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Hi, I remember a while ago I read the description to a fic but never actually read the fic and now I want to read it but can't find it. I remember that Phil was a writer and Dan had HIV/AIDS and Phil would write about it. Sorry but I can't remember much more. I search through as many tags as I could think of (terminal illness, writer, author etc.) and looked through phanfic catalogue but couldn't find it. Do you know the fic and, if so, could you link it?
this has been in here for a while, does anyone know?
Title: You Usually Smell So Good But Right Now You Smell Like Him And I Don’t Like It
Rating: PG
Warnings: literally none except the mildest of angst and some swearing (oops)
Word count: 4185
Prompt: Dan is a neko owned by Phil and Phil works at a neko hospital/shop/etc and Dan keeps getting jealous because Phil comes home smelling like other nekos so he cuddles him all night to get as much of his smell on Phil as possible
Author’s note: I actually adore this prompt and I was really excited to write this! I hope you don’t mind that I changed it a little bit c: I also love your writing so much so I was really excited/nervous to be writing for you haha c: I hope you enjoy it! (The title was inspired by p!atd and fob song titles)
Phil woke up first to find that Dan had star fished himself across the bed and stolen most of the duvet. He chuckled and rolled his eyes as he watched Dan groan and shuffle over, tucking himself into a little ball with his tail around his middle and his ears twitching lazily as he dreamt.
Phil smiled and kissed his forehead quickly before yawning, grabbing his glasses and dragging himself out of bed so that he could make some breakfast. Everything had to be as perfect as possible.
He collected the ingredients, trays and bowls he needed, leaving a trail of destruction and open cupboard doors behind him (not on purpose) and got set to making the batter. He was proud there was only a small amount of eggshell in it.
Half an hour later he had managed to burn three pancakes before finally creating four golden brown ones that he could present along with an array of different toppings.
He painstakingly laid out plates and glasses of juice on a tray and carried them back to his bedroom before Dan started stirring. Dan blinked tired eyes up at Phil and gave him a sleepy smile before lazily reaching out an arm in his direction to signal that he wanted a cuddle. Phil immediately slid under the covers next to him and cradled Dan against his chest.
“Happy anniversary,” Phil smiled, kissing the top of Dans fluffy ears.
“I made you some breakfast.” He declared proudly and Dan peered up at him and kissed his chin.
“Thank you.” Dan replied rubbing his eyes and propping himself up against the pillows, his hair curling gently and Phil couldn’t help but remember the young Neko he first met.
Phil fed himself and Dan little bites of pancakes and they drank orange juice until they were both full and had fingers covered in pancake grease and sugar.
“We should probably shower and then I’m taking you out for lunch.” Phil told Dan and his eyes lit up and his cheeks flushed ever so slightly.
“Where are we going?” He asked curiously.
“It’s a surprise! But I think you’ll probably enjoy it…” Phil smirked as Dan pouted when he found out he wasn’t aloud to know yet.
“That’s not fair!” Dan sighed poking Phil reproachfully.
“You’re so cute.” Phil replied affectionately kissing Dans pouty lips quickly. “And it is fair as you will love it when we get there. Now come on, my fingers are all sticky and I need to get clean and then we can watch anime until lunch time okay?” Phil replied lacing his fingers through Dan’s to prove his point about needing a wash.
“Fingers are all sticky are they?” Dan asked innocently, cocking his head slightly to the side and blinking his large Bambi eyes with eyebrows raised.
“Shut up, you’re disgusting.” Phil replied pulling Dan in the direction of the bathroom.
***
After hours of lounging around and showering and getting ready they both realised that it was probably a better a better idea to go out for dinner instead as they had long missed lunch by the time they were actually ready to leave.
“Should I wear a hat…?” Dan asked stopping in the hallway and frowning slightly at the coat rack.
Phil understood his worry as
people had mixed opinions on hybrids. Some people loved them and some people thought they were unnatural abominations. Usually if Dan was having a bad day and he needed to go out he would cover his fluffy ears with a beanie and wrap his tail around his waist under his jumper and coat to avoid any conflict or dirty looks.
