Hey there, fellas! It's been a ride of sickening despair this year for some of us, so I figured I'd close out the end to a possible last year of joy for us all in America by giving my review of life's shenanigans and bullshit bombs.
Halloween was depressing because I had no one to spend it with, plus I was busy juggling multiple college work. It's like a blur for this month because I don't remember much going on.
The upcoming election was just getting started on preparing my hopes to be slashed once again.
The stress of the long-distance relationship I had going on with my bf was starting to take it's toll.
The bitch of a writers-block period preventing me from writing on here
This was a fucking month filled with grief and pure unfiltered rage. The month made me realize I have no hope in America's choices and that I could be considering moving abroad.
I have friends who are of the LGBTQ+ community, and being a woman in this world makes me want to take myself out. I don't want to go into 2025, not even a foot wants to go across the threshold. But I fucking have to because my life has to go on.
So, the things that did me in were:
The Hitlers apprentice winning over this dumpster fire of a country
Looking at some of the people I love (including my own father) and knowing they voted for Trump, but say they love and care about me
Watching my future of having kids/starting a family with away because I don't want to die of being denied life-saving care
The long-distance relationship I had going on with my bf starting to tell me maybe this won't work out
The stress of midterm finals before thanksgiving
My mental state declining
I turned every setting off in my head at this point. I read nothing in the news about the election turnouts, I deleted Instagram and Facebook out of the pure rage of the MAGAs spreading their shit everywhere and people crying about their future.
A co-worker of mine died in a car accident so suddenly and I forgot how depressing funerals were. I didn't start sobbing until I went up to her parents and gave my condolences.
I broke up with my boyfriend because I realized the connection and attraction just weren't there anymore. We were both too busy to try to keep up, and I was already pretty much independent. But having to be the one to do that sucked, but he wasn't mad. He understood why.
I had a good Christmas but have been struggling to pick up any shifts at work, so I was upset that I wasn't making much money.
The feeling of doom peering around the corner like a demon
An IRL friend of mine had a baby, so I've been getting daily pictures of the cutest lil fry in an array of onesies
Well, that's all for now. I might go back and add some later, but hopefully, there are a few miracles that could happen in the coming years under the moldy Cheeto's presidency.
I really hope to write more on here, but lately, I've been feeling kind of down about my work. I sometimes think that nobody really cares to read it, and I feel like I have a lot of people on my tag list who just ask to be tagged and then don't interact. I also compare myself a lot to other writers and then view my own writing as a lesser kind even though I'm trying to improve by reading other writer's works, taking mental notes, and researching how to be better.
To those of you who do interact and respond and whore over my writing with me, I see you and I really appreciate all that you do.
Shoutout to all the wonderful people I have gotten to know over these few years on Tumblr, and I hope to meet many more of you in the future on here. My ask box is always open to horny thoughts, or observations on the Loki films.
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