#preshta yaps

[radically-fischl]

how it feels being (perma)14 and seeing 'mdni' on like. random coining posts. cmon man.

[radically-fischl]

Hi! I'm going around sending asks to folks trying to educate myself and understand certain transIDs better. I have some questions if you'd be comfortable answering! :3

Specifically, these questions are for the following transIDs: transrace, transplural

What does your transID mean to you? Why do you identify the way you do? When did you realize you were transID? How did you come to this realization? Have you done anything to transition into your transID? If so, what? What are your most and least favorite parts of being transID? How does being transID impact your daily life? What are some common misconceptions people have about transIDs? What do you wish people knew about transIDs? Is there anything you dislike or dissaprove of within the transID community? Do you experience dysphoria related to your transID? What is it like? How do you view those who are cisID?

Thank you!

hiii ofc im more than happy to answer any questions u have!! im not transplural so i cant really speak on that, but i am transrace, so ill answer about that!! (also i, preshta, am transindian, but were collectively transchinese, so ill answer abt that)

What does your transID mean to you? Why do you identify the way you do?

-> being transrace to me means choosing to be my truest self. i identify as transchinese for the same reason i identify as transmasc-- it feels innately right within myself, and i feel like im performing whiteness and femininity as opposed to just being those things.

When did you realize you were transID? How did you come to this realization?

-> i think ive always shown signs of being transasian, but it didnt really click that that was what it was until i made an irl friend that was also transrace and i did some soulsearching. while my memory of childhood is pretty spotty, i remember fixating on anything chinese growing up, relating to it more than i ever did to media aimed at white children or starring white characters. once i started flirting with the idea of being transrace, i kept realizing how much it made sense and how much happier it made me to identify that way. initially i rejected the idea, not out of self-sabotage, but because im cisOCD and one of my biggest OCD-related fears is being racist. (to clarify, i thought at the time it was fine when other people identified as transrace/transitioned, but it was somehow racist when i did it.) luckily, ive accepted myself since then :3

Have you done anything to transition into your transID? If so, what?

-> while i havent really done anything appearance-wise, ive been learning mandarin chinese and immersing myself in chinese culture. i live pretty close to my citys chinatown, so i go when i can to get chinese food and practice reading. i studied chinese in school, before i realized i was transrace, and ive been trying to keep up with my studies now that im not in school anymore. ive been watching cdramas, listening to cpop and peking opera, and learning about chinese history (mostly through youtube).

What are your most and least favorite parts of being transID?

-> my favorite part is probably being able to interact with other transrace people, especially other transchinese/transasian people! its nice to have a community where i can be my full, authentic self. my least favorite part is definitely the dysphoria </3

How does being transID impact your daily life?

-> its mostly just a deepseated discomfort, tbh. it influences a lot of my decisions as i do pretty much whatever i can to alleviate it, short of packing up and moving to shanghai.

What are some common misconceptions people have about transIDs?

-> id say the biggest misconception people have about transrace specifically is that its all people born white 'pretending' to be asian because they think its 'aesthetic.' thats far from it. its something you feel deeply within your being. one of the things that i have a lot of dysphoria about is that i never had to (and never will have to) study for the gaokao, which is infamous for just how intensive and overall terrible it is to have to study for. one thing i see is people who say "wait until rcta/transrace ppl realize that this is chinese food too. heh #owned" and then showing a dish that looks a little bit less appealing to the western eye, and its like... oh guess ill stop being transrace now because one kind of food looks a little icky...?

What do you wish people knew about transIDs?

-> i just wish more people would be willing to accept that like. a persons identity and transition doesnt have to make sense to anybody but them. you dont need to understand somebodys identity to support them.

Is there anything you dislike or dissaprove of within the transID community?

-> this new, very vocal subset of people who call themselves radqueers but then dont support or believe in transrace, transabled, or transharm labels. they call themselves radqueer and theyre just not. its okay to just go make a new term and i dont think they realize. radqueer is radical acceptance, and that means EVERYTHING, including the stuff that makes u a little uncomfy.

Do you experience dysphoria related to your transID? What is it like?

-> oh 100%. my dysphoria is partially around my appearance (not looking asian) but mostly its around the fact that i wasnt raised natively in the culture i feel i shouldve been. ill never experience a chinese/chinese-american childhood. :(

How do you view those who are cisID?

-> in all honesty, i view people who are cischinese more or less the same as i view people who are transchinese-- they're both chinese, the former has just had more time to live like that. does that make sense

[radically-fischl]

its missing source hours :/

[radically-fischl]

every time i get back into hsr i get sad. where the shotas at brah

[radically-fischl]

did yall know ur allowed to take ur favorite characters and change their names and put them in new settings and change their backstories to fit. did u know ur allowed to call those characters ocs. this is so fun

[radically-fischl]

i love being a girl but is this cramping and bleeding stuff rly necessary. like uterus babe u KNOW im not getting laid why do you do this every month

[radically-fischl]

:3

hiii!! waves so much