#persyplaylist

[apparentlyaperson]

Realizing I'm technically a transdisabled that transitioned. I'm recalling back to when I was a kid and would pray for things to happen to me.

And now years later here I am. Stick as a dog all the time. Gosh dang sisyphus the way recovery is a constant uphill climb

I realized it listening to Halsey's The Great Impersonator, especially the "Letter to God" track. The whole album slaps tho.

[apparentlyaperson]

tender parental vibes

[apparentlyaperson]

weak boundaries and abusive relationships

permaUnableToConsent vibes

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I'm always the one compromising

It's way too hot in here for me

I'll be suffering in silence

'Cause you're the top priority

I'll take away from what I wanted

And we'll do as you please instead

I'm not the best at starting conflict

I'll suffocate but you can raise the thermostat

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The capillaries in my eyes are bursting

If our love died, would that be the worst thing?

For somebody I thought was my saviour

You sure make me do a whole lot of labour

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My body caries sadness that my brain cannot yet see

And I've been holding on to memories

In my stomach and my teeth

And both my shoulders have been burdened

By the weight of my mistakes

And every time you lean in closer

Both my knees can't help but shake

And I think you're a danger to my health, or so it seems

Is it love or a panic attack?

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always knew I was a martyr and that Jesus was one too

But I was built from special pieces that I learned how to unscrew

And I can always reassemble to fit perfectly for you

Or anybody that decides that I'm of use

[apparentlyaperson]

on bullying

[apparentlyaperson]

take it back to the start

I've had a change of heart

I know we can make it better than it's ever it has ever been

I know we can make it better