The first time I saw you I was on the Amtrak,
rushing back to a home that was still fresh,
rushing back to a love that was still new.
Tumble-down fence posts,
dry grass yards pressed right up against the train tracks,
you were a vision of a past I’ve never known,
a past that likely only exists in rose-colored nostalgia for imaginary histories.
I’d never seen you,
never heard of you before,
with a name so plain, clean, dry, hardworking, I would have remembered.
This landscape I know like my own dry skin,
these roads through crackled hills,
this vein through suburban sprawl,
this explosion of town names, only important for their freeway exits,
hid you from sight, kept you safe or kept you behind.
Our love affair was brief, I bought a car, one-thousand dollars even, pretty soon after that.
The vision of the future, fast car, fast life, is more alluring than the slow pace of a roaring freight,
plus gas was cheaper than train tickets.
I haven’t seen you since, wonder if you’re even really there.