I think I have something worth sharing here. Today I was just looking through the Potterflies page and I saw something that shocked me. My classmate who had caused me to be where I am now liked the page. Just the thought of it. She supported something that was helping people that were doing what she had caused me to do-cut. The irony of it. I just want everyone to think and reflect. What have you ever done that upset someone badly? In my case, it was name calling from that girl. She called me all sorts of things. On top of that, I had other classmates who did other things. Spreading rumors, ostracizing. You name it. It had hit me so hard. What have I done to cause people to do this to me? I annoyed ONE single classmate because of a small matter. I was responsible for bringing some things to a teacher. We had class roles and I was the class representative for that subject. I was worried for the class that the girl, being very careless, would lose the things that I was responsible for, and result in me getting a big lecture. So, I tried to persuade her to hand the things to me. My cousin was with her at that time. She refused, and that day, the rumors started. My cousin was pulled over the her "side". Some of my closest friends left me too. I was alone, with only my best friend's company. My best friend seemed to have mood swings. Some days she would be very caring and nice to me. Another, she would ostracize me too. I never really got what I did, until the year was over, and I switched school. It was too late for me to apologize. Everyone avoided me like people avoided mud. I wasn't given a single chance. And this is what I landed in today. Depression. Next time you get into an argument, think. Would you do regretful things in the heat of the fight? Most people will. Try to think of the consequences of it. One way or another, one of you would get hurt. Deep down. You might not realize it. People are good at covering up things, like how I've been covering up for my cuts for 2 years now. Not even my parents notice. Think about how much you would hurt someone just because of one thing you say. It could just be through a word: "slut", "whore", "cunt", "idiot". You wouldn't know a person's past so well. You don't know how many memories one sentence, phrase, or even a word can rise. My parents used to call me a idiot, and stupid. After which they will cane me. It got to the point that I am not affected by pain through my legs. I could fall down, be bleeding badly, but I still can't care less. Pain was a regular visitor to me. That day my classmate called me annoying and a idiot, I cut my wrist so badly I had to layer my watch with bandage so that no one would see, or get suspicious about it. Just because of a word. Now you know of my story. Take this as a new point of life. Think through whatever you do. Think about others. Spread this message and just stop hurting people. Just want to let you know. If you need anyone to talk to, I'll be there. You can email me at [email protected]
