#pmdd?

[latristereina]

On nights like this when anxiety overcomes me and obsessive thoughts plague me, I hate myself so much.

[lesbianroyai]

no wonder i was so irritable today my period is starting so early

[pennedbylisse]

i am convinced i either have borderline personality disorder, which leads to monthly premenstrual exacerbations or I have PMDD because it is NOT normal to feel this unstable before my period.

it's not the food cravings, the fatigue, the bloating, the cystic acne that bothers me. It's the way my relationship burn in my flames and i constantly feel guilty that i can't control this rage. it's the oscillation between being at my prime during the ovulatory phase and crashing down like icarus a few days later to the lowest of my lows. and it's a monthly thing!

i want to unalive myself. the rage wants to swallow me whole. but if i just sit still for a few minutes, it passes within a day or two and it's baffling to me how i can go from wanting to end it all, ruin it all, sabotage every good thing i have going for me and switch within a matter of hours to loving life again, having goals, having plans, having a healthy dopamine loop.

and you can't reach out to the doctor that's supposed to know how to handle this because they'll just place you on blood-clot-causing pills like a stupid dollar-store bandage over this massive crater of a problem.

I DON'T WANT MEDS THAT CAUSE MORE PROBLEMS

I WANT A SOLUTION. I WANT TO BE IN CONTROL OF MY WILL, MY MOODS, MY DRIVE.

I want to get off this hormone ride. it's not fun. it's never been fun.

[theyneverlast]

i'd say that i'm an emotional person in general (i think i hide it pretty well) but the last couple days i've have been PMSing and everything has been Too Much(™️)

[soggy-cheeto]

Woke up feeling SUPREMELY depressed and victimized

It’s awful

It’s so bad

I know that it’s this bad because I’m about to start my period, like right on time, once every 2-3 months I get really bad the few days leading up to my period but it doesn’t make it any less hard

Especially since when I’m visiting my LDR boyfriend for like... the last time before Christmas potentially

Like stop, shaking out of this is REALLY FUCKING HARD and I wish this wasn’t happening right now (or at all, but now is especially bad timing)

Being productive and drinking strong coffee is helping slowly

slllooowwwlllyyy

[behereforthis]

This album is totally getting me through the day. Breeeeathe…