“No. You look beautiful just as you are.” Phil replied and Dan flushed and took hold of Phil’s hand gratefully.
They left the flat at half four and Dan leaned against Phil slightly and gave him his cutest most persuasive expression, widening his eyes and sticking his bottom lip out ever so slightly.
“Why won’t you tell me where we’re going?” Dan questioned Phil, sighing slightly and Phil fought to contain his laugh.
“Because it’s a surprise! You’re so impatient.” Phil replied fondly squeezing Dan’s hand. Dan sighed but squeezed Phil’s hand back.
A taxi was waiting on the corner for them and Dan seated himself in the back. He peered out the window of the taxi when they started driving just to see if he could figure out where they were going. Phil had the told the driver where he wanted to go so quietly that Dan had missed it but he was determined to figure it out.
Phil started stroking over his boyfriends ears in an attempt to distract Dan and it worked almost instantly because Dan was a sucker for any and all physical contact that came from Phil. Dan turned back round in his seat and leaned his cheek against Phil’s shoulder, barely holding in a quiet purr.
The car wheels came to a slow halt and Dan looked up in surprise and then cursed quietly when he realised what Phil had been doing. He hurried to undo his belt and scramble out of the car. He was excited to finally know why Phil had been keeping it a secret.
Phil paid the driver and thanked him before getting out of the taxi.
Dan was stood in front of the small restaurant with his hands over his mouth. He looked at Phil and Phil smiled seeing that Dan had remembered.
“This is where we came for our first date.” Dan whispered, as if he couldn’t believe that Phil had chosen this place.
“I noticed.” Phil replied, the amusement audible in his tone.
***
“I’m going to order the same food I did last time just to check that it’s still delicious,” Dan decided peering at Phil over the top of his menu “What about you?”
“I’ll join you.” Phil replied smiling as he noted Dans prominent dimples showing from how happy he was.
Dan reached out to take hold of Phils hand. “Thank you for taking me here. I’m so happy you remembered. I know sometimes I’m a bit of nightmare so thank you for sticking with me…” His voice trailed off and he sighed sheepishly.
Phil squeezed his hand comfortingly. “Shh that’s not true I promise. You are never a nightmare you’re just mildly annoying sometimes.” Phil grinned and Dan automatically smiled back.
A waiter came over and smiled at their joined hands.“Are you ready to order?” She asked and they both nodded.
After they had ordered Dan noticed that Phil’s eyes had wandered to a table behind Dan and he was squinting slightly. Dan frowned and shifted in his seat to follow the direction of Phil’s gaze. At a table near the window there was two people, one boy and one girl.
Phil’s eyes were fixed to the boy who’s fluffy white ears poked through his blonde curls.
Suddenly, as though feeling the eyes upon him, the Neko turned around and locked eyes with Dan.
He let out a tiny breath when the ice blue eyes met his own brown ones.
The hybrid was stunningly beautiful with prominent cheek bones, full pale pink lips and a tiny nose.
However his gaze slipped past Dan and on to Phil and his face lit up.
He turned back to his friend, said something to her and then left his seat to come over.
“Phil! I can’t believe you’re here!” The anonymous blond exclaimed rushing over to hug Phil. Dan’s ears flattened against his hair and he bit his lip hard to stop himself from growling as he watched Phil hug the boy back.
“Max! I’ve missed you! It’s been very quiet at the shelter without you.” Phil replied fondly, not breaking eye contact with the boy.
Dan shuffled unhappily, his overprotective instincts flaring up and making his stomach twist painfully. He wanted to pull Phil over to him, push away this other Neko indignantly and kiss Phil to show him who Phil really loved. However, they both completely ignored him and instead of doing or saying anything he just sighed, sat and watched as the two caught up.
