Corona is literally killing me right now. Colleges have moved up their application dates and want me to apply like end of April aka now. I’m so sad and angry like ahhh! I was supposed to have all this time to tour and such and take the SAT and the ACT twice and now I haven’t even taken it once cause it got cancelled. I have toured 3 schools and hated 2 out of the three. The other one is honestly the one I was probably going to go to anyway cause I loved it when I went but now I can’t help but think “is there something better out there..?” Cause I was supposed to tour lile 10-15 other schools!!
My mom isn’t helping either, she’s like “just go to a cheap school and get a degree” but I told her I care where I spend the next 2-6 years of my life!! She keeps just saying “I just need a degree and no place that hires me is going to look at the place a graduate from I’m just wasting my money” does she not get I’m doing this for me? I want to go to college to have a great experience, make friends, go to parties but also have an amazing curriculum and get an awesome education! It is for me, I want to live in a place I love, doing what I love, learning.
Oh yeah and to top it all over off I feel like I wasted my high school years and won’t get into a good colllege. Oh, arguably the best part, I have literally no idea what to major in or what even interests me anymore. Everything I worked and wanted has no way of becoming a thing and I have dealt with that and I’m happy to know that those are careers that aren’t for me, but what is for me? I certainly don’t know. I feel I’m not good enough at anything to do anything worthy of a career that would make me happy. Maybe I have too high of expectations but it’s really bumming me out not knowing what to do with my life.
