#prattledisaster

[chemdisaster]

watching a show for the funsies and realising halfway through that the main character is me in so many exquisitely painful and upsettingly ugly ways

:(

[chemdisaster]

man i miss when i would just write things without thinking about the completed work or it being seen by other people

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artists can add all sorts of weird shit to their art and it's fine, but as soon as a writer does literally anything it's "out of character". writers aren't given that same creative freedom at all. when we take creative liberties with something, the fic is shitty and poorly characterised and "god don't you just hate it when fics do x?". we spend hours on this shit, for one tenth of the recognition artists get, and yet we get ten times the shit whenever we don't write the exact fic that someone wants us to. overwhelmingly, it's "i hate it when fics", not "i hate it when art". and it should be neither. let people fucking be creative. they're not doing this for you.

basically, i hate fandom complaints that are worded as if the person thinks that they're right and everyone else is wrong. newsflash, it's fiction - that means it's open to interpretation. if you want to be unquestionably correct, go do some 7th grade math or something. and if you want a fic with a certain characterisation that bad? then quit fucking whining about the fandom and go write it yourself.

(to be clear, this is aimed at people who are self-important dicks about it and try to hinder others' creativity, not people who are just like "oh i wish there was more of this thing". because yeah, i wish there was more scar angst too)

[chemdisaster]

tag on a fanfic: "[character] is a MINOR so no relationships"

yeah...because people under 18 don't have any relationships. at all. ever.

[chemdisaster]

i. hate this so much i just wanna write without worrying about it being a masterpiece without worrying about conforming to my style without overthinking every single stupid worthless line without having to be the best to be perfect even in this just like everything else in my life without comparing myself to everyone under the sun without fucking sucking at this so much i hate words i hate words i hate words

[chemdisaster]

sitting down to write a fic be like

*opens notes app* *stares* *opens discord* *scrolls through tumblr* *reblogs three drawings of block men kissing sloppy style* *opens discord* *opens notes app* *stares*

[chemdisaster]

sometimes i wish some of the conversations i have online were irl so i could have the experience of repeating someone's words in a mocking high-pitched tone of voice while making an exaggeratedly snooty face

[chemdisaster]

so, bit of a chem update - one thing led to another and i am now writing scar and jimmy as tragic lovers forever doomed, but continuing to love each other nonetheless, in every iteration and every version of themselves. all from jimmy's pov

i don't even watch jimmy. help