He listened to their conversation curiously and quickly gathered that Phil had rescued Max from a house that his owner had set on fire to get rid of him and to get the insurance money on the house. That was horrible to have been through, Dan got that, but it was still no excuse for him to make heart eyes at his boyfriend.
Max had stuck with Phil the way that Dan had when Phil had rescued him and it had been difficult to find him a new home because he was so attached to Phil. Oh.
Dan stayed quiet until Max made a comment about how great Phil was looking and then he snapped.
“Oh by the way hi, I’m Dan, Phil’s boyfriend.” Dan interrupted bluntly, sticking one of his tiny hands out to shake one of Max’s.
Max looked slightly startled as though he hadn’t even noticed that Dan existed and then his lip curled ever so slightly. He forced a smile.
“Hi Dan, I’m Max,” he paused before leaning forward and saying “Phil’s original Neko crush.” quietly so that only Dan would hear it before leaning back winking and then shaking Dans hand firmly, giving him a dazzling smile. Dan barely held back a snarl and instead forced a smile back.
“How nice to meet you.” Dan replied flatly sitting back down again. Phil looked between them both obliviously and smiled.
“So who are you with?” Phil asked conversationally and Dan almost groaned but instead settled for rolling his eyes.
“My friend Mae.” Max replied. “Would you like to join us?”
Phil smiled apologetically.
“Sorry I can’t I’m here on a date with my boyfriend,” he said gesturing at Dan and Dan smiled proudly (and maybe a little bit smugly. What? He was allowed to be).
“However,” Phil continued “if you’d like to do something after we could all do something together?”
Dan looked at Phil in disbelief.
“That sounds great, I’ll see you soon then!” Replied max leaning forwards to hug Phil a little bit too long for Dan’s liking.
***
The date passed with Phil staying utterly oblivious to Dans upset. He kept glancing at Max and smiling happily and Dan’s stomach was filled up with knots.
Their meals were delicious but Dan was swallowing around a lump in his throat and he found that he was struggling to enjoy it.
“Did you and Max go out?” Dan asked before he could stop himself and Phil glanced over at the table by the window at the mention.
“No, he just took a liking to me that’s all.” Phil replied absentmindedly.
Dan shivered. Those were the exact words Phil used when he described Dan to people.
“Did you take a liking to him too?” Dan asked fidgeting slightly and phil smiled.
“Yeah he was a cutie! He clung to me the entire stay at the place and I stayed on late and did extra shifts because he cried whenever I left the room so I had to creep out when he was sleeping. They’d ring me in the mornings yelling at me to get their early because he was freaking out without me.” He replied fondly.
Dan’s face fell and Phil paused and regarded Dans expression properly for the first time. He tilted his chin up and stoked his cheek gently.
“I love you though okay Dan? If I had wanted Max I would have adopted him wouldn’t I? But I didn’t I took you in and I met you after Max so it must’ve been fate.” He said gently, finally sensing the other nekos unease.
Dan leaned against Phil’s palm. “Do you think maybe we could just go home after this?” He asked worriedly.
Phil smiled at him. “Of course! I should’ve asked you first before making plans. We’ll finish our meals and then I’ll tell him you’re not feeling well so I need to take you home to look after you okay?”
Dan smiled properly for the first time since meeting Max.
“Okay!” He replied happily.
They finished the rest of their meal and Dan ate with a lot more enthusiasm and contributed to the conversation more. He also kept his hand on top of Phil’s whenever he didn’t need to use it, just to give out the message that Phil was his. Max could find someone else.
When they had finished Phil paid, took Dans hand and led him over to Max’s table.
“Look ill.” Whispered phil and Dan giggled slightly but then put on a miserable look.
“Hey Max I’m really sorry. Dan isn’t feeling very well and I want to take him home and look after him. I wouldn’t want to drag him out if he wasn’t feeling a hundred percent his best.” Phil explained and Dan squeezed his hand.
Max put on an artificially sympathetic look that Phil bought and Dan saw straight through.
“Oh no! Well… I suppose you could always drop Dan off and then come out with me and Mae?” Max suggested slyly and Dan froze.
