#pratiquecompte

[aizawashuichi]

THAT'S MY COUNTRY 🗣️🗣️🗣️

[helholden]

I would like to thank you for your services to the foundation fandom. It wouldn’t be the same without your Gaal x Dawn posts

Awwww, you're welcome! Tbh, though, whenever I lose my mind on my blog about a show, characters, or ship, it's just because I have to get these thoughts out somewhere or I'll go insane. And that's what my blog is for. All my crazy thoughts, hee. I'm very happy they make your day!

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top 5 desserts

Hello, thank you for the ask!

We are by and large not dessert people, so nothing transcendental makes our list. In no particular order:

dark chocolate straight from the fridge

mochi ice cream (forever disappointed that Lidl's heart-shaped blueberry mochis are not in stock year-round)

any fruit we can eat raw (which isn't many of them. Among those, my favourites are tangerine, persimmon, blueberries, raspberries, grapefruit, and pomelo)

Finnish tiger cake (specifically the recipe we learned from our partners @inseparabiles – I don't have the exact one at hand, but it's closer to this than all of the chocolate/orange ones you'll find googling this type of cake) Edit: I have been linked the actual recipe (in Finnish)!

our best friend @xenomorphvevo's egg-free tiramisu (can't have raw egg white for allergy reasons, so the egg gets replaced with whipped cream. I personally like the fruit version best, but it also tastes lovely with regular coffee. I also don't have the recipe at hand.)

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[aizawashuichi]

I was curious about Ethe and how she interprets events. In a post you said she uses complex language to reflect how complex she believes the world to be. Would she would be prone to overcomplicating explanations for people’s actions using complex language? How does she decide how complex/nuanced a situation is?

Okay, first, a question about my OCs? SCREAMING.

I also saw that you went through my Mazzaroth tag, so thank you! And also, I don’t know if you already got an idea of what I meant, but I’m still here to answer lol.

Generally, she uses a formal tone and complicated sentence structures, with many subordinates, to the point that I think it’s sometimes hard to follow her. I need to fix some of it because I still want the story to be as understandable as possible, but most of it needs to be like this. Since her voice is from a later point in time, where she’s vomiting all her thoughts as a coping mechanism and in preparation for something, I want to show how convoluted her mind has become. When it gets to this point and there’s nobody to intervene, then it’s easier to justify all her actions. She can jump from one topic to another and link them together easily, without even having to worry about how the starting and ending point don’t even belong in the same category.

I have a scene where Lex, another OC, noticed that Ethe is hiding in her room to avoid L who came back, after she thought he was gone for good, so he goes to ask her to play trivia together as a team. He doesn’t enter her room. From the other side of the door, he tells her that he has some candies for her and that, if she doesn’t come out, he will need to give them to L so they don’t go bad. Ethe doesn’t relent and he jokes that’s going now to him, but then Ethe hears that he’s going the opposite way.

You know what she got from this conversation? He’s a liar capable of manipulating her into doing what he wants. Not that he’s trying to be kind to her, because he cares about her and is a nice person, which she doesn't deny. None of that. Just that he can be a bad person and an enemy. So, if he ever does anything that might hurt her, 1) she already predicted it, so she shouldn’t feel bad about it, but most importantly, 2) she’s allowed to retaliate.

Her omnipresent paranoia adds to this and makes it worse, because one of the stated reasons for not going down and playing with them is,

Besides, I don't want to show the connections my mind makes to people I don't consider friends and that can create a psychological and behavioural picture of me. Elioenai (B) has not fully succeeded yet and I do not want to help him in this. Seeing me next to people with whom I have no intimacy could give him too many signs to investigate and I must avoid that.

She would rather miss on everything than be perceived in any way she doesn’t approve. It’s a learned thing, because she would hide behind piles of books and stay in a fixed position for hours on end just to avoid her mother. With B, there’s the added thing that he reminds her of her father, so their sporadic partnership is definitely a fun thing I can’t wait to explore, because she thought her father couldn’t see her for how much he ignored her, while here B is cataloguing people.

Here you can find another example of how paranoid she is.

There isn’t really a cut off for when she decides how nuanced a situation is. She overcomplicates pretty much everything, and then maybe reaches a conclusion. To be honest, most of the time is, “It’s not relevant to think about it right now”, which means that she can always come back to it. She can’t let go of things. There are a lot of situations where she’s also like, “Rae and Ayla [her friends, who are getting closer to L and are in his project] have free will and they decided this course of action, and since they know what they are doing, I have no say in it” and then proceed to have a big say in it. Sometimes she just says stuff because she thinks that’s what she’s supposed to think, but without actually believing in it. She just wants to appear logical and objective and thinks a premise is enough. Consider that it’s also an older Ethe thinking back, so maybe some situations got resolved in the meantime and she just states all sides, before talking about the outcome.

