Everyone thinks I’m older than I am
As if it defines who I am
“I never would have guessed”
especially considering the size of your chest
You won’t see those ages ever again
So cherish when you have it
Why would I skip all the playgrounds and fireflies
But wouldn’t you do the same
If it meant helping save a life
During the day it’s all fine
I have my perfected smile and laughter and perfected words
Then night falls and out comes all my feelings
The tears the thoughts and all of my demons
Quietly screaming in the bathroom all alone
But the only thing going through your head
When there's no more tears left to cry
And im done wiping my face dry
With the same fake smile back on my face
As if nothing ever happened
I’m not allowed to have a dark place
I start walking to my room
Midnight comes and we all hear her again
My parents go to her room
While I get the butterfly stiches
There were tears and blood
The only tears running was down her eyes
My parents hold her distract her from the pain
While my job was to hide the razor again
At 11 I'm there holding her hand
The same old words again and again
Making sure she doesn’t bleed out
I have her blood all over me
I’m use to it though so I don’t freak out
But don’t forget I may be 11
But my age doesn’t matter
When my sisters life is in question
As I walk into 6th grade the very next day
As if nothing ever happened
I still have to go on with a smile on my face
I was always the quite one
And of course I got bullied
I’ll just add it to the bottle
that hides my hidden emotions
I prepare myself to walk through the door
First thing I see is my parents sitting
I don’t expect it anymore anyways
My sister gets home and walks Stright to her room
And what’s now a routine continues.