“Um…let me talk to Dan about it?” Phil questioned pulling Dan aside without waiting for an answer.
“Would you like to go with him?” Dan asked and Phil sighed.
“I would but I want to do whatever makes you happy. It’s our anniversary of one year together…If you don’t want me to go I promise I won’t but If I do go then I promise nothing will happen. I love you so much it’s not even a contest.” Phil said holding both of Dans hands in his and lacing their fingers together.
Dan dithered. He didn’t want to stop Phil if he wanted to but he also wanted Phil all to himself.
He could see that Phil was trying to conceal his hope and he couldn’t bring himself to stop him doing something.
“You can go it’s okay.” Dan replied giving a little smile.
“Are you sure?” Asked Phil and Dan nodded quickly before he could change his mind.Phil squeezed his hands in thanks and kissed him briefly before walking back over to Max keeping one of their hands linked.
“That sounds great! I’ll drop Dan and then where should I meet you?” Phil asked and Dan sighed and zoned out not wanting to listen to Max’s voice anymore.
He glanced at the other girl, Mae who was standing uncomfortably alone at the side and he felt instantly sorry for her. He was too awkward to say anything when they were there though so he made sure to mention it to Phil in the taxi on the journey to make sure that she would be included.
The taxi ride back was silent because Dan was tired and he didn’t know what to say. He couldn’t help but feel slightly upset that Phil had even entertained the idea of being with another boy on their anniversary let alone actually going. Max must have been very special to him.
When they arrived at their flat Phil kissed Dan on the cheek and hugged him quickly.
“I promise I’ll text you when I can okay? You’ll be fine, won’t you?” He asked biting his lip.
“I’m not a child Phil I’ll be fine,” Dan replied rolling his eyes.
“I love you.” He said more seriously and Phil kissed his cheek again as though he couldn’t help himself
“I love you too kitten. I’ll see you soon.” Phil replied before waving and walking down the path to the waiting taxi.
***
Phil came home early.
The entirety of the time he spent with Max his thoughts were focused on his boyfriend waiting for him at home. He was tired before he had left the house with Dan earlier and now he was exhausted and he just wanted to see him.
He trudged up the path to his house wearily, the thought of the little half kitten, half human waiting for him the only thing that kept him going.
Phil unlocked the door quietly in case Dan had fallen asleep although it was only ten and was almost immediately tackled by a brown eyed tornado.
“You’re back!” Dan sighed burying his face in Phil’s chest.
“I am! I came home early because I missed you and I didn’t want to be away from you any longer.” Phil declared and pulled back slightly expecting to see Dans dimpled smile. Instead he found that his forehead was creased and his tail was flicking irritably.
Dan moved his button nose over Phil’s shirt and then stood back.
“Dan, are you okay?” Phil asked curiously, watching as Dans luminous eyes travelled across his top.
“I’m okay.” Dan replied but his voice sounded slightly off. However, before Phil had a chance to ask what was wrong, Dan had dashed away, fluffy tail waving restlessly.
Phil followed him into their bedroom curiously and watched perplexed as Dan fished out one of Phil’s jumpers from their wardrobe.
He padded over to Phil and held the jumper out.
Phil took it from him and tilted his head in confusion.
“Do you want me to put it on? Why?” He asked plucking the green fabric thoughtfully, unsure of Dans motives.
Dan wrapped the end of his tail around his fingers - a sure sign that he was lying - and said “because it looks nice on you.”
Phil crossed the room and stroked Dans ears until Dan let out a tiny purr and rubbed his head against Phil’s palm affectionately.
“Do you want to tell me the real reason kitten?” Phil asked sweetly and Dan sighed and fidgeted uncomfortably.
“You smell like Max.” Dan blurted out eventually, his cheeks going rosy.
“Are you jealous?” He asked, attempting to reign in the desire to gently squish Dans slightly chubby cheeks.
