#polyamory vent

[art-is-the-life]

it’s so hard to embrace the polyam side of me when i’m not out to my parents, still living under their roof, have a boyfriend who prefers monogamy, and in love with 2 people at once

[sain-io]

i'm so scared

i'm in a polycule with two other people but im scared one doesnt love me that much/as much as the other

first i was neglected the heart in name on roblox, then on discord, they dont even give me a friend nickname, unlike with the other person in our polycule

they are given the name "The silly ever ♡"

but i'm just my normal discord name. not even with a heart next to it.

they almost only talk in our polycule gc when they talk, never when i do

i lay these thoughts on our other partner (WITH them letting me) and they dont say anything, not even sending a hug or headpat emoji

and then im too terrified to ask if they actually love me, because they can just go "I don't. I never have. I've only tolerated you because you two thought of us three in a relationship."

it happened before, it could again.