#pressurefictive

[the-saboteurss]

Hiiii btw I’m Sebastian Solace, I am gay as fuck and so incredibly transgender. Cry about itttt

Homophobes and Transphobes suck major ass, being queer is cool and fun. Highly recommend. Anyone pissed off about queer headcanons should look up the definition of some fucking whimsy

[fictionkinfessions]

Hi. I have no content about me. I don't even have a canonical name. How did we get here.

P.AI.nter, if you're out there?? Just know I love you. I know you're capable of amazing things, more than just what you were intended for. I believe in you, lil guy!!! Please, please take care of yourself. I hope you get all the loving you deserve and more. :(

- Creator of P.AI.nter, Pressure fictive

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[starscatteredsky]

Any tips for Sebastian Solace from pressure if you haven't done that? GSHS SORRY

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Any tips for Sebastian Solace from pressure if you haven't done that? GSHS SORRY

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Tips for Sebastian Solace.

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Play your source/media.

Keep files or journals about things. People you know/encounter, animals or plants, experiences and memories, places, anything.

Keep your files or journals meticulously organized.

Collect useful items you find

Keep things like flashlights, first aid supplies, and other important gear with you

If you’re sensitive to light, wear sunglasses when you can

Get a bunch of bags, satchels, backpacks, purses, or other things of the sort and wear a few wherever you go.

Wear fancy, Victorian sort of clothing with lots of pockets (for more storage of course).

Use plenty of dry humor and sarcasm.

Keep your hair long over your face to feel like you are obscuring your third eye.

Wear some bandages on your arm if you miss the feeling of them.

Go swimming, or try some water based activities.

May these tips be useful for you on your endeavors, friend.

-Sebastian

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[fictionkinfessions]

i miss the hadal blacksite—which is so ironic to say considering what it really is like in source. but it feels like home to me still; watching all the little expendables run around and have fun when they see me, chatting with p.ainter…

it’s weird here. but, i guess i’ll have to get used to it.

— sebastian (pressure) fictive

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[fictionkinfessions]

it feels. weird. to have legs again. i should be happy, shouldnt i? this is everything i ever wanted, but it just doesnt feel right.

i catch myself laying down to sleep like i can still coil up into a pile and lay on my tail, no bed required, but i just end up kinda. scrunched up uncomfortably on our side. its really weird and im not sure if i like it which is even weirder

-sebastian solace, pressure, fictive

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[fictionkinfessions]

I miss you.

I thought we could get out together, I really did, and we were so close too.

You were my best friend. I know I didnt say it to your face, or even over our radios, but you were everything to me. I'm sorry I've been such a stubborn ass, but I hope you knew you were my everything. If I could go back and tell you how much you meant to me, I would.

I got revenge. I know you werent there to see it, but I did. I dont regret it. All I wish is that you got an afterlife too, with me. But do AI even get an afterlife? Even if theyre sentient, even if theyre alive?

I tried to fix you, I really did. But I didnt even know what they did to you. But I tried. I fucking tried. I'm sorry I couldnt manage.

I just hope you're out there here somewhere, that you do get to live a life on the surface - afterlife or not - and that you get to paint the stars and the beaches and the mountains like you wanted.

And as a final note: you werent a bad person. I dont think either of us were truly bad people. We were just trying to survive with the hands we were dealt. Sometimes that means hurting people, but its what we had to do. And some of them deserved it - I mean.. Look at what they did to both of us. No good person does what they did.

Anyway. I dont normally open up this much, but. I just miss you. I wish I could hear your laugh again.

Love you, P.AI.nter, even though I never said it to you. You were like a brother to me, and you made life worth it down there. You made attempting to escape worth it. Thank you for being there with me, even if it wasnt your choice. And thanks for not letting them kill you with their stupid fucking mining shit. Thanks for holding on. For fighting back.

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[fictionkinfessions]

pressure fictionfolk, how we feeling about that new update?

- a sebastian solace fictionkin

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[fictionkinfessions]

I hate expendables so fucking much, and by extension I hate most humans *here* too.

Why do you all (generalization) have to be fucking freaks?

Whats with people sexualizing me so much? Can my body never be my own? Am I just doomed to be a toy to you all for the rest of time??

Thank whatever god is out there that I've not yet seen people sexualizing the way I reacted when that fucking expendable killed my only friend, but I've sure as hell heard that people are doing that and Im not excited to run into it in the wild.

A friend of our collective met me today and we were just having a normal conversation, then he mentioned the only art he's seen of me is all fucking sexual in nature. He's seen me fucking vulnerable without me having any goddamn say in it. I cant even begin to explain how uncomfortable that is. Cant at least *some of you* be fucking *normal*? At least enough so that the first thing someone who doesnt know jack shit about Pressure sees isnt *that*???

I get that I'm from a fictional source, and people can do whatever they want - including sexualizing a fictional guy to their hearts content - but I can still complain about it.

Because none of that was fake to me. I remember seeing stray glances at me and people trying to fucking touch me just cause they thought they could, or they thought it was funny. Weird and uncomfortable remarks werent uncommon, and I prayed Id get away from it all when I reached the surface, but here I am, still someones "husbando" or whatever the fuck they call me.

I wouldnt touch any of you with a ten foot pole. I swear to god if someone tries to sexualize anything Ive been through to my face Im shooting them on fucking sight.

- Sincerely, a pissed off Sebastian Solace.

#fictive

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