“No! I just don’t like the smell.” Replied Dan indignantly, moving away from Phil’s hand and folding his arms over his chest. He wrapped his tail around his waist protectively.
“Okay okay, I believe you.” Phil smiled opening his arms to Dan.
Dan regarded him cautiously before smiling back and rushing over to wrap his arms around Phil’s waist.
“I’m sorry I left you on our anniversary.” Phil sighed and Dan held him tighter.
“It’s okay. I’m just happy you came home early.” Phil replied moving one of his hands from Dan’s waist so that he could stroke Dan’s fluffy ears comfortingly.
Dan attempted to breathe in Phil’s familiar comforting scent but instead caught the scent of the other Neko.
He wrinkled his nose and pulled away pouting. Phil surveyed his facial expression and held back a laugh.
“Would you like me to go and have a shower Dan?” He asked gently and Dan shrugged, feigning nonchalance.
Phil kissed Dans forehead, picked up the jumper that Dan had asked him to wear and some pajama bottoms and headed to the bathroom.
Dan’s forehead creased unhappily as he watched Phil walk away.
He didn’t want Phil to smell like anyone other than him. He knew he was being overprotective but his hatred for Max was already pretty strong.
He trotted over to the bed and buried his face in Phil’s pillow and searched for his scent. He breathed in deeply and a wave of fatigue and comfort washed over him.
He rubbed his cheek against the soft fabric affectionately and tucked his legs up until he was curled up beneath the sheets on Phil’s side of the bed. He didn’t even notice Phil’s return until he got into bed besides him and made him jump.
“Is this better?” Asked Phil and Dan rolled over and gave a tiny experimental sniff.
He grinned at the familiar scent and tucked his head under Phil’s chin.
However, the offending odor began mingling with the comforting smell of Phil again and Dans forehead wrinkled unhappily. It was very faint but Dans powerful nose still picked it out. He was trying not to think about why the scent was so strong. However he chose not to say anything about it because he didn’t want to worry Phil. Instead he decided to try and get as much of his scent on to Phil as possible.
He wriggled around on the mattress until his body was on Phil’s chest, his arms were around his waist and his legs were between Phil’s. Dan had gotten ready for bed as he had run out of things to do in the house and had settled for preparing to sleep very very slowly.
He briefly considered how dull his life was when Phil wasn’t with him.
To Dan, it felt as though all the colour had been taken away and replaced with black and white and dull grey. His mind unwillingly wondered how his life would have turned out if Phil and the other people working at the shelter had never found him. An involuntary shudder travelled down his spine and he wrapped his arms more securely around Phil in an attempt to comfort himself.
“Are you okay?” Phil asked carefully, sensing Dans bodily shift.
Dan nodded mutely and made sure that Phil couldn’t see his face as he was biting his lip hard in attempt to stop any quiet whimpers escaping his mouth.
Phil was not so easily convinced. “Come on sweetheart what’s wrong?” Phil asked, propping himself up on the pillows and moving Dan so that he could see him.
“Is it me? Is it because I went out with Max? I’m really sorry, I didn’t think properly.” Phil sighed, guilt obvious in his voice. Dan hurried to reassure him and shook his head.
He took one of Phil’s hands and gripped it tightly, like a small child with a comfort blanket.
“No, I was just thinking about how different my life would have been without you. If you hadn’t adopted me or rescued me at all or if you had left me or something.” Dan mumbled lowering his eyes in embarrassment, aware of how needy he sounded.
Phils sharp intake of breath made Dan look up. He took Dans face in his hands carefully and briefly touched their lips together. He leant their foreheads so that their noses were brushing together slightly and Dan’s face was so close that he blurred ever so slightly when Phil tried to look him straight in the eyes.
“I will never ever leave you.
You mean so so much to me.
You don’t have to worry about what would’ve happened if you had stayed in that prison because I found you and I’ve got you now and you’re safe okay?” He asked gently.
Dan moved his forehead away from Phil’s so that he could sit himself on his lap and hug him tightly. “Okay. I love you.” He replied, his voice slightly muffled by Phil’s shoulder.
