Posting a throw back to last September, where Carter was barely 4 months old and didn't yet have his diagnosis. I'll admit to my T1 community that I had a dream last night that he was still diabetes-free. Every soft surface of his baby skin was free from needle and cannula holes, he didn't have small pieces of adhesive residue all over his body and he didn't yet know the pain he'd have to face several times a week so that we could keep him alive. Yes, we get into a routine of "just doing it" and trying not to think about what we are doing to our poor babies just to keep them here with us. Yes, I know the alternative to not doing this to him. But it still greatly pains me and will, every once in awhile, eat at me that a part of his infancy was given to diabetes. This is my boo-hoo moment, maybe my 2nd or 3rd moment in 8 months, and I just had to vent 💙💙 thanks for listening ✌🏻 🎗️💙🎗️ #prayingforacure #weneedacure #curediabetes #typeonetotypenone #typeDONE #infantsandinsulin #insulindependent #diabetesmom #typeonediabetes #type1diabetes #typeonekids #type1toddler #prayingforamiracle #neonataldiabetes #monogenicdiabetes #chronicillness
