Past Mistakes. Present Grace.
No one is too far gone to be reached by God.! That’s a blessing in itself. I’ve always felt God moving in me nd speaking to me through music. It was amazing to feel that same energy be amplified as a room full of thousands sang nd gave praises to Him! There’s nothing like being lost in the moment. I was def lost. I praised God in ways I never really felt comfortable doing before. I Threw my hands in the air… Waved my arms… Stood to my feet… Danced off beat. Lol (the kid next to me had an interesting nd Loud clap pattern :]). No one cared though. Everyone was there for one thing nd that was to worship our father. The lack of insecurity nd judgement were just a bonus. :]
Last night was awesome. I left my “game face” at home nd went in with an open heart nd mind… Felt God in ways I couldn’t have imagined… Today I woke up prepared to carry God’s power with me throughout the day. I’m already sensing that’s going to be difficult b u t I’m ready for whatever nd I keep reminding myself ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH CHRIST. :]
I’m praying that today I can share this feeling. I’m asking God to allow me to be a vessel nd let His light shine through me. I’ve come along way nd I know this is just the beginning. I understand how easy it is to feel undeserving or worthless by someone so Amazing nd Great… Almighty nd Powerful. However, I keep seeing peers taken away soo young nd I’m still here. I’m realizing I’m here for something. I can’t quite pin it yet but I know God is preparing me for something. I’ve always wanted to help others especially those shunned by society. None of us deserve the gift of God’s grace but he gave His son for that very reason. Now that grace is working through me. I’m small, far from perfect, damaged, crass, broken, stubborn, selfish… I want God to lead me to ppl just like myself. No one is more deserving of healing nd love than the lost nd broken. :]
If you’re reading this, I’m praying for you. Pray for me too. <3