May 25
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high risk high reward where if you get my clothes wet somehow you might end up all bruised up or make me cry but you'll get to see me naked because i can't deal with sensory issues
i wish we were both vampires so whenever we get angry we can just fistfight each other. you bruise me up or dislocate something, i bite a chunk off your shoulder, and we heal right back up in like a minute and cuddle and kiss now that all the anger is out💕💕🩷
despite some really annoying things happening today, i take breaks to steep in memories of the dream i had: playfighting (bodily) and playfighting (verbally) with a big burly witty man i didn't know, pushing and prodding at each other exuberantly, hitting each other's beats, hitting each other, hitting on each other
maybe it's because of the kinds of people i usually play with, maybe it's the fact i've started doing "20mins absolute beginner at home pilates" a few times a week for the past 3 weeks, but last night, playfighting a new person, i got the rare feeling of being able to physically overpower someone. like, wow, right, we're play-fighting – i don't need to use my full strength against them. i could, but i could also let them push me around, roll over me, go limp and let them struggle under me, no clear winner.
usually it's me, fighting for my life, full force and full knowing i'll never be able to win, delighting in losing vicariously. this push and pull, sweaty, giggling, rolling around on the floor with nobody gaining the upper hand, was a pleasant change of pace.
I always feel bad hitting males when I spar, I know how retarded we both are and idk, it just feels wrong, unless my boyfriend is watching...
fuck sex, all my homies want homoerotic playfighting.
Normalise playfighting in fanfics
the way that I would die for some feet holds and teasy /light twords on my bed rn is not fair.
*please someone tword playfight w me:(*