“Would you like me to put a film on? And then we can go to sleep?” Phil asked and Dan nodded and clambered off of Phil’s lap so that he could settle himself under the covers. “Any requests?” Phil asked running his fingers over the tightly crammed films packed onto a shelf on their wall.
Dan shook his head tiredly and took the end of the duvet between his fingers and rubbed it against his face tiredly, blinking at phil slowly as he struggled not to drop off to sleep.
Phil smiled at him in adoration and quickly pulled a film out at random. If he hadn’t know that Dan was such a stubborn person, he would’ve said that he was tired and suggested that they should go straight to sleep but he knew Dan would argue as Phil had already suggested watching a film.
Dan discovered that the film was ‘Howl’s moving castle’ and smiled as he put it in the DVD player.
They had both seen it a million times but it was one of their favourites.
Phil pressed play and curled up under the duvet with Dan who immediately made himself Phil’s second skin and tucked his head under Phil’s chin. Phil stroked Dan’s ears affectionately and placed little kisses onto his hair every now and then.
Half way through the film Phil glanced down at Dan and found that he was fast asleep.
He cooed quietly at his cuteness and kissed the top of his head gently. Untangling his fingers from Dan, he reached out and grabbed the remote so that he could switch the TV off. He moved around until he was comfortable and Dan woke up briefly in the process.
“Phil?” Dan asked his voice slightly raspy.
“Did the film end?” Dan asked sleepily cuddling up to Phils side.
“Mhm. Go back to sleep.” Phil replied fondly, stroking back Dans fringe gently.
“Okay. I love you. Thank you for taking me for food and stuff and happy one year.” Dan rambled quietly.
“I love you too and it’s no problem.” Phil giggled. “I’d do anything for you,” he added softly, smiling as he heard Dan’s little snores.
((Feel free not to post this but I want to get the news out and I know you’re a pretty popular blog so yeah…))
Hello everyone!
I’ve started up two blogs dedicated to appreciating Dan and Phil , where anyone can submit any messages or stories or posts they want showing their love and appreciation for Dan and Phil.
Check them out: love-for-lester and hugs-for-howell and read the about pages if you want more information on what the blogs are for
Once you get this you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly, then send it to 10 of your favourite followers (non-negotiable) (positivity is cool)!
okay so since i got this twice here i will be actually answering the ask and thank you to my friends you guys are so cool
Uno: I love my body because first of all, how cool are these things, right? And because I think it's really beautiful and can do a lot of things and provides a constant state of existence, which is nice.
Due: I like that I can be confident in myself because as I grow, I find out that a lot of people aren't confident in themselves or haven't been for a large majority of their lives, which is shocking to me.
Tre: I love that I'm funny! As of now, I believe one is usually born to be funny and usually cannot become funny over time. You are or you aren't. And, judging from how many times I've been told, my ability to make people laugh is high enough to be called humorous.
Quattro: I love that I am very transcendental about most things in life, because I think transcendentalism is a great ideology.
Cinque: I love that I can be so emotionally invested in 'the right things'. I'm not worried about other people's perceptions of me, I'm not involved in drama of daily life (quite naive in that way, honestly), but I get emotionally invested in myself, my friends, my family, strangers in need of aid, and media which interests me.
(these numbers are all in italian because i write in italian sometimes to improve mah skillaz - io sono felice that you sent me these asks, grazie grazie!)
phandabbydosey reblogged your post “Phandom Big Bang 2014: Sirenia”
#Why do mermaid fics always have to be so bittersweet #I love them so much and it's all logical #but why can't they ever have a nice happy ending #where they both end up human/mermaid and live happily ever after and have lots of babies and a dog together
I know!! I was so conflicted ending it like this, but am super tempted to write a sequel with a happy ending.. but it's a bit too cliche for the mermaid to just magically become human or vice versa *stresses* anyway, I'm glad you enjoyed!
