#piercing therapy

[abbyslev]

i repierced some part of my lobe i’m literally a GOD

[yayaiamlordee]

Sense of Identity: Body Modifications

I’ve heard of people using body piercing, tattoos, hair dying, or any sort of body modification, as way to help with finding your sense of self. They use it as a type of therapy you may say, like what I do. The second I turned 18, I got my septum pierced, dyed my hair blue and it really gave me a confident boost (after some arguing with family and critical judgement...thanks for that). For some reason, a small piercing and a bright hair color gave me peace of mind but how? Since then, I would dye my hair almost every few months or every year. I got more piercings on my body and each time it really made me feel better. Stretching my earlobes, love it. I’ve always been into the alternative style or seeing body modifications. I never wanted to be apart of the norm. I’ve had most of my piercings for about 5 years now and they’ve really became a part of me. For the most part, i’ve had jobs that allowed me to wear them and have colored hair except for the septum piercing, though honestly I haven’t worn as much due to it being crooked and needing to be re-pierced properly. My point is, i’ve been able to wear these pieces of metal on my face, show my stretched ears and my “awesome” hair. It really made me feel comfortable in my own skin, which is a big deal to me. I’ve always struggled with figuring out who I am, what makes me “me”.

Unfortunately, I have went in for an interview at a job that pays a bit more than my current job and is not in the food industry (because let’s face it, it’s awful dealing with customers when it comes to their food. Jesus Christ.) It’s just at this really cute pet store that I use to live by and it seemed like a place I could enjoy again since I did use to work at Petsmart. My problem with it is the fact that they don’t allow colored hair, piercings or tattoos. I only have one tattoo that I keep covered anyways due to hating it now and with my wedding coming up, I have normal hair color for once. I have two piercing on my face which is my eyebrow and medusa piercing. The lady said I could wear retainers, which is fine. Though for some reason it’s giving me anxiety with the idea of not having my piercings showing, or to not have any tattoos showing. I feel as if I would lose the little sense of self I have without them. I don’t want to be an ordinary person. I also have scars on my arms from past self harming I want to get covered and I am not sure how I would go about it if I got this job and decided to stay long-term. I know people say you grow out of your piercings, or that kind of stuff has to come to an end if you want a good job. But why does it have to? Why is my worth based on my appearance when it comes to body modifications? I know I could also pass on the job too since I am doing just fine at the job I currently have, but I want a change of environment, more pay, and be around animals again. I’m really torn and I end up always doing this too. I pass up job opportunities because I come back to the same issue. How can I still have my sense of self without the things that really make me feel like me? Am I crazy for feeling this way? Am I taking it to the extremes? I’m just not sure really. I don’t like this feeling I get but I’m so tired of possibly giving up opportunities. Part of me is kind of hoping maybe they decided I wouldn’t be a good fit, though I want someone to see that I have potential as well. The fucking dilemma is killing me. 

[queen-in-the-shadows]

hahahhahahaahaha 4 tattoos and a lip piercing? hahahahahahah im mentally stable i promise hahahahahahah

[monsters-song]

piercing therapy today 😍

[cassandrameh]

Just got my forward helix done! I didn't even feel it.