and THEY'RE SO NICE. And I bought both of them. And my skin feels so NICE. I don't know if it looks any different but it's SO NICE. (Also the dry skin around my eyes has healed. ALSO VERY NICE.)

I guess I forgot it's good to just sometimes have nice things that are perhaps not 100% utilitarian, but very much NICE.