#phon chatter

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I miss my fucking boyfriend ☹️☹️😤😤😤

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having a whinge below the cut

i realise that i’m the one being a dick here but like.

if this is the second wedding where i’ve asked if i can bring my partner along well before the invites are sent out, get a yes, and then find out via the online rsvp form that the couple have changed their minds

idk man. i get it. it’s their wedding and they get to decide who they want there. it’s not like i’ll make a stink about it. it’s just really disappointing to have these two nickels.

because i was single for so long and spent most of the weddings i went to feeling a bit lonely and wistful and was excited to have someone i love to share the day with and dance with. got my hopes up yk?

anyway. sent a polite message to my friend to double check so. fingers crossed?

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I FORGOT TO VOTE IN BIRD OF THE YEAR!!! TAWNY FROGMOUTH I’M SO SORRY I FAILED YOU!!!

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booked my first tattoo!!! weeeee!!!

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20 days until i fly to dublin. 21 until i arrive. 22 until i see my gorgeous weirdo boyfriend

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one of the last things my mum gave me before she died was an angel-wing begonia she propagated from the one she grew and kept under the big kitchen window. i’ve been so careful to look after it and thought i might have killed it more than once.

it flowered for the first time last weekend - a week into housesitting for my boyfriend and his housemates while they’re in Europe. and a week before her birthday.

and maybe i’m getting lost in the magical thinking. but. it feels like a sign. or a message from her.

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and the fucking shuttle bus to the venue is going to arrive late rip rip rip rip

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fuck man. breaking up with my boyfriend the night before my friends’ wedding while at the special accomodation I booked for us wasn’t the plan for this weekend