i want to know if you've ever longed for someone the way i longed for you.
see,
if i had the time,
i would ask you a million questions
i would listen to every syllable that flowed
from the depths of your soul they stir
and boil up in amalgams of fear and joy
of love and yearning
if i had the time,
there wouldn't be a thought of yours i couldn't recall
or a secret i'd have yet to uncover
all of you i would see
if i had the time,
we would talk for hours upon hours
what about?
who knows
i'd share it all with you
we would know each other
see,
if i had the time,
i would pull you close
i would embrace your innermost desires
your tormenting memories
your dreams and nightmares
your vices
your virtues
if i had the time,
i'd beg to know how it felt
to see someone like me
clutching my hands around the vapor of your being
one that evades me
always evades me
see,
if i had the time,
i'd read this to you
i'd read it one thousand times over
i'd let you read it yourself
feel the pages of the book that is my skin
soak in the prose that is my mind
the paragraphs on my lips
that tell of a life we never lived
phrases atop phrases
that simply read,
'for you i longed.'
see,
if i had the time,
keoni,
i would tell you everything
i'd tell you my name
who i am
why i loved you
why i love you
and i would say,
"if you had the time,"
"maybe you would love me, too."
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