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weird to think i am a Prominent Creator in my fandom. i was doing some survey for something and it asked me about it and.

my instinct was not to say no. because like. i've got a fic approaching the first page when you sort by hits or kudos. i've got. i don't know what a lot of ao3 subscribers is but i think i'm at it. i thought my tumblr was relatively small but then someone else posted their followers and i'm Not.

so i did the good thing and said yes i am, because yes i am, but like. damn. that's. fuck. like -- i don't know. it's a lot of things.

it's me being like. wait no i feel good about myself. it's the 29 asks in my inbox, at LEAST one of which is highly questionable. it's the 22 unresponded to ao3 comments. it's the 5 fics that were inspired by mine. it's a lot of things.

i dunno. like. i'm not really.

i made a survey and 30 people responded. 30 people. and it wasn't even from my main fandom blog. what do i do with that information. i don't know.

i don't know i don't know! it's weird! it's a good feeling i'm HAPPY abt this but at the same time it's weird!

do people think about me? if i left a comment on someone's fic, do they care that it's from me? should they? do Others think of me as big? i don't know! do i want to know? i don't think so. i don't know what i think of myself as. prominent is a good word. that's measurable. my fics show up on a lot of ao3 pages.

but. i dunno what does that mean about me. am i gonna say something that's going to lead to a lot of people getting the wrong idea. is there.

fuck. i saw something -- i can't remember what it was -- and i remember thinking, this sounds like something i said. not in a "repost" way in a. i don't know. i don't know how to explain it, honestly.

someone sent me an ask pulling in one of my friends. what's that about. i don't know. it was cool like my beloved <3 i'm so glad our friendship is known but also what is it that our friendship is known.

do people have parasocial relationships with me? do they care what i think about things? i don't know. i don't want to know, i don't think.

things sure are weird. i started my warriors blog about six months ago, and Wow it sure has taken off. sometimes i don't get it. i'm just a college kid. i'm just. here. i don't know.

if u told me in february, "hey, this thing you're about to do, the thing you're going to throw yourself into to get through a terrible break up, that thing -- people are going to see it and know and care," what would i have thought?

i don't know.

i started writing six months ago. maybe not exactly, i don't know.

i wrote 10k words for icbtyssm because i wanted to think about dovewing for the first time in years. i wrote another 40k in three days over the summer because i needed to -- not.

my friends send me pictures of their cats. i love them all.

i get an ask i can't figure out what the hell to do with. i post it, confused, and get another.

how many people have seen my cats? do my cats know i miss them?

someone asks a question about something i'm working on. i write over a thousand words in response. i get another ask about it and respond with an emoticon.

i write in second person when i am stuck. i was a homestuck writer first.

it rained yesterday. i walked until i was soaked because i wanted to feel something again. it worked. i could cry. i am alive again. how is this related? i'm not sure. but it is.

#mine #if u follow me on mallowstep and u don't have my discord #pls dni #i'm doing this on main for a reason

had ONE post lowkey blow up and now a bunch of middle-aged porn addict pages are following me. GO AWAY OMG.

#I’m literally ??#pls dni #stranger things #I’m literally girl blogging #girlblogging #and posting about pop culture #My page is NOTTT for u

but it's like. i'd have to somehow get rid of all my journals before doing anything. or at least update them idk

#pls dni #mithi's own #musings from thy truly

not sleeping tonight because fuck fuck fuck everything's fucking fine and sunshine and daisies and rainbows and i still have 2 projects to complete and formatting is so fucking impossible when ur doing shit in a group and i have exams going on at the same time and i can't seem to sit down and work for like 5 fucking minutes while everyone else is calling 5 hours a day too little because at the stage we are at it is and where am i nowhere i'm going nowhere i'm going to crash and burn and disappoint everyone again

#PLS dni #mithi's own #musings from thy truly