04012016:: ZS made my day
The day started quite normal… until an anniversary reminder came. I thought I have deleted it all but unfortunately the calendar on iPhone wasn’t… I thought I won’t be affected but I was wrong. I texted Mr Bear Hug on this and his reply was ‘it’s natural. U r only human’ Went on to do the last note on the fact that I don’t need to remember it anymore and the date has no meaning for me now. Day went by OK. Until I get a call from a old friend who was at my work place. Had a short chat and she wanted to find out some closing hour so I tried calling for answers and inadvertently I tried to call ZS for help. He didn’t answer the call and so I left for my coffee with my friend. Had a good catch up and when I got back to my seat, I saw that ZS returned call. I called back and told him that all was sorted. I thought we would hang up but he insisted that I asked him the question.. so I did. I guess, at the back of my mind, I wanted to prolong the conversation too. I also told him that I called him last week to find out something else but didnt managed to and he said he tried to call me back too…. told him that I know he knew quite a fair bit of things as he is like some old furniture in the organisation. Somehow, our conversation continued cos he said he had the image of a wardrobe and I told him I had the image of table and chairs, chairs that are expensive. So it led to our conversation of a very expensive chair that I fell in love with years ago… I told him I nearly bought the chair We started to Google and was having a conversation on which one we like better.. he insisted that the chair looks like those ppl used at the mahjong table where I insisted that the chair is just so mesmerising… we just kept bantering why we should buy the chair. Full of nonsense cos I was telling him he should buy the chair and loan it to me. So unreasonable… for that 15 mins, we were back to Us. The Us that never parted. The Us that were so in love with each other. I went back in time to be his #your野蛮princess that I missed being for so long. I guess all things have to come to an end so we decided that we need to hang up. Cos he told me that he had to run. I am grateful that we spoke, it’s been a while since we last had such a conversation. I want this to be the restart of us. I want to have it for a long time to go. I want Us back but I am not sure if being back together is possible. I wish we can and could. I really miss him. I really miss Us.. I want Us back badly. I miss his hugs, his texts, his kisses… If I could choose again, I want ZS back as the guy who want give me hugs when I need it and always giving me that assuring kiss to let me know that everything is OK.