The only thing I can say for sure is that the more she’s attached to someone, the more she overthinks it. She wrote 300 words in her diary about how Ayla and L seem close and wonders why, for then spending another 500 words thinking about it, meaning that older Ethe still can’t comprehend how that’s possible and won't accept Ayla finding him tolerable at all and being his friend.

On the other hand, she had this idea of friendship with Lex:

On my part, I should have prepared myself for that possibility, knowing his character, but I didn't expect to get into his graces so quickly. I had a completely different vision of how our friendship would have potentially started: he would've considered me more during lessons and, slowly, I would've gotten closer to his group, until I was fully integrated into it after at least four and a half months. In that way, I could start any conversation I wanted without feeling inadequate under any circumstances.

It was a linear and perfect process to be able to create a stable and constant friendly relation, without the need to overdo it to be liked. It was apparent that I had not fully considered the fact that he was not a passive terminal who acted and adjusted according to my will.

I also think the very fact that she's going through her diary and every meaningful interaction she has had in the past shows a degree of her overthinking everything and her believing the situation was much more complexed than it appeared. Or maybe she's making it much more complex than it is, so she can have justifications.

One last thing is that she reads a lot of books to connect. After playing football once, she started to read about the power of togetherness to apply it to her situation and how she felt. When she had to apologise to Lex for spraining his ankle, she started to tell him all the possible fun facts about football that she read in a book. She's just vomiting what she reads a lot of time, but it shows that she's not entirely capable of understanding things if she can't find a book equivalent, which feeds into her belief that yes, it is that complicated, because no one else has dealt with it.

Unfortunately, I cannot share a lot of excerpts from the story itself to show exactly what I mean by overcomplicating people's thoughts and actions, because Ethe stacks interpretations on top of other interpretations over several chapters that maybe even change what actually happened in the original scene, so it's very hard to show this here. Sorry :< Though, I hope this answer was good enough!

Thank you again for asking, I really appreciate it!

[aizawashuichi]

Please tell me more about this genderfluid Matt headcanon of yours 👀👀👀

hi! honestly I don't have any in depth explanation why I feel like Matt is gender fluid, I just have a gut feeling :']

Obata describes him as a "young man who loves gaming and doesn't really care much about the world" and that's how I see it too, like he doesn't have strong morals, or beliefs, or anything like that. he just smokes a ton and plays videogames most of the time. he doesn't really interact with the outside world or questions what this Kira threat actually is (like he is even surprised that Kira's spokeswoman has so many bodyguards, like where have you been these past months/years?) we never see him ponder deeply about anything, really. so I imagine that he grows up not caring about social roles & genders & gender expectations either, but I can't imagine him to be strong willed enough to realise that he can live outside of this binary entirely, so instead he embraces all titles and labels and everything that are typically associated with every gender and likes it like that.

I also can't imagine him being proactive about it, so he might still stick to he/him prononous just because he got used to it, when talking about himself, but if someone refers to him as she/her for example, he won't mind it. it's like, whatever. it's less about gender expression but just how he feels internally. one day he might feel more one gender, and the next day another, and one week all genders at once and another week all gender again but in a way that it defaults to basically none.

besides, I have this headcanon of Mello wanting to be considered a male under every circumstance, despite not appearing stereotypically male, so it's a fun contrast imo lol

thanks for asking !

[aizawashuichi]

so that wordle today

BYLAW??? what. i got W and A first cuz i always use WATER as my word and then L and not even in my wildest dream i would've thought it was going to be bylaw.

today's was acceptable but i'm bad at this and took me all tries to get it. i'm way better at globle cuz i love countries so much <3

[aizawashuichi]

so… how are we feeling about that wordle today?

It's the first thing I did in the morning and it kinda ruined my mood. I think we jinxed it honestly. they were annoyed at us being mad about two letters that they put FUCKING THREE. it's madness. I hate it.

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Question 14 of the ask game to encourage ask culture again

hiii thank you for the ask!!

14- if you could give a TED talk on anything, what would you talk about?

right now honestly probably (our game of) eurotruck simulator 2. im sure theres things that would be more interesting to the general public (and of more substance) but i am entirely too tired to do any research so i think maybe i can just be like. look at my trucks boy. and all my children (hired drivers and THEIR trucks). as a treat