Its weird to acknowldege that I use Machiavellianism daily, as my own survival to preserve my knowledge. If I act like some Kantian (in a sense of the categorical imperative, pls dont attack for misinterpreting Kant) I'll live blissfully. And I wouldn't make impacts in the masses bec thats what my knowledge is for. But it does feel nice to be God-honoring, family aligned, academic weapon guy. A kind of bittersweet alternate reality.













