#praying hard

[park-little-angel-jimin]

Not to sound petty (but I am) I’m hella envious US EU army cos they were overfed with Jikook. While I’m excited that I’m going to see them irl next Sat, knowing that I will need to stand for 11 hours to catch Jikook dust, I’m happy and depressed at the same time (cursing the lousy organiser in Singapore).

Tbh VMiner has been drowning these few months (not that I complain cos Im a sucker for 95zz) and TKer has enough fanservice for a year from just 2 days Nagoya (congrats ur dream cam true I’m happy for yall), so praying hard for a shuffle in the next round 😂.

May a Jikookie dream come true.

[cuppakeiji]

bye guys why am i hearing now that tumblr might disappear by a 50% chance. NOT when i just started my first smau a4u…not my silly app pls 💔💔

[shiningstarlight]

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[we-are-all-eventual-ghosts]

The Lord works in mysterious ways. Gotta give Him my school because it's gonna get interesting for the next couple of months 🤪 Good thing is that I still have a preceptor! Bad part: he no longer works for the school we signed all the paperwork for 😩 But he might still have access to course documents, which is mainly what I'll need from him. And guidance. Ahhhh, life.

[afterthesun0617]

I need to control my thoughts. I need to learn how to get out of this bad habit. Please help me learn this. I worry for no reason and I need to stop. I hate doing this to myself everyday. I tell myself to not dwell on the past and not worry about the future. To live in the present but why is that so hard. Please help me learn how to stop having such a negative way of thinking God. I really need your help. Please help me learn how to realize that reality is good and there are no problems. Please help me learn how to accept that and stop constantly searching for problems or anticipating problems that don’t exist. I really need you to help me break this habit God. I really need to get into a healthier more positive abs happier routine of thinking everyday God. Also please help me get a hold of the therapist tomorrow. I really want to see a therapist as soon as possible. I need to stop dissociating from reality. and let myself be happy. I need to get out of the “everything is good right now so something bad must be coming up” mindset. In Jesus name Amen.

[trevd]

9 secs.

[ya-cali]

The process

It’s gonna hurt and it’s gonna take time but at least I know my heart is pure & real at least I know I gave my all to a situation I thought was real.

It’s a process that’s not easy for me it’s going to take time. It’s gonna hurt more days than some but I know what I want I’m realizing what I deserve. I’ll get over it & will be wiser, stronger & happier soon.

[ya-cali]

3:11am

A lot of the times when I’m hurting or not being able to understand why certain things happen I question why me! Then I hear God saying why not you! ... I know things could be worse but why can’t it be better. & why do I have to go through all this hurt just to find my husband. I admire real love and literally that’s all I want.