#positivedecisions

[regencypartyhall]

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[jeanettehill]

A lesson well learned. #justsayno #focusongod #positivedecisions #productivelife

[rockin-fit13-blog]

A Healthy lifestyle is AWESOME. #change #healthy #lifestyle #positivedecisions #friends #rockinfit

[dynamicinfluence]

Great group of students to #edutain @ today's youlead conference on #leadership & #positivedecisions Thanks for having me @miaa033

[shadesofblueandpurple-blog]

So what am i supposed to say now...?

well, i guess i should start with how i am feeling now. i am sick this weekend. i came down with a head cold on thursday, then i went to see my gp (which prompted me to start this blog) and i am going through a rapid change of meds. i was on effexor, max daily dose, and i was told to stop immediately, let that wash out of my system, and start my new meds on monday, which is valsartan. so there can be side effects to just stopping an anti-depressant like that. then i get my period yesterday, so its fair to say i feel like shit currently. i can’t breath, feel like someone is sitting on my chest and my head is woozy. but i am up and out of bed so thats good. i am not showered or dressed, but thats normal for me - its sunday.

so what changes do i want to make to my life?

i want to make my life more active - i work and then i get home and do fuck all. i want to actually participate in my home and family. like do stuff with my daughter and take care of the house and my family more than i do now

i want to eat healthier and exercise, its good for me mind and body, and if i lose weight it will give me one less thing to beat myself up over

i want to get back to hobbies i used to love - i used to be a bookworm, i used to like to bake regularly, haven’t read or baked in forever. i am a larper but larp lost its appeal recently. which sucks as i have an event in a week and i can’t not go.

so i guess the first thing is i need to make an effort at the next event to really participate, get involved and do stuff. not just be there for the social aspects and only get minimally involved in the rest.

plus if i get back to cooking as the first thing i do to get involved in house/family life there is a far better chance of us eating healthy than if it is left to DH who really puts in minimal effort to it most days, so the food isn’t particularly healthy most of the time. plus if i make lunches for work in advance it will save money.  money is something which worries me a lot.

ok, i think i have figured out where to start.

now i need to rest, my head is so woozy its crazy

[dynamicinfluence]

Thank you @braintree High School for having me #edutaining on making #positivedecisions Great crowd. Fun times!

[nonchalantlychaotic]

I think it is one thing to be young, naive, gullible, whatever you want to call the inexperienced being whom doesn't know their self worth, who unintentionally doesn't value their life, who clings to unhealthy relationships, who looks for answers in all the wrong places, someone who is so desperate to feel something they will do anything.  Sounds tragic, doesn't it?  Still, all that I think, can be forgiven, because that soul didn't know any better at the time.  They needed to live and experience.  And hopefully those experiences led them to good decisions for brighter futures, or maybe they didn't.  Either way, I think it is another thing entirely, when you chose to continue indulging in things you know are bad for you, relationships, people, substances, anything.  That's when you need to check yourself, reevaluate, and not only take a few steps back from those things, but run like hell in the opposite direction.  And never look back.