Against all Odds
A/N: okay so this is obviously based on the Phil Collins song, but threes so much emotion in it, I just hope I captured some of it in this fic.
No warnings just Ben angst and lots of it.
Ben had stood in silence watching you take your last boxes out of the apartment that you used to share. It was unsettling, Ben being so quiet. You expected anger, or negotiations to try and get you to stay, anything. You didn't expect silence. "Well, this is the last one." You say breaking Ben out of his trance. His sad green eyes met yours. And you look away as tears gather in your eyes. He chewed on his bottom lip indicating that he is thinking something over. As you to walk away he speaks, and you pause with your back facing him.
"You know ever since you left I've been asking myself the same question." His voice sounded different. It was laced with thick emotion, and his eyes had averted to the floor. This did not seem like Ben, he wasn't being playful, he didn't radiate calmness, he didn't wear a smile, he didn't seem like the Ben you know and once loved at all.
"How could I just let you walk away? It's been eating away at me for days on end. How could I let you walk away? You are the only person that really knows me. The real me, when I'm not in front of a camera or in an interview. You saw the Ben that no one else gets to see. I don't… I Didn't pretend with you.
But then I had another question." his tongue swiped across his bottom lip as his eyes locking onto you. " How could you just walk away from me? We've shared so much. We've shared love, and wonderful, amazing memories that were the best days of my life. And we've shared tears, horrifying, heart-breaking moments that we didn't know if we could get through. But we did, because we had each other, and that was enough. We got through them with the promise and hope of those wonderful amazing days. And now we'll never have those again. And all I can do is watch you leave.
So look at me. Take a look at me now. Take a look at our place. " He sounded like he was on the verge of tears now."It's just empty space. There's nothing left here to remind me of you. Your taking every part with you. I just have the memory of your face." A single tear slipped down Ben's cheek. "and you coming back to me is against all odds, but it's all I have to face. Even though I know there is absolutely no chance." Ben let out an unsteady breath as more tears steadily followed the first.
"I wish I could make you turn around and see me cry. Because there is so much I need to say to you. And so so many reasons why. We were together so long I was happy being me with you. You, the only person I didn't have to act in front of. You are such a big part of me and my life. This place feels so big and empty now that I feel like I'll be crushed by its mammoth size. All I have here are memories. Memories of you. Of us. And all I can do now is wait. Wait for you and thats what I've got to face."
Ben could feel his heart being broken up inside his chest, as more tears raced down his face. "So please, just turn around and look at me because I'll still be standing here, waiting. And I know that you coming back to me is against all odds but its a chance I have take." Ben waited for you to turn around, to just look at him, but you didn't.
" Just take a look